#drifting thoughts

How fucking awful must it have been while Corvo was in there? Knowing he was so fucking close to home, but also so fucking far.

Even the water carries memory it cannot release.

It moves in circles, but some pieces are gone forever.

A fountain remembers every drop it ever held,

every drop recalls a summer that never came back.

Even sparkling water can ache.

" Find what you love and let it kill you. Let it drain you of your all. Let it cling onto your back and weigh you down to eventual nothingness. Let it kill you and devour your remains.

For all things will kill you, both slowly and fastly, but it's much better to be killed by a lover."

It’s bad.

It’s like really fucking bad.

It’s worse than when he won in 2016 because that was a “well the electoral college got him on that one!” And this….like he’s solidly won the popular vote. After everything. After EVERYthing. And I think that’s the worst part.

Hope and I…have a very weird relationship. And I’ve talked about that before. We don’t see each other a lot and when we do there isn’t a lot of trust in it.

I am trying very hard to hang onto hope during this, bc there is nothing else at this point that we have.

But he’s got the courts now. He’s got Congress now. He’s got proof that people will follow him despite all the shit he’s done. He can shoot a man on 5th avenue and face no consequences.

And I’m…I got no words. I have to believe we’ll get thru it again. I have to. Because drowning in it isn’t gonna help much of anyone. And we owe it to ourselves and the people in our communities that are endangered to persist and show up for them.

But fuck man. It’s really fucking bad.

But I am not.

I always forget that I am here.

Right now, I see that I am here.

Taking to you, walking with you.

Laughing with you,

The usual stuffs.

But I am not.

I am somehere else.

In the books I have read.

In the songs I have listen.

In the dramas I have watched.

In the thousand stories I have imagined in my head.

I am so far away.

In places further than the galaxy.

I am not here.

I think it could've been better with just a couple changes.

Instead of freezing one of the optional protagonists or the other, have them on the boat at the same time. One is gathering information while the other is going after targets.

I think Corvo should be mute, honestly. Whether he took a vow or silence in the first game or torture fucked his voice box.

Maybe that's why he can't go after targets; he can't interrogate, so he's reluctantly letting Emily take the lead.

The antagonist shouldn't be Delilah. I personally agree with all the videos that point out what a problem her story is.

Information gathering should be a key part of every mission. I rather like the first game, where the objective of every mission leads right into the next: Campbell has the location of Emily and the Pendletons, as well as the paintings as clues as to who to go for next, etc.

There's no way Corvo doesn't clock Billie as an assassin. She's shady as shit.