the shittiest part about bein dspri is despite once being two living creatures and a sword, once i was sprited i was literally just a handful of lines of code. like if i concentrated super hard i could literally see my goddamn code if that aint demoralizing i dont know what is. plus it meant i had no chance of ever leaving the game, even if everyone won, id just be forever stuck in its code.

tfw the song colours by halsey comes on and im immediatley hit with the Sick Feels(tm) for my dave/sprite timeline

i??? really fucking wish i could stop being uncomfortable with doubles of dspri. like i thought maybe after the first time where i was literally shaking so hard and questioning if i was rly dspri that i had to lay down on the floor where i was and take a nap that itd get better, but im still so ridiculously not okay with doubles and i hate it. like all the dspris ive seen in the tags seem perfectly nice and i know corvid is but like i just. cant. and i hate it. like i *wanna* talk to other dspris about what they went thru, but i cant fucking even.