#diarynote

- As of December 2021, the amount of explicit posts have increased at the request of my submissive as another way to explore our likes and interests.

- Text posts can be found under #readings.

Punishments and Disciplinary Actions are a means of helping an s-type get out of a negative headspace. They may experience being stuck in this negative headspace due to for instance having broken agreed upon rules, or not being able to complete a set goal or task for their D-type. An s-type may feel a range of negative emotions to varying degree due to this, even if the D-type does not necessarily feel dissatisfied with the commitment/work the s-type showed/did. However, an s-type may still experience a negative headspace for a variety of reasons. Factors such as built up anticipation and expectations of the self may be as big of a contributor to the negative headspace as the fear of disappointing their D-type.

Depending on what happened and the severity of the situation, the way an s-type is brought back to a positive headspace will vary. Personally, I feel Disciplinary Action is a better and broader terminology for helping an s-type be lifted back up to a good and positive headspace. Punishment is in my opinion a very strong word, and indicates a more harsh and intense form of a Disciplinary Action; one that is very rarely needed. Explanation to the s-type as to what is about to happen and why it is happening is crucial to help the s-type to get out of their negative headspace. In the same manner, proper reassurance and aftercare is to be provided after as to avoid potential s-drops and other new negative effects. Failure to provide good aftercare can in the worst case make the experience traumatic. Types of Disciplinary Actions and Punishments should always be agreed upon and discussed in a meta-talk, as well as the type of aftercare the s-type prefers and needs. A person who takes pleasure in giving Disciplinary Actions and Punishments is a sign of an abuser who is manipulating a vulnerable person in a negative headspace for their own sadistic pleasure and should be a major red flag for anyone.

I really wish one of my two friends or both went to the same high school as me. I feel so left out like I just don’t know who my “group” is in high school. I feel like everyone has found it but not me. I just miss being in the same building as them.

What the fuck honestly I would never thought this would happen like at all you’re so close to me I’m so close to you I can’t tell you this it would ruined everything and I don’t wanna ruin what we have you’re hugs are fucking great your humor is excellent your whole persona is just wonderful for my eyes I guess one year makes such a difference I’m so blind it’s honestly so sad but if you were for me it wouldn’t be like this i can’t have you I never thought I would feel this way but it happens as I told you things don’t work out for me in life that’s why I don’t like having my hopes up this is one of the examples I wish I can be happy but I don’t know honestly whatever you do treat her right and always know I’ll be there for you both and hopefully you will do the same love ya :(