Truama is subjective.
What was intensely traumatic for me might not be traumatic to you, and it might not have even been traumatic in the moment.
We have did comorbid with autism adhd and anxiety, things that may not have been upsetting in the moment can become upsetting later. Our mother thinks our childhood was good and cool, we remember very little of it and in the past the only bits we remembered with any clarity were traumatic things.
This is why I personally donβt think endos exist, and thatβs not me siding with anti endos either. I think that trauma is subjective, covert, and easy to miss, and that everyone has it. Some people are more susceptible to letting it cause problems.
Trauma is not a requirement for did. ptsd and cptsd are not requirements for did. They are commonly found with did, but they are not diagnostic criteria.
I do not have ptsd symptoms (as far as Iβm aware)
I have had experiences with alters since i was 13 or 14, I have had a therapist clock it without me asking about it, and Iβve talked to my current therapist about it.
My trauma is not terribly bad, I was bullied as a kid, I had undiagnosed autism and anxiety, emotional neglect (minor), health trauma related to both of my parents having chronic illnesses, and some general being raised in the 2010s trauma shit like having too much access to the internet.
I still have alters, I still lose time, I still have a seemingly ever changing internal image.
I also just donβt think it matters that much. If your playing trauma Olympics what are you doing with your life. Be happy that someone didnβt have as shitty of a life.
ALSO, as an end note to anyone that picked up on the fact that I am young, I only found out I have did because of a coincidence. If I had not met the people I did that day I likely would have gone many many years without figuring it out. DID in the past was assisted in its obfuscation by the lack of easy education, there is a wealth of info now and it is very easy to find stuff out.
-Tara
