#depression-

For my speech group project apparently they decided without consulting me to do the project about suicide and self harm and it's like.... everyone in my group is neurotypical and I just.... really have been feeling the burn of depression and have been having increased suicide ideation lately and like............ I'm severely mentally ill and I just fjdjdj don't want to.... do this.... I don't want to be reminded of it and hear neurotypicals talk about it around me....

also, in other news, im constantly craving death and have no control over my life as i continue to spiral 

Me @ my depression: let :)))) me :)))))) fucking :))))))) sleep Depression: *banging two pots together* DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEA- Me: :))))))))))))))))

when literally everything leaves you feeling empty inside no matter what :) and you feel so ugly all the time and have existential crises every single day and your "best friend" literally cut you off with no explanation after a decade of friendship and being there for her but u kno :) keep on slowly dying :)

boy I sure do love living in an environment that totally stunts my creative process and drive to do anything other than sit around