not shameless enough to not be anon /LH /silly

not to worry friend, i will provide

you are the base of who we’ve grown into

the date’s arriving quickly now, and I think of you more and more

how could I not? I carry you with me

not just in my mind and not just in my heart

no, I carry you underneath my skin,

you are scar tissue that I’m proud of

 your song came on today at the perfect time

and I’ll think of it as a hello from up above

and I’m sorry we never got to say a real goodbye

but maybe a see you later is easier to bear

and I’m sorry you’ll never know how I hold your art forever with me,

like a painting on a canvas,

in a frame and on display

I am like a museum to your memory

and I am honored to carry on your legacy,

I am proud to show the world a piece of your heart

and I am proud to be the messenger of your talent to the world that never got to know you

 I hope you’re looking down at this ragtag group of kids

we’ve gone our separate ways, but you are the invisible thread that connects us all

I hope you’re proud of this legacy you’ve left behind with us to carry on,

I hope you understand all the ways you’ve changed our lives

 I try to see the world through your eyes,

maybe that’s why I bear your art, to better remind me how

to better help see the world the way you would

 in the classroom, you were teaching

I’ll never forget your passion as you spoke, your humor

I’ll never forget the fire in your eyes or the way you’d smile and laugh

I won’t forget the art you showed us

It will always remind me

I will tell them of your ghost

I feel raw when I talk about you to people who didn’t know you

but it’s a raw I need to feel

because you should be talked about,

every story, every memory is something that should be carried on

I hope to help your spirit reach everyone I know

with your friends alive and talking, that was you

I still remember how they spoke of you

with tears down their face and sadness in their voices

and I remember

how every story sounded just about right for you

how every story made me feel just that littlest bit closer to you

while also so far away

because there was always that wall that couldn’t be broken down

or maybe it could’ve, if we only had more time

well, I saw it in your movements, and even though you never knew it, well I knew

I was the quiet one, and the observant one

I think you knew this about me

and I knew, the days you were in pain

and I knew, when it started going sideways

and I think I turned a blind eye because I wanted to be wrong

you had me worried, so worried that this would last

I guess I have to say that I’m glad your pain wasn’t prolonged,

at the very least, I hope it happened quickly and I hope you didn’t suffer in the end

but now I’m learning, learning that this will pass

and I know, in my heart, that your life was full

and you lived it the way you wanted,

wild, free and happily

I am at peace knowing you lived out some of your biggest dreams

you said, “go out and live your journey”

and I will because you spent a year teaching us how

because you spent your life living as an example

I never cared much about Machu Picchu,

but I’ll travel that far just to see what you saw

to France, to China, to the oceans and the mountain peaks

I want to experience the world as fully as you did

To the one I now know most I will tell them of your ghost like a thing that never, ever was And all that ever mattered will some day turn back to batter like a joke Behind thin walls you hid your feelings Takes four legs to make a ceilin' like a thing

In a dream I saw you walkin', with your friends alive and talking That was you.Well I saw it in your movement And even though you never knew it Well, I knew, just how sweet it could be If you'd never left these streets

You had me worried so worried that this would last But now I'm learning learning that this will pass

“Dondante” by My Morning Jacket

In a dream I saw you walkin', with your friends alive and talking That was you.Well I saw it in your movement And even though you never knew it Well, I knew, just how sweet it could be If you'd never left these streets You had me worried so worried that this would last But now I'm learning learning that this will pass

My Morning Jacket - Dondante