#digital ask

“Got dressed up! Anna and mom help!”

A speedpaint for what is probably my favourite drawing I’ve ever made. 

Meant as a commemoration for HTTYD’s release day in Argentina. I spent roughly six hours on this piece. This video is only 6 minutes long which is crazy for me!

Made with a sheet of paper, a pencil, photoshop cc and a mouse :D 

"Oh no, I'm rather used to enjoying anime by myself. Never had the chance or want to share my love with others sadly. There's a lot of shame that comes with admitting you're an anime fan. Lot of stigma around it too, which my family were prone to listening to. So, I tended to keep it to myself, a secret hobby that was all my own. Haha, you could almost say I was leading a double life but not really..."

She was totally not reflecting on the time where she admitted to her whole family that she did in-fact love anime. It had been a horrible moment where Gangle in an embarassing display created a song and dance number where she intended to scream to the heavens that she loved anime with all her heart and soul. But, stopped when she saw how stupid she looked especially when seeing her mother's glare.

Once that happened she disavowed her hobby altogether until she left home to find her own place. Which had been its own can of worms. Honestly, that moment made it clear how pointless it was staying there. And how much her family truly never wanted her. Oh no she's crying...

"The only other person I've known who might like anime is Jax because I've never forgotten that one comment he made: "Slice of life animes are the worst ones." that means he's watched anime before. Even him knowing that term gives me hope because "slice of life" is a genre term for anime someone new to anime wouldn't know that. Honestly, I want to ask him about that. But knowing him, he'll just push me away and hide behind that smile of his. I've kept my love for anime to myself my whole life I want to share that love with someone without feeling any shame. I do know there is a disgusting side to anime. I'm not blind to it, I know it is strange...it is odd...but..."

Anime had been her only means to escape. She never dared to do anything more, even though deep down she wanted to run away. She should have run away sooner, get away from all of them. Being there only made her sad...but she also...left them all behind.

"I want to forget...why can't I just forget everything?"

"Um...hope its ok to say this but subs all the way! Like are you kidding?! Why would anyone not want to hear the natural language of the world's greatest source of entertainment! Now, that's not to say my fellow anime lovers are wrong for liking dubs. But, for me english dubs never sound right. The english voice actors never truly convey the sheer emotion that the japanese voice actors can. It's just how I feel."

"I know the dub voice actors get paid to do a good job. But come guys! Some of those anime dubs are so lifeless and dull! If a dub is bad it takes me right out of the world! How am I supposed to believe the world is real if everyone isn't talking in perfect japanese all the time? Ok, jokes aside I will admit it is more of a preference. And since I've watched anime so much some of the voice actors I tend to recognise. It is comforting to hear those voices come from those characters."

Gangle got lost into the nostalgia for a moment almost imagining some of the times where she was enjoying her anime binges again. Those were some of the happiest moments of her life which was saying something. Anime had been her only salvation during her darkest days so hearing the voices of those actors was like hearing the comforting voices of old friends. She could escape her horrible world for a better one. Where the only problems people had were school festivals.

"I might...but...I don't think its a good idea to act on it. I'm not in a good place and I don't know what romantic love even is. I have an idea of what it is like but I'm not stupid. I know that watching Shoujo anime can't teach me how to be with someone. Its all cliches and tropes if I try something will go wrong and despite it all I don't want to hurt you."

"Oh...you didn't have to do that...but um thank you..."

She didn't really have much inside of her white space. It was pretty featureless given that it had always been this way ever since she woke up. The scientists didn't comment on it so she didn't either. She reached out a ribbon towards where he offered her the data and like that beautiful blue flowers were given form. These nice blue flowers would liven the place for sure. She thinks they were called Forget-Me-Nots? She didn't exactly know why they appeared if she was honest.

Ironically she had forgotten why she liked Forget-Me-Nots.

"Um...I would give something back but...hmm...I mean I haven't tried to hard...I know I can make the music sound out from here but..."