#deployment problems

being a milso can truly be so isolating

this morning has honestly been one of the hardest mornings of my life

Still over a month out, and still sobbing while watching homecoming videos

Anticipation of return is such an emotional phase of deployment to be in, anything I do lately I think "soon he'll be home & we'll be doing this together" and then I just start crying

This morning my mum said to me, " @war-at-sea is so white, how would he ever survive if he gets deployed to the Middle East?" I told her I asked him not to and I guess we'll make sure he wears long sleeves and SPF 70 if he does 😂

I want to laugh in the face of my 16 year old self who thought being a loner in high school was the definition of being alone. Because now I'm here in California, my family doesn't talk to me, I don't get to speak to my husband who is the only person in the world who cares about me at all, and the only thing I'm doing with my life is school and work and right now work is shorting me on my hours. I'm all alone in this house and haven't heard a word from my husband in weeks. I feel so depressed. I don't know what to do anymore. Oh and I'm fucking SO SICK AND TIRED of everyone telling me I chose this life and that I shouldn't have gotten married young. that's not a fucking reason to not encourage someone to keep pushing and keep trying. Fuck everything.

Just killed a scorpion in my garage because I’m god damn super woman.