#dontknowwheretogo

What would you do if you start on turning to someone who you hated the most?

I'm sad. I guess that's where I'm going to start. My mum doesn't care for me, she only wants me so I can do shit for her. Her boyfriends a fucking grandfather to 3 kids. He's also the biggest dickhead you have ever met. My dad lives 1 hour away. He has a girlfriend too. But she's so nice. I feel like I need to live there, but it's so far away from school and friends, I don't think I can do it. My mum told me one night that she wouldn't of cared if I came home or not. That was possibly one of the worst nights of my life. My brother is always treated like royalty. He gets everything. When he says something's sore, it's 10 doctors appointments, 30 days off school, mum buys him everything and anything he needs. I sound like a bitch right? When I'm sore, I'm told to suck it up and go to school. Mum throws some tablets at me and goes to work. My life revolves around my brother. He tells me to do stuff and I'm actually forced to do it. My step mum is the only one who understands me and has time for me. Everyone else is too busy for me or is too busy with their head up their ass. Schools aright I guess. I act so happy and everyone buys it. No one knows that I act. I have great friends. They have their own problems too, but lets not go there. I have a boyfriend. He's so cute. He's a year younger tho. He's knows some things about my "family". And I use the word "family" loosely. I don't want him to have to know about my fucked up shit at "home". I don't even know where my home is. I guess my life is just one big fuck hole. I want to thank you for taking my shit, tumblr. You just listen, no talking, just listening.