I fell for the worldâs best troll
Tl;dr: If youâre about to say âIâm not reading this, itâs too long! Hoes mad!â Go ahead and fuck off immediately because you ainât gonna enjoy this one.Many people have speculated on my âgoal.â Including Dax. âJamie just wants attention!â I do have reasons for all of this. But hoping that Iâd inspire the support of a group of people predisposed to believing Dax would be idiotic. Your fans are not my audience.There is nothing that has happened so far that I didnât already know would happen. Nothing said that I didnât already know would be said. I can also tell you that destroying TDS is nowhere near my radar, either. And even if it were, it would be a foolâs errand. No, Iâm very sure Dax will be just fine. And I want him to be, if you can believe that.Now, moving on to something Iâve waited a very long time for.Iâm sure most are unaware how difficult it is to make Dax commit to an actual response to a question or an accusation. And when he does respond, itâs usually something weird and a little off-topic, making it confusing to say anything back. So to get him to finally respond to some of this is an opportunity I donât plan on letting slide. Allow me to address the following!âJamie is blaming Dax for ruining her marriage and she needs to take responsibility for it, instead.âI do not blame Dax for ruining my marriage. I blame Dax for offering me a fake option. One that, if I were to choose it, would have irrevocable consequences to my life. At the time, though the decision caused me an incredible amount of stress and pain to come to, it was true that he was the one I wanted to be with. BUT. If he hadnât pursued me; if he had not given me the option, I would have continued my life without having it cross my mind. And maybe my marriage would have failed anyway. I would have much preferred it to have ended that way. The cruelty is in the fake option. It doesnât matter how dumb I was in believing it was real.âI offered her room & board, and then some.âNo, Dax. You didnât. You offered me a full-on relationship. And you spent two months asking me to take your offer. And as soon as I did, you pulled the rug out from under me. I did not come to California for room & board. And I sure as hell NEVER would have come to California to be in a âthruple.ââI know that her husband kicked her out of the house for running up credit card debt and secretly being addicted to adderall five months before I ever met her, thatâs about it!âDax, Iâm sorry but you can not use my embarrassing details against me in order to scare me, the way you do to everyone else. And you certainly canât do it WHILE youâre telling lies.I told you all about the adderall. How it was my way of shutting out the pain of Chris and Alyssaâs relationship, and the way both things spiraled. You went-on many times to tell me how fucked up it was, the way he was treating me. You knew it wasnât a secret, either. Never once was it a secret.I told you about our money issues with the business and how he blamed them all on me. You told me I was being too hard on myself and that I had, and I quote, âbeaten. wife. syndrome.âYou knew all about my money problems, including the fact that I didnât have enough credit, after the separation, to even get a credit card because we always put credit in his name. You knew that I hadnât even HAD a credit card since 2009. This may be an honest mistake on your part, though. Maybe youâre confusing me with the $9,000 in credit card debt your other girlfriend racked up recently. Not including the nose job she was petrified to tell you about for some reason. Itâs not even that big of a deal.Additionally, to say you had limited knowledge of âwhyâ I was kicked out is just straight up bullshit. In fact, you had a whole list of âitâs not your faultâ theories as to why. Including, but not limited to, âHe just wanted you gone so he could play âKing of the Mountainâ at his small-time little CrossFit box in nothing Tyler, Texas.âDonât worry, I wonât be as critical of your own substance abuse, though. Or the past substance abuse of those close to you. Because you taught me to have a very different perspective on it. Formerly, your generous acceptance and understanding of substance abuse and why it happens impressed me. Iâm very sorry to see you all of a sudden use it as a weapon.âKicked out of the house.âDo you really want to use kicking someone out of the house as a means of ridicule? Letâs just forget that you at least pretended to side with me on thatâŚYou kicked your girlfriend out of the house right in front of my face.And then proceeded to defile every inch of that house with me while crying, âPoor Marie! Sheâs so crazy and she canât help it!â But letâs just compare the two scenarios, shall we?Dax- Breaks up with Marie, all for me to see (for the 2nd of at least 5 times total) and makes her pack her things and leave the house immediately after getting back from Ojai. Tells me that it is âvery sad, and very permanentâ and repeats this sentiment many times to me in the following weeks.Chris- Asks me for a temporary separation after some discord in the last year of the 15 years that we spent together, so that we can get some space before trying to work things out. the temporary nature of this being clear to not only he and I, but also understood by both Dax and Marie. I never gave either of them a differing position. In fact, Dax, more than once, threw a tantrum about this. Thereâs a whole episode writeup that he wrote out of anger over this. Told me he âforgot what it was like to write with hate in his heart.â Before profusely apologizing. Another time, he told me that he didnât just want to be a âconsolation prizeâ if Chris and I didnât work out. I had to placate him with a sonnet about how I âcouldnât see my future anymore because of him.âSo tell me again, what it proves that I was âkicked out of the house.ââIt is profoundly sad to me that Jamie is letting Jessie use her like a click bait cum rag after showing distain for him previously.â (Oh also, âmy intuition was correctâ whatever in the fuck that means)I showed you very public and prolonged adoration and what did you treat ME like? A girlfriend? No. The only person you ever said I was your girlfriend in front of was your drug dealer. She hates you now, BTW. After I kept going to her to get a myriad of things to dull the pain of what you put me through. All the Zanax she sold me because I told her, âI just want to be able to sleep.â Go ahead and make fun of me, though, for that. For being dumb enough to actually have believed you. And your show. And all the talent you had that didnât include shitting on Maddox. Go ahead.âThis isnât embarrassing! Look at all my game!â âWhy is Jamie spiraling out of control? Itâs because a lifetime without my love is torment.â etc.Thank you. Thank you for finally showing me a glimpse into why youâve done all of this. I admit it. Youâre such a chad, Dax. Youâve got bikini babes nuking their lives to be with you. Congratulations are in order. Iâm sure lots of your fans will be very impressed. I know I am. Go ahead and screenshot it. Share it. Quote it.Personally, Iâm glad to see you lean-in on this. For all the times I asked you if this is what you did to me, or insisted that I must have been some trophy for your ego- only to have you blow the fuck up at me; swore that I was being crazy; swearing that every single word you ever said to me was true- all the way through the end⌠Thank you for finally sacking up and admitting this. Maybe you couldnât admit it to your biggest fan, but it seems you can to the rest of them.And Iâm not even being sarcastic. THIS⌠this, Iâm cool with. âJamie was such an idiot to believe Dick.â Iâm pretty cool with that, too.But next time you feel like asking someone to be with you, donât lie so much about who you are. That way, youâll be way less likely to have some psycho broad wallowing in pain and confusion over some fake version of you, for any amount of time, that doesnât even exist.Youâre Dick Masterson, after all! What in the heck else should I have seen in you??! Definitely NOT what it was that I didâŚ
