I wanted to make this post about my main oc for Jackpot Crash Course— Sorry for any grammar or typos. Typing this while dubbing the game at 3 am.
Roseanna is a oc I first started and began to enjoy quite a but. I make a lot of ocs that are either butterfly, rose, bird, or blood themed. Putting a lot of thought into her character to make it work, how and what her crime is and how it effected her, her backstory and connections to being Cupid's sister, and more.
When my friend introduced me to the game, I began to do my usual when joining a new fandom, scoping all the characters out, seeing how they act and who I'd like more. By a certain point, I ended up liking Benny (predicted by my sister), Bones (very much), and Cupid a lot.
But my all time favorite ended up being Eddie, Mr. Brutal Bull himself. I loved everything about his character. From his appearance, to his personality, his dialog, his sprites and enjoyed being the one who voiced him in every playthrough ive done with friends. I ended developing a real "ficto-crush" on him. HARD. I loved him so much and couldn't stop getting flustered and gushing about him anytime i saw a picture of him.
It wasn't until I was researching the characters and stuff to find a wallpaper for my phone, get inspo picks, and art references for drawings, that I read on the wiki that he was STRICTLY gay...
After I found thay out, I was genuinely heartbroken and devastated. Normally when i discover a character i simp for is stricty gay, i let my feelings die out of respect... but I really couldn't do that with Eddie. I REALLY like him! As a female, I really, really REALLY liked Eddie and was talking a lot with my sister and friend about it and them giving me ideas in my head that got me all flustered and really made me like him.
I had concepted Roseanna almost entirely, didn’t want to change anything about her (because the genderswapping would mean a whole rewrite to her character imo), or make a new oc instead. So the reason I have been terrified to share Roseanna cause she is shipped with Eddie. (Yumeship/Selfshipped)
I have been struggling to draw her because I very much enjoyed sharing my art when I know there is a good amount of people that may like and want to see it. I've wanted to share any art I've made of them (which is only one— but still) but I want to make more but my body is terrified for this reason.
I am terrified of being judged or harassed or worse but I really, really, really like Eddie and what I have made and what we (me and my friend (Fawn for the rp accounts that see this) & my sister) like to call RoseBull.
It's a relationship full of ups and downs and built on trust that if words were spoken right, she could prevent Eddie's fate later on. She would go from being a character who joined the show to die, thinking that no matter what life she ended up having (surviving the show, survivibg her prison sentence, or rotting in prison) She would be better off dead.
Cupid had insisted she didn't sign up cause he didnt want to see his sister die, caring a lot for his little sis and beibg the host woild make it even worse— but she did it regardless because she wanted to end it all for them.
As the games start and things proceed, She talks with Eddie more, hiding behind a veil due to being scared to trust anyone. But after some time and games, she begins to start to feel a feeling she hadn't in a long time. At some point, she gifts Eddie a trinket (not her charm) part of her costume, a golden ring, that means something to her but he has no idea what it truly meant.
But to her, it meant they were now bonded, and if something happens to Eddie at all, she will try and stand up for him and help him anytime, no matter what it was. She'd be on his side.
They began to be closer and working to help each other the best they can, emotionally and tactically. But after Roseanna admits the reason she joined the game was to die but started to feel not as such the more they talked— even saying that she started feeling closer to him. Eddie then tells Rose to live for them both and that if she's lucky, theres a chance evrything will work out and he'd be there to support her.
She accepts that idea and it helped improve her mood a lot for future games and gave them both the chance to be closer and romantic even with one another when time permitted. But when it gets toward the end and there was a point where Eddie would have died in the game (obviouslyidk the games, JCC aint done yet). She uses the symbolism of that ring to its extreme and takes the hit for him. Getting herself killed for Eddie to let him keep going.
Telling him, "I realized that a ending where I live happy, is an ending where you die... and I dont want that... please... win, and make yourself a better life..." and then dying in his arms. It being a devastating loss to Eddie to have someone die in his arms like that and for his sake. Cupid gets made at Eddie, having heard in condos with his sister during break how she felt for the Bull, but says he better make it through for her sake, so he didnt lose his sister for nothing, and Eddie would eventually win the game as im sure the game intends...
I just wanted to get it off my chest and I am so sad and scared to even write this and dont know how many will read it... I try and respect Sexualities of characters... but I really wanted to make her and ship them as a comfort and self ship thing...
Sorry for the vent. Thanks to those who read.
