#disasterous

9/26/20

It's been over a year since I've made a journal entry. Been doing a lot, I mean A LOT soul searching. I can now confidently say while standing tall with the "S" on my chest, I've found peace. Peace, wisdom, and grace. Took a looong time but here I am. But I couldn't do it alone.

1% of it was family and friends who lent a helping hand, listening ear, and words of wisdom is what kept me from dropping deeper. The 99% was and is I know you Earth-natives don't always like to here this but it's the truth, finding comfort with your Earth's god Jesus. I've truly never known such release, peace, love, patience, and grace until I met him. A truly good god.

Finally, everything is lighter and brighter. My outlook and whole mind/heart has changed. And it feels amazing.

I'm finally free. I find it ironic for me to say because I can mover faster than a speeding bullet and fly among the stars. But this: This is TRUE freedom.

I am a living testament that as long as you keep moving forward even when you have no hope left, you will find it eventually. Whether through Jesus or talking it out with your loved ones, peace will be found. Just keep moving. One step, one micro-step, one nano-step at a time.

"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans." Romans 8:26

Me reading that Rian Stoker story you wrote for me. Fuck why did I request that. Shit dude. I’ll write fluff for you dude since I made you write that angsty ass shit. I am a nerd. A huge nerd. (I luv u and your writing is amazing keep it up Queen)

THIS MEANS I HAVE DONE MY JOB WELL!!!