Depressed!Dan Masterlist
Absolutely Lovely (ao3) - Autumn_Kismet
Summary: His friends and family think heâs acting strange, theyâre worried that heâs depressed again, but Dan doesnât see it. The only thing he sees is the new guy at school, the quirky one with the black hair and stunning blue eyes, and thatâs bad. So bad⌠because he likes him, and Dan canât like him. Dan canât be gay. Heâll lose his family, heâll lose his friends⌠heâll become just like his father, and thatâs the last thing that he wants in the entire world. Itâs a scary thought that he doesnât think will ever go away and if thereâs the possibility of that happening, of him becoming the disgusting monster that his father was, or is, then maybe the world is better off without him, regardless of what PJâs dad, his mumâs new husband, has to say.
A Little Sunshine in Your Soul - tiny-winter-cupcake
Summary:Â Dan has Seasonal Affective Disorder, more commonly known as seasonal depression, which flares up in the winter. Both he and Phil long for the spring. When spring comes around, however, Dan may have some harbored secrets. But so does Phil.
back down again (ao3) - heartsopenminds
Summary: It's an old habit, one Dan learned years ago and has never quite been able to shake off. Phil's away, his brain is spiralling and the only way he knows to cope is to turn to food.
Bad Days (ao3) - MarriedPhan1234
Summary:Â Dan is in a pretty brutal depressive episode.
better day (ao3) - graydar
Summary: Dan canât tell if itâs pain anymore, or if itâs numbness. Because that hurts too.
Change Will Come (ao3) - rainbowchristy
Summary: Danâs a depressed university student. Philâs just a cute coffee shop barista who writes notes on Danâs hot chocolates.
coffee (ao3) - plinth_of_life
Summary:Â Dan wakes up and knows it will be a bad day. Despite that, he resists Philâs attempts to help him because today will be different. Today, Dan will care for Phil, even if that means just making him a cup of coffee.
Conjuncture (ao3) - yikesola
Summary:Â During a 2013 liveshow Phil calls Dan, only to find that Danâs not in the apartment and has left his phone behind. Heâs worried; heâs worried any time Dan does this. A fic about Philâs attempts to care for Dan before he sought professional help for his depression.
Cuddle Me (ao3) - dip_and_pip_trash
Summary:Â Danâs feeling low and just wants to be held. Phil is out at meetings all day, away from home. Dan misses Phil.
Curae (ao3) - phansb
Summary:Â Dan has a depressive episode in 2013, before Phil knew the name.
Days Like This (ao3) - olrazzzledazzzle
Summary:Â Days like this: a look into Dan at his lowest point during their tour and how he overcomes (or just rather simply lives with) it.
fuzzy (ao3) - watergator
Summary:Â Dan is having one of his bad days, and Phil is there to pull him out of it.
grey (ao3) - waveydnp
Summary:Â dan wakes up in the hole again. phil tries to take care of him, but sometimes not even phil is enough.
Here Without You (ao3) - waveydnp
Summary:Â Phil goes home for motherâs day. Dan doesnât.
I will run you the sickest bubble bath and have you in bed at 6 p.m. (ao3) - Findus26
Summary: Dan is having a depressive episode and Phil does his best to cheer him up.
Featuring: breakfast, bubbles, and a very special book.
Iâll be the light that you canât make (ao3) - MANIAvinyl
Summary: There was suddenly a tightness in Philâs chest, put there by guilt and fear, and he couldnât find the words to respond. The gravity of Danâs depression was creeping up on him, like a realization he didnât want to admit.
Or; Dan is depressed and Phil cant help but feel that the sickness in his best friend is a mystery to them both.
if you could see it, then youâd understand (ao3) - MANIAvinyl
Summary:Â There was a point in their relationship when Phil was stable enough for the both of them. But when his anxiety gets worse, heâs not sure how to handle anything; not his panic attacks, not Dan and his still-frequent episodes, and not all the new stresses that come with this kind of fast-paced life.
In Disguise (The World Canât See Me)Â (ao3) - lovestillaround
Summary:Â Dan has a habit of going out when he isnât well.
It Only Goes Up From Here (ao3) - thesassykels66
Summary:Â If given the chance, itâs easy to say that anyone would travel back in time to talk to their younger selves, especially in a hard time. But when that happens to Dan, he doesnât notice right away, but he knows that itâs the only way that heâll truly get better when shown the life he can have.
Or in short, future Dan speaks to 2013 Dan about his depression in a surreptitious way on how he will get better.
It'll be okay (ao3) - Chibikkos_Hat
Summary: Dan didn't believe in love before a certain boy came along
Letters (ao3) - NintenGoAway (elfzhyza)
Summary: Somehow, Phil always knows when Dan's feeling down, and he always knows what to say to make Dan feel better.
little things (ao3) - irrationalqueer
Summary: Dan feels it coming the moment he wakes up.
Massage (ao3) - yikesola
Summary: Dan needs an anchor. He needs something to hold him steady. He rolls over onto his stomach and calls out for Phil.
A ficlet about bad days and bed days.
Overwhelmed - omgdatphantho
Summary:Dan begins to suffer from depression and Phil just wants to help.
Picking Up The Pieces (ao3) - rainbowchristy
Summary:Â During a truth or dare game, Phil is made to break up with his pastel-wearing boyfriend. He was too drunk to fully understand what was happening at the time but now that heâs sobered up, will Dan ever trust him again?
Or, Punk!Phil breaks up with Pastel!Depressed!Dan because of a dare and Phil has to earn his trust back.
Rock Bottom (ao3) - howellesterfics
Summary:Â Phil is off visiting his parents. Dan attempts to do the dishes.
run as far as your dark brown eyes can see (ao3) - chickenfree
Summary: Danâs laughing, pleased with his own joke about being an awkward child, about misfit war wounds, which Phil will obviously relate to.
Oh.
(Or: the many times Phil has been surprised, and the one thing that didn't surprise him at all.)
Soaked Through (ao3) - yikesola
Summary:Â Dan should go for a run. He should really go for a fucking run. Itâs been four days of rainy weatherâ itâs London, thatâs no surprise, but like stormy rainy weather. Too rainy to run in. A fic about shivers and control.
Stitching Up the Seams (ao3) - worriedpeach (skeletonflowers)
Summary:Â Phil canât help but notice the boy with dead eyes who wears baggy jumpers all the time and barely talks anymore. Not being able to stand how sad he looks, Phil begins to slip notes into Danâs locker in hopes of raising his spirits.
The Road To Being Okay (ao3) - WaterHorseyBlues
Summary:Â All Phil wanted was for Dan to be okay.
Thunderstorm (ao3) - orphan_account
Summary:Â Dan falls into a depressive episode while Phil is away for a family emergency.
When You Leave Me (I'm Not Going Anywhere) (ao3) - fisshhhh
Summary: Sometimes the thoughts are just too much. Sometimes Dan breaks. Sometimes he finds himself drowning on the kitchen floor, unwilling to ask for help and too insecure to think that anyone would want to help him anyway. Luckily, Phil loves him.
Set in 2009 or early 2010, shortly after they met.
You're All my Reasons (ao3) - QueenKatelynTheAristocrat
Summary: In which Dan's depression doesn't allow him to leave his room for two days, and Phil struggles to find the words, but what comes to realize is that maybe words aren't always necessary.
