#desiderixm

𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑬𝑵𝑶𝑹𝑴𝑰𝑻𝒀 𝑶𝑭 𝑴𝒀 𝑫𝑬𝑺𝑰𝑹𝑬

Zaahen had been working though what was basically paperwork, sure it was more complicated than that but that's it boiled down to, when Lucifer had started bidding for his attention, at first Zaahen was doing his best to stay focused on his work, but slowly Lucifer had drifted over across the space to him, until Lucifer was on the desk that Zaahen had been working on.

Zaahen's hands had gone to his thighs, he had meant to move Lucifer out of the way but he found himself lingering "Lucifer... You know I am meant to be working right now, right?" He was looking up at him, he was trying to act annoyed but his heavy breath on his voice and the way his thumb circled on Lucifer's thigh undermined him.

It depends! When it comes to oral he is good either way, but he doesn't like bottoming for anal, or pre-transition vaginal, it makes him dysphoric to a degree, though anal is something he can work on being happy to receive.

So when it comes to penetration he prefers being the one doing it, in short.

So I think he had two main fantasies, which would be

Get passed around his loyal guards like a blunt, probably as a reward to them doing a good job at something or after a particularly intense training session he needs to burn energy after.

Sexualy and non-sexualy dominating Vittorio a noble, getting their rank (don't ask how, this is a fantasy not a actionable plan) and keeping Vittorio the noble around as entertainment, both because they have a hint of intelligence and also because they're pathetic, in Tarhos's opinion.

As for acting on these, Tarhos definitely had some threesomes with the guards, though not exactly like his day dreams as none of them were bold as to be like "hey Kovács you seem extremely high strung, wanna fuck about it?" And most of them tend to follow his orders and lead, so Tarhos, who pretty badly wants to be a sub for them for once is doomed to being the forever dom.

Kayn is decently quick to cum, which is something that embarrasses him for reasons he couldn't really clearly explain, however in good news he enjoys being made to cum multiple times & overstimulation.

He definitely enjoys the idea of cuming onto someone's face or chest, and as for his partner he'd want them to cum on basically any part of him that isn't inside, unless it's someone he is close with, or like some weird hate sex, then they can cum in him if they earn it.

Rhaast is a hard guy to make cum, so often he finds he has to either really overstimulate himself or go at it longer than advantage, but he'll go though the effort because he enjoys cuming inside of partners, to him it's like a way of marking them, or otherwise "winning", he prefers it being vaginal or anal but he'll happily cum in someone's mouth if that's how things work out.

So here is the thing:

Zaahen in his Darkin design is already almost completely naked, and with the lore of Darkin, that loin cloth is technically a part of his body.

So to say I feel Zaahen has a fondness for the form of a body is an understatement, while as a human & a ascended he wore more clothes, those were cloths that announced his rank within the church as a sun priest, so wearing them was more than just wearing something to cover his body.

"I- Lucifer how do you want me to reply to that? Either I say no, and you call me a liar, and recount a yarn about me seeing myself as better and get angry, or I say yes and we just skip all of the former to the anger part, either way the result is the same, you don't care what I think, you just want a fight, yes?"

Unpopular opinion!

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☆ There's a lot of reasons why the rpc isn't as it used to be.

I've mentioned it quite a few times in the past on this blog.

One, we are all adults right now. Our personal / rl lives are taking priorities. We ain't teenagers anymore with a lot of times on our hands. We are going to college, taking our exams and studying more seriously. We are going to work that demands a lot out of us. Some having a steady and stable job that exhaust us by the end of the day and in a good way too while other jobs do it in a bad way. Some of us are getting kids and focusing our attention on them. Some of us are settling down with our partners. While some still love writing, they lean more on personal writing than rping because they don't see the rpc as the same and trying to focus on what's going on irl. A lot of us deal with mental illness and physical pains.

It boils down to energy, motivation, priority, and time. We are getting older and that's demanding from us where we can't deliver as much as we want to.

Two, to those that do stick around, some of us aren't doing things that we normally do. I get it. Anxiety or doubts plaguing us. I'm not saying all of us do this, but some of us do need to throw ourselves out there a little more as the rpc is a two way street of reaching out. If you do wish to see more unprompted asks and random starters, send one. If someone doesn't respond to it or hate you for it, it's going to be painful to deal with that, but we have to move on and focus on those who do cherish these things. There's always going to be that one person who does.

And it is okay to want more. Don't let that last line I just typed out discourage your desire to seek out more.

It is okay to have these two coexist at the same time. Cherish the small amount of people who loves writing with us and want to branch out more to get more people to interact. It can and will coexist. You aren't ungrateful or not cherishing those who stick around. You wish to have more.

All I can say is be encouraged to send out more stuff. Maybe that one step can inspire others to do something similar.

These two points can coexist as well.

"..." Zaahen wanted to argue, wanted to point to everything that had gone wrong over... Many years at this point, but... That was missing the point, wasn't it?