#divinyls

Autism related issues and chronic illness flare ups cause me to play the same earwormy songs on loop until the issues subside (or i get used to the pain). I guess it's because it's something consistent that I can control.

I often eat the same foods and wear the same outfits over and over again for the same reason. I'm a sensory seeker though, so most of the food and clothes are exciting at least (beige, bland foods and "normal" clothes are my worst nightmare).

I've listened to the same The Cure's Greatest Hits album at an unhealthy volume, every day for the past 2 weeks💥

Here's some of the random stuff I've played almost daily over the past 2 weeks and an explanation into why I like them (not including the entirety of Nine Inch Nails's discography because that's a given lol). Also some weird trivia, because it pains me to not mention something I found during my recent research into the making of the Into The Void music video.

I Touch Myself came up as a suggested song on my TikTok story a while ago, but it's been on my playlist for about a year now. It's cathartic to sing along to a song that's about something I used to feel so much shame around :)

Insomnia reminds me of my childhood, some good memories and some bad memories, but now I've been able to reclaim it from the bad memories simply by listening to it while doing random household chores. The lyrics really speak to my insane sleep issues. I think every Brit knows this one.

Faithless – Insomnia (Radio Edit) Lyrics | Genius Lyrics https://share.google/MOCtY19tdAcHbl00D

Nothing Lasts Forever makes me think about a man I care very deeply for...

Wrong Number is insanely catchy, I often have to play it 3 times in a row. I love the way Robert Smith's voice sounds. He's kind of whimpering and moaning the entire time, it's not a sex thing, it's just really fun to sing along to.

Take Me To The Hospital... Watching Keith Flint smash up an ambulance in the music video while computer noises assault my ears feels oddly healing. "Take me to the hospital" is a phrase I've used quite a few times (in various forms) during my lifetime. I grew up with The Prodigy, reclaiming them from my sibling's dad, who would laugh while singing along to Smack My Bitch Up, has been amazing. Their songs are deeply embedded into England's rave and anti establishment music scenes. They don’t stand for what he thought they did.

Fun fact! They originally asked Walter Stern to direct the mv, but his version was rejected by the band. The second official video was directed by Paul Dugdale.

You may know Stern from Massive Attack's music videos for Teardrop, Risingson and Angel, The Prodigy's Firestarter, Breathe, No Good Start The Dance and a bunch of incredibly iconic videos by other popular musicians. There are way too many mvs to name, but my favourite is the Nine Inch Nails music video for Into The Void (Jeff Richter is also credited for this one)! I can't seem to link it, but look Stern up on Wikipedia for more of his directing credits :)

And last, but not least:

Gibson Girl... Sex, shame and pain... It speaks to me in a way that is difficult to articulate.

This turned into the playlist of absoloute anguish and horniness, but it feels like a little peek into my brain. Music is a huge part of my life, so I wanted to jot some of this down because my playlist has been absolutely nuts recently... just like me LMAO😭

Apologies for bad grammar, you know the drill... It's 2am and my bones hurt.