Can you maybe expand on "Vander called it a brotherly relationship because he wasn't honest with himself". Like maybe Viktor walking through Vader's mind and seeing those feelings and reflecting back to him about him and Jayce and what that might mean about how Silco might have felt?
Or his take on Vander's regret about the falling out with Silco?
Ooh how fun. Alright imma do this in dot points but I have a lot to say about this
- Vander was always an open and accepting man. He welcomed anyone through his doors no matter who they were because that just the kind person he was
- But that kindness didn't always extend to himself, he needed to make sure he kept fighting for a better future for The Lanes. So that didn't leave much room for self discovery
- I didn't matter if he spared a glance or too at Silco whilst he was working, his hair hung in his face as he concentrated on his work. Or the way his eyes shone really brightly. Those were just things you noticed about your long time best friend. Right?
- But when Vander pictured and dreamed of a better life in the Undercity Silco was always right beside him. A vivid and beautiful piece to his final product. Silco had to be in it
- And sometimes he wanted to hold Silco. Maybe a pat on the shoulder turned into a supportive squeeze. Or maybe slinging his arm over Silco's smaller shoulders was more than just a relaxed gesture. And maybe he got preoccupied looking at Silco's lips rather than his eyes when he talked but that didn't matter either.
- And even when his mind was splintered and his girls were the only things that could hold him together. Did he see Silco's face reflected in Jinx
- And then it wasn't just his girls he remembered but Silco too. How he had been before everything turned to shit
- And when the herald held his head and walked through all his memories did he still see Silco. Brighter and clearer than ever.
- As Viktor walked through his mind he was that confusion. That complication he had never been able to understand.
- There was a deep rooted longing, covered in a layer concentration. Like there was an effort to ignore this huge bubble ready to pop
- Viktor saw it, and studied it. Realising what it was as he walked through Vanders mind day after day. He saw a broken heart. And regret.
- The biggest piece reflected Silco. It had traces of him wrapped around it and spilling out onto everything around it
- Viktor could see something unsaid buried inside him. Some regret too hard to bear. Something that had to be burried. Or so Vander thought
- And as Viktor looked more and more at Vander he saw something else reflected in his heart. Something he recognised inside himself
- He saw parallels to how he looked at Jayce. How he would watch him, and study him and cherish ever spare moment they spent together. Working in the lab or simply talking.
- And as he thought harder he realised that those glances and moments Vander remembered were entangled with unnoticed shared affection from Silco.
- They had both loved eachother dearly. But never had the heart to say anything, despite how badly it ached and the desire burned.
- And in that reflection he saw his own memories. He saw Jayce. The same way Vander saw Silco
- Somehow it was always Jayce reflected back to him. The same way Silco reflected back to Vander
I hope you enjoyed that, I've been feeling a bit poetic recently. If you'd like to see my take on any other ships or moments please let me know!