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Cairi smiled as she listened to Zitian ramble happily about the little Fall Festival they were coming back from. Really it was more on the scale of a farmer's market, but the games and festival food stands that were set up made up the difference.

They were walking arm in arm, Zitian holding Cairi's bag that held the little souvenirs, fresh apple cider, and the fancy candied apples she'd gotten for them to share. She was musing at how different her life was now that he was in it.

She didn't know how it had happened, though she could hazard a guess. But somehow he had slipped past all of the walls she had built to protect herself and what was left of a shattered heart. Cairi laughed at something he said. Before he showed up she hadn't laughed in quite a long time. There was laughter, liveliness, and fun in her life again. Sure there had also come some stress, but Cairi felt it was well worth it. Especially compared to what she had been through in the past.

Her garden wall and the cottage beyond that was within sight. She felt happy that he was here with her. She wanted him here with her and she wanted to be there for him. Just wanted him. Someone who was so caring towards her that she didn't know quite how to process it sometimes. Someone who she felt safe to be vulnerable with.

@dirthara-an​ sent:  [Badly describe my muse in my inbox.] An unfortunately self-sabotaging mix of good ideas and bad impulse control.

Badly describe my muse in my inbox.

-sets Vacancy on Mi'Enasalin’s kitchen counter- “WHat is pizza?”

The be honest meme

9. What is your opinion on exclusivity? Do you practice it? Why / why not?

I’ve never been opposed to exclusives actually! It’s a little “:c” sometimes when you run into someone you wanna interact with and realize they’re exclusive but I completely understand it; if you put forth enough time and effort to this relationship with this mun it can be extremely hard to cut it out to RP with a different of the same muse. I am, however, against forcing exclusives. No one owes you that. I have extremely high duplicate anxiety and I’m not forcing anyone to choose me over someone else and I don’t think anyone else should either. 

I am exclusive with Fox’s Dirthamen simply because he’s colored literally all my Dirthamen headcanons and I’m. Not whatever enough to be able to dissect that out to interact with another Dirthamen. I’m not exclusive with any other muse, however. I could be persuaded into it if there’s ever extreme development and conversation but no one’s ever achieved a level I feel comfortable declaring exclusives over except Fox who like. I’m literally always talking to. We’re dating.

10. Have you ever had a bad experience with commissions? As either someone who makes them or as someone who buys them?

I’ve. Commissioned things from a friend in another fandom that I never got but it’s Fine, I wasn’t really expecting to get them anyway. Other than that, no, actually, I’ve had really great commission experience. If given the option and ability I generally tip generously and I can be patient as hell to get my art. I’ve loved everything I’ve gotten out of commissions and I’m pretty sure I still have all of them saved on my phone and harddrive. 

I’ve never done commissions bc like. All I have to offer is writing and I don’t really feel like it’s good enough to pay for and the few times I tried to do writing commissions people seemed to agree with that assessment so.

15. How has rp changed you personally?

A lot. I started RP in a super toxic fandom super young and that’s negatively impacted the rest of my RP career up to and including being the cause of my massive duplicate anxiety, the reason I’m mutuals only, the reason I’ve had essay length rules pages, and the reason any follower count over 150 or so will give me anxiety and depression.

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“Harellan, I need your help.”

Darcia had turned up in the doorway of Harellan’s room, looking as scruffy as she always did in this new era. Her clothes hung off of her, ill-fitting in all the wrong places, and the messy braid at the crown of her head looked like it had not been redone in a few days. Yet she seemed unbothered, and she stared at Harellan intensely, having not yet ventured in her room. She rarely ever did these days. 

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