#dialators

Hello, world.

I have vaginismus. I was diagnosed literally two days ago - though many who have vaginismus know symptoms existed long before diagnosis (read: years before diagnosis). I did some research on vaginismus before I ever knew I had it. For the past couple days I’ve searched far and wide on tumblr to find others’ stories. I am thrilled to know I’m not alone. There seems to be a nice community of supports on here, which is good.

One thing I’m hoping to contribute is step-by-step information on how my physical therapy goes, including what these damn dilators look like, and the pace the physical therapist sets for me. I plan to describe each appointment and each exercise I’m given in the hopes it provides some help to others who may be interested. Of course, this is simply an account of my experience, so I can’t say for certain it could be or should be generalized or taken as a treatment plan.

So guys I’m feeling good about all this now. I’ve started with my dialators tonight! The smallest one I didn’t have a problem with! It went in fine, not too quickly but the second time I tried it went in straight away so I was brave and went on to the second to smallest and it was a tight fit but it got in! It was uncomfortable so I think tommorrow night I’ll try it again until it is more comfortable until I go up again! But I’m happy with the progress! Was not painful and no way near as daunting as I imagined. I don’t start my therapy until the 17th September so who knows, maybe I’ll have gotten through it by then! But I won’t try to rush myself don’t worry!

Just want to say if you’ve just been diagnosed with vaginismus or you feel like you may have it, I promise it’s not going to be as bad as you think. Obviously I’m new to this too, but so far the worst part was my doctor examining me just because I’m uncomfortable with anybody touching me there haha!