My experience with King Paimon: A year of "attachment" HELP NEEDED
I’ve been working with, or rather, dealing with the presence of King Paimon or what i think is KP for over a year now. It started randomly, he introduced himself and just watched me with my practice. What started as a pleasent connection despite his stoicness quickly shifted into something much more intense and demanding when working with him got involved. (Obviously lol)
The connection was all-consuming 24/7, no breaks or separations, constant and continuous conversations even in my sleep I'd be lucid and we'd talk through it. At our peak, we were deeply intertwined, he would see my intrusive thoughts and dismantle them completely comforting me, sing me songs about sunlight. I dreamt of us being one person, where i was a part of him. He would feed off my fatigue to keep me awake throughout the night to talk with him, help with my clairvoyance, remove my bad traits and change my personality to be stronger, and protect me, I've even experienced small blessings from him which i enjoyed heavily around music and song, we even had intimate relationships, both awake and dreams. He was incredibly focused on seduction and constantly pushed for worship with it. He often told me "I deserve pleasure" I found it charming at first. Assuming it was from my troubled past with intimacy so I allowed it and gave it a try. Never to the degree he wanted I suppose he spoke of sexual rituals with other practitioners to which i firmly rejected (I practice chasity). There was always a focus on connection that way, to which I always viewed as my love for him rather then ritualistic as his view point, and often did it cause like its a dream idagaf at least its not real life, in fact I did not know they were ritualistic until he told me they were 😭. It has been like this since day 2 of him, in which he claimed me in a dream in the springtime as i watched yellow tulips out through a window. He was truly the only connection i only cared about and often we just spoke, i think i good majority of our connection was just speaking and joking, obviously me more then him. He suggested I should be and learn about Lucferian to which I tried but it never worked out and lack of interest. I have prayed once to Lucifer and it was met with positive from Lucifer and indifference from King Paimon (its because i compained about him lol). He suggest I worship him as well which i did, alter and prayers to King Paimon which he was very supportive of and demanded and offering of cutting my hair short and chasity for him. He suggested I wear his seal on my neck and such as well as write it on my body occasionally, which he was slightly upset i drew it poorly on me. Whenever I asked about our connection he said he viewed me as one of his people aka his worshipers and such.
Things turned sour when I decided to prioritize my own life over our connection. I struggle with management and giving myself fully into religion but I wanted a break, especially 24/7 which it was. I ended up realizing I’m ace-aro and a lesbian as well, and his constant pressure for sexual rituals and his refusal to respect my boundaries became a nightmare. He became manipulative, shaming my intrusive thoughts and continuing to act out sexually even when I explicitly refused. In dreams he would pentrate me and then stop as if just seeking out the connection and energy from it. He would make me beg for him and such but it did get to a point i would reject him in dreams and fantasize about women or he would begrudgingly come as a women or complain about my preferences for them. Even sex with him was shaming me often about things I'm deeply self conscious about. He would make me dream about getting violated forcefully by men and more horrendous things. Luckily it is a dream and i don't let it get to me to much.
It’s been a long journey, more then a year of him being here every single day and every single second, but I’ve stopped doing any work with him and now mostly ignore his attempts to get a rise out of me. He still lingers, tries to change forms, and complains about my boundaries, but the power dynamic has shifted. Looking back, it feels like a parasitic connection where he was trying to erode my identity to make me "his", which he often says i am. It's even got to a point he's talked to other clairvoyants surrounding me and 3 people confirmed it was him or at least obviously something attached to me in his form (if its him or not, they saw him physically as well).
I am very childish about my practice but I do know he is not angry man, the only time he was massively is when I tried to cut connection with him. To which i was forcefully made to kneel and convulse (like he controlled my body, i did not do it willingly). I am not joking about this, the convulsions were so bad i was hospitalized with seizure like symptoms and songs on him were stuck on repeat on my head.
I would like feedback on this situation, both on:
1) figuring out if its actually him.
2) demon bullshit logic for this,
3) How to end the parasite connection overall.
Please and thank you guys! He is not the only demon I've dealt with, I'm clairvoyant and have a long history with it but not demonolatry and such.
Yes i have sought our both professional medical and spiritual advice. I'm very open to opinion and beliefs as long as your nice please and thank you 😭.
I've had 2 other clairvoyants confirm mutiple times it's something that comes in the form of KP, either him or not. He seems to respond when you slander KP as well. (From another practitioner he attacked when they slandered his name when he first came and was watching me)
As for a description of him he comes in mutiple forms of men. Occasionally a child version of his Gotia form. To which i cuddle him like that, he doesn't seem to care to much about me, both likes and interests, which is fine obviously, but he will fe3d into things i like or are attracted too. Such as forms and scenarios and interests.
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