#dimilex

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this post by @felixhugofraldariuchiha, @lonelydimitriinyourarea, @claudeschesthair, and @ferdiewiththegoodhair had me laughing so hard for like a whole WEEK !!! i couldn’t not draw them

"Fucking, shit!" Felix jumped, dropping his stack of books. "What the fuck are you doing here, Sylvain?" 

"Studying for my Reason exam," Sylvain shrugged. "You alright, Felix? Here, let me help you-" 

"Don't fucking touch my books-" 

"No, really, I scared you, s-" Sylvain's hand paused over a single book. 

The Mating Habits of Sus scrofa, by Dr. Eleanor von Essar. 

Sylvain began to sweat. "F-Felix?" 

So it seems a better ending for him to betray and kill dimitri (and his father) and to think for the rest of his life whether it is worthy to reassert his self-identity and to pursue "freedom" at the cost of being cut off from his origins completely. Then he might be regretful and realize that he hold some genuine feelings for dimitri despite he represents the culture he hates in a problematic way. He might has to admit to himself that those feeling could be romantic after years of self-denial.

Their paired ending doesn't really solve the issues and problems in any satisfactory way. It is more like an failed effort to contain all the unsettling and subversive elements in their relationship and force felix to reconcile with dimitri.

I’m by no means a Felix or Dimilex expert - @professor-tammi is a much better source for both - but the problem with this is that, well, Dimitri is very much dead by the end of two of those routes and probably dead in the third. CF is easily the worst for Felix even though it’s the one where he’s openly rebelling against Dimitri and his father and has the opportunity to kill them both, because it’s Dimitri at his sanest and because he married another guy who didn’t leave his side and who has the option of dying with him. There’s some great material for tragic unfulfilled Dimilex all over Felix’s content in the non-AM routes, and it’s true that their paired ending appears to slip right back into Faerghus’s traditional norms of homoromantic longing, but that’s the best he’s going to get in regards to a reciprocated romantic and sexual relationship unless you want to do some canon divergence. Personally, I think that’s appropriate for these two. From early childhood the Dimilex relationship belonged to a legendary tradition dating back to the founding of Faerghus, one of....let’s call it bromance with benefits. Even if/when they reconcile their bond seems destined to remain within that framework, just as it would have been for their fathers were they sleeping with each other on the side. 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!

I literally woke up this morning and checked my inbox and then burst into tears at all the nice comments people had left because I’d been having a really bad week before this.

That is true, complete with their own historical precedence in the story of Loog and his very close friend *nudge nudge wink wink* Kyphon. This presents the scenario of an AU where the tragedy of Duscur never happened, Dimitri never met Dedue, and Felix takes on the Lions’ retainer role and is much closer to Dimitri from the outset.

Felix: in theory he's ugly, and he's horrible, and i hate-

Dimitri: [walks by]