#creepcast

The Story:

But I know it hasn’t actually changed

All that has changed is me

I was in a terrible place when creep cast started

It was one of my preferred escapes

And as my life got better it was like a friend that pulled me through staying by my side

But now every episode feels hollow

And I know why

Because I don’t need it anymore

I’m not gonna break down if I don’t have something to make me laugh or make me feel misery that isn’t my own anymore

I rewatched the old episodes so much I can recite them all by line but the idea of watching a new one more than once seems like such a waste of time

But i’ll always have the memories of when I needed it

Listening to left right game while stripping wire to the copper until nearly 4 am because my boss wouldn’t drive me home when he was supposed to, bleeding from my fingers where my razor had slipped throughout the week

Listening to the showers while exercising, determined to get better after the most recent health scare

Listening to jeff the killer after my mom told me how useless i was again

Hearing borrasca come to an end right after she outed me to my dad and I fully expected to be dead or homeless by the time I got home

Crying my eyes out over penpal in my room while they fought down the hall

I don’t know why I’m writing all this down

I suppose all this comes down to is if I ever get to meet the boys

All I’d need to say is