#donewithrelationships

Being Cheated On Is The Worst Pain💔 #DoneWithRelationships https://www.instagram.com/p/ByQADi7hJriLmxKHjYCole6uyvIxBnryM3o-Yo0/?igshid=jocy8l9l2e5l

I hope you have a safe and Pain free and happy New Year. #2019Newmenewyear #donewithrelationships #thisQueendoesntneedaKingjustGod https://www.instagram.com/p/BsCe4YflN-T/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=139muwt2djxkl

I just wanted you to love me, I never cared about the sex. I never cared about the time i had to spend to get to you, I just wanted you and I wanted to make you smile. I got a call from you today, twice. The first time was this morning, you wanted to check in on me because you heard I had been in the hospital three times. Great, I’m glad your conscious got the better of you and you decided to call. What is sad is the second call you wanted to smoke and see me. You were determined to pull a man move. You, like the rest of the garbage men I’ve dated, had to dominate me, your ex, just to prove to yourself that you could still sleep with me even when we’re not together. I’m not mad at you, entirely. I am mad at myself for not being able to resist your charm or your body..everything about you is wrong but your body just takes over me completely and I can’t help it... now I’m sitting here alone, facing regret.. all I ever wanted was a future for us to grow into..instead I’m proven wrong again and again..when will I learn? When will I find a man who will actually love me and my son? Who will give us the life we deserve? Not financially but spiritually! My son needs a father figure and I need a man to hold it all down.. chivalry truly is dead..

I'm done trying to be happy. Running into people that make there way in to my heart and then everything becomes an angsty filled shit. I'm starting to really like the idea of becoming a grumpy ass cat lady.