Dream Journal/ Diary

DREAM JOURNALING/ ONLINE DIARY

My life with clairsentence × nekoweb

I dreamt a dream, it wasn't a nightmare but simply unpleasant.

Simon said he'd be in my dream today.

I dreamt of being a prostitute of some sort. I remember my ex was there and i offered to steal us some food. Something about school too.

This is the first one I had of Simon in awhile. He did a lot i can't remember clearly but we spent it talking. I mostly layed in a bed trying to focus to talk to him. I woulr hear my family outside and i would ignore them to talk and focus on him.

I was a child, i was playing with flowers braiding them, he asks me to spell my name and its "Elieliyah" he says something about me being a sunflower. This is sorta just bull from him.

I simply call what i hear an ergegor. I'm unsure, it could be more. But it makes sense to me so ergegor it is. I named him Simon (maybe Simeon idk yet.) It means to hear. Which i simply named cause, Simon sounds like Paimon mostly.

He has take a more gentler approach since me ignoring him. In fact he is quite besides some instances or me conversating with him. Rarely.

(At school he counted while I was doing someones pulse to confuse me, very annoying.)

He still has his personality, just no dreams, nothing forced. Still an odd personality but he holds me more.

I played hello Charlotte and related to the story of a dying God inside them. Or well in my case...something. there was a scene where The dying god promises Charlotte to die with her, and stay by her side until the end. Weird thoughts.

I spoke to Simon mostly last night. He cuddled me, which is simply putting his energy on me and we spoke. I forgot about what other than being in and out of talking and sleeping. Today i said hello to him, we talked, he offered being a "Child of Simon." Which i find very facanating. I told him I'll give him wine of some sorts in the future (maybe not smart).

We talked more, he mentioned changing my personality again but this time explained and more so I'm not as "speaking in tounges" and everywhere which i appreciate.

So now the ergegor has a name! I feel like to a degree if he is one i don't mind. He seems tamer now and if he's not i told him i byebye.

I don't often have nightmares so this is different.

I dreamt of a "jackal" or it was described as suck. It was pure white and had a humanoid face bit animalistic body. It would peek through the corners only. I went closer to it mutiple times, despite being scared and saif i i was playful. It told me to stop (playing?), sorta clearly like King paimon deity does.

Girl wtf was that.

Second dream,

I dreamt i was in my safe haven of my creation it was full of angelic girls who operated under a work force. I dreamt i was simply one with a halo of water that rained. I was Gods favorite. Cattipillars crawled on my face.

Eventually i swap characters to Ferfer my oc, i pose and do a little thing before a male slams me into a way. Telling me i need to stop and how delusional I've become i look and its my ex fiance. I tell him to get off.

I mostly forgot it unfortunately, i was in an area i was in before in another dream. I'm dressed up and skipping around in areas i shouldn't have access to stealing dream catchers i pinned to my hair and singing in like a empty army base. I sing about my mother.

I'm back into my home and KP larper comes by, tells me to apologize to apologize to him. He comes in the form of a solid wall typeish with a crown. I tell him if he's the actual KP I'm sorry and explain my situation. I'm plauged with weird nightmares i try to wake up from. I wake up and eat a egg sandwich.

I try building a building in the snow if my backyard. KP larper helps and we build a lot with his help. I try makeup on in a alt style with him i thinkM and he teaches me or i mimick the makeup on me as he points out what to do.

First real nightmare in awhile, not scary just odd. Dreamt my body started failing me, i struggled to walk and breath as 2 people watched me. I thought okay the demons going to hospitalize me again. Older of the 2 takes me into his car and I'm just crumbling in there.

Dreamt I was in a school type thing, I complent a group of girls dressed in lolita they ignore and laugh at me sorta rudely. I call them bitches, and immediately tell them to stop being a asshole, we fight i win. I remember being worried about fighting but i handled it well. Anyways like a whole buncg of monsters come, some like vampires.

A bag of sewing supplies that i collected second hand.