#depression pit

My cat when I try to photograph him:

My dog when I try to photograph him:

I was calling his name and saying "look at me" (a command he knows) the entire time.

Finally, I got the dumb dingus to look at me for half a second:

Womp womp!

i havent talked to you in ages!

i also just got round to cleaning out my depression pit and the sheer amount of cans is worrying.

Crohn’s disease:

I’m currently being tested for Crohn’s disease. I struggle to eat every day and I’m continually losing weight. I ache in my intestines every time food passes my lips. I have ulcers and leasions all over my tongue and gums and quite frankly, it’s making my day to day life a misery. I have no energy and whenever I do eat I’m in pain that cannot be helped by pain killers. My body is rejecting food, and I love food so much!

Hypermobile EDS:

It’s cold out, I’m fatigued from the above (my body rejecting food) and my ligaments are constantly throbbing in my ankles. This is therefore stopping me visit my nanny because I can’t drive or even walk really.

Depression:

The two above points are taking a SEVERE toll on my mental health. I’m 24 and I feel like the life I currently have is not worth living. I just can’t see a way out. These two conditions are something I will have my entire life, as long or short as that is. I’m spending a lot of time in bed because of fatigue, but bed and depression in my world come hand in hand.