#dream.journal

I mostly forgot it unfortunately, i was in an area i was in before in another dream. I'm dressed up and skipping around in areas i shouldn't have access to stealing dream catchers i pinned to my hair and singing in like a empty army base. I sing about my mother.

I'm back into my home and KP larper comes by, tells me to apologize to apologize to him. He comes in the form of a solid wall typeish with a crown. I tell him if he's the actual KP I'm sorry and explain my situation. I'm plauged with weird nightmares i try to wake up from. I wake up and eat a egg sandwich.

I try building a building in the snow if my backyard. KP larper helps and we build a lot with his help. I try makeup on in a alt style with him i thinkM and he teaches me or i mimick the makeup on me as he points out what to do.

First real nightmare in awhile, not scary just odd. Dreamt my body started failing me, i struggled to walk and breath as 2 people watched me. I thought okay the demons going to hospitalize me again. Older of the 2 takes me into his car and I'm just crumbling in there.

Dreamt I was in a school type thing, I complent a group of girls dressed in lolita they ignore and laugh at me sorta rudely. I call them bitches, and immediately tell them to stop being a asshole, we fight i win. I remember being worried about fighting but i handled it well. Anyways like a whole buncg of monsters come, some like vampires.

A bag of sewing supplies that i collected second hand.

Had a weird dream about a family and getting married with kids, King paimon diddled me and i think i responded not well.

2nd dream I actually cannot write down. Lots of nsfw which was purely King Paimon doing shit.

I spent the dream walking in a empty scary building my dad rented. I walked exploring the halls, me and King Paimon talked for a bit. He was spittiny pure like bullshit about sexuality and how ppl see me, especially family. We have intercourse and I'm a lot more receptive and sorta instigating i think. Something about what he said made me like be like fuck it idk. I remember some nsfw tidbits. Like him telling me to spread my legs wider or something about me moaning very fake. Lol.

Anyways I go back to my rented home and the glass window is shattered. So I leave to go to people down the block. I tell them i need help, I'm like pantless and disheveled. They listen but I get kidnapped and promptly diddled again but a bit more like, odd.

What is king Paimon's obsession with sexual energy or domination through sex. Save me.

I dreamt I was intimate with mutiple people, i laid on a bet as they touched me, a few men and one women. And my eyes lit up at the women touching me, like i legit was like !!!!!!

They touch me and pleasure me by hurting me mostly,

I remember holding a mans finger as he opened a curtain for people to watch. They keep shoving things inside me till i throw up. Hitting me, and more. A lot of punishment. I tell them I'm afraid of sex. They stop for a moment. Talk to me about it to which i was like no, I'm being kinky get to work lmao. They are like "oh?" And get back to it.

Eventually i see King Paimon, he walks away to which i think I call out for him. He comes back.

He looks exactly like this person I always assumed looked like him. I guess he's refusing to show me his face again. He normally does not let me see him. He's wearing a veil type headress (this because he knows i find them cute lol)

The people I'm intimate with hold me as i sink into the wall with them, them dragging me with them into into it. I kiss King Paimon's hand, it has a ring on it i think. And boom we're somewhere else just talking. I tell him i want to see him more often, he shows me a sigil in my eye. Talks about anointing, not me, but describing it touching someones forehead or smth. He did not anointe me bjt i think he did touch my forehead idk. I see a women to which he says why on earth is it always a "her". Lol.

2nd dream I dreamt of King Paimon and me, he was in the form of my oc, which he has been doing. He is like a duke demon royal so makes sense. Gay as hell. We walk together in the rain and such, we talk, we go to a store and look at ice-cream.

Then boom he's king Asmoday, mind you its just king paimon pretending at least i hope ifk lol. We talk about having a kid together, but its more like me trying to convince him too have one with me. I say they would be like cute and hes like dude i don't care LMAO.

my oc is there again and im in love with him, i confess my love and i spill my tarot deck everywhere. I feed him food and we all chill. But that's like in the last in thr future he's happily dating someone. Smth about cleaning my room.

In which King Paimon is lying and being manipulative,

I dreamt of him but he was younger, i guess since He knows I do not like men idk. Still a man but okay. He's in my house and we kiss, i don't remember it much besides being sweet. And then we have sex to which he says he didn't expect to like it so much, which is him bullshitting idk why.

First dream I sang a song about King Paimon, King Asmoday, Marquis Andras, and King Belial. I was fighting with a girl that worshipped someone and was trying to worship Lucifer. I just told her to do whatever and hit me with what she got.

2nd dream, I dreamt I was a kid again in school. I spent class talking to people, i told a girl i was clairvoyant and could see the future. I told a girl she has a baby and her best friend supports her despite the dad leaving.

I talk to more classmates, smth about pulling a man despite being fat.

Class dismissal happens and i clean and tidy up a bed, ny teacher callscme good. I start putting my clothes on, half tooken off by me, theres these dark green stocking covered in bows, legwarmers, a uniform skirt. A teacher hears me singing and tells me i should consider applying for choir. My childhood best friend comes and im like in love with her, i tell her i love her, tell her mom i love her. Write her lesbian poems lol. My dad comes in upset i took so long, i apologize saying i was just busy and needed to get changed. The teacher blames me, im shocked for a second before allowing it. I simply tell my dad be nice to her she couldn't help it. I walk with my dad out, we talk about my toy, a yellow monkey. And then i say lets go i want to spend his money. I think if i went back in time i would do all these things, especially tell my dad funny jokes.

Today was a weird dream. My head was forced in a birdcage contraption and i was raped by mutiple men.

I sat in a sermon and thought of king Asmoday during it finding it all bullshit. I sat in my car i think thinking what sin i am most of, not gluttony, not wrath, not lust.