Send āāā to have my muse yell at yours accidentally and scare your muse in a fight!Status: Acceptinā
His first life had been filled with constant yelling. Constant screaming. Constant turmoil, to the point it had taken yearsĀ before he stopped jumping at every sudden sound. Every door shut a little too hard. Every time someone else in the house lost their temper with someone that wasnāt him. Taken years for him to discover that he actually did have fight. And once heād found it figuring out how to controlĀ it took longer still. Because apparently ātālilāfeck from a busted homeā had a temper.Ā
And that temper? Itās riding in the bottom layers of his skin right now. Rolling about, causing ripples that are churning their way into waves and heās moving. Getting up. Pacing. Arms tightly woven at his chest. The tension in the room so thick it could would take a fucking chainsawĀ to cut through it. Why? Because Matteo might be hearing him but heās notĀ listening. Not getting it. Notā¦well just not. Because thereās all his excuses all over again. All the reasons heās okay, all the reasons Baz shouldnāt worry. All the reason that slap him in the face because he knowsĀ they are lies. Either on purpose or other wise. Because his senses are not blind. He can smell and see all the ways Matteo isnāt any shade of alright. And fuck him but heā
Ā Ā Ā Ā āI aināt gonna fuckinā sit here nādo nothinā while yāwaste away!ā
That rattles china and makes glass sing. Shifts pictures on forgotten shelves, and rains dust from vaulted ceilings. Shudders doors and makes wood flooring creak in complaint. And for a single solitary moment Bastianās voice echos for an eternity through the entirity of the house. For a single solitary moment he is the image of the monsters human lore speaks of. All silver lined eyes and sharp teeth. Because anger is so much easier to show than hurt and panic.
But itās only a moment, a human heart beat, maybe twoāand the visage fades. Common sense leaks back into the corners of his mind andā¦the immovable infuriated thing he had been seconds before takes a step back. A head ducks and a sharp gaze searches the ground for something to right the mistake he just made. Because the look on the vampireās faceā¦.
It isnāt anger or hatred or challenging stubbornness. Itās something else. Something heās spent years trying to forget he ever was. But itās there. Staring at him bold as a full moon at midnight andā
He runs because he canāt handle anyone looking at him, the way he had looked at the man that fathered him. Once upon a time when heād still been small and weak and human.