#delirin

You’re all prisoners. And what you call mental health is just a prison in your mind. Wake up!

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Test can be found here.  I was tagged by @revthepunchbear for this test and it was kinda cute and fun. Tagging @news-nerd @rathwald @nyura-shadowstep @marrader21

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TENDERNESS

You are not afraid of the sufferings and sorrows of other people, even when they are acted out in unappealing ways. Beneath even defensiveness and self-righteous behaviour, you know that deep down people need nurturing and consolation. One danger is being naive about people’s dark sides. But at your best you know you can be mean yourself, which helps you to sympathise. You bring strength and forgiveness where other people might panic.

INDEPENDENCE

You don’t set out to be different for its own sake; you are more easily guided by what interests and moves you. You are more concerned about what is right for you than about the pressure to fit in. In sex you are more aware than others of impulses which are not entirely conventional. You know the value of selective irresponsibility, of forgetting occasionally about being ‘good’.

SHYNESS

“Akıl hastanesinin bahçesinde sigara içiyordum. Merakımdan sanırım, bir şekilde orada buldum kendimi. Kendi halinde, oldukça normal davranan, yüz çizgilerinden kırklarında olduğunu düşündüğüm bir adamla göz göze geldik. Ben bir kaç kafamı çevirsem de, o gözlerini üzerimden hiç çekmedi. Kıyafetlerinden anladığım kadarıyla misafirdi orada, hasta demeye dilim varmıyor şimdi. Önce biraz çekindim, sonra cesaretimi toplayıp küçük adımlarla yaklaştım yanına.

“Sigara versene” dedi hemen. Sigarayı uzatırken “neden buradasınız ?” demiş bulundum. Sigarasını yaktı, tekrar gözlerini dikti üzerime. Kırpmıyordu bile, ürkmedim desem yalan olur. “İyi günler” dileyerek uzaklaşmaya karar verdim. “Belki de yanlış bir soru sormuşumdur. Belki canını sıkmışımdır ya da ne bileyim adam deli işte!” diye geçirdim içimden.

“Sen neden burada değilsin?” diye bağırdı arkamdan. Öyle bir bağırdı ki, arkamı dönmeye korktum. Cinnetle bağırır gibi..

Döndüm yüzümü, olduğum yerde, yaklaşmadan baktım yüzüne. Bu sefer sesini daha da yükselterek, tekrarladı; Sen neden burada değilsin ? Onca sahtekarın, onca vicdansızın, onca ihanetin içinde durabilmeyi nasıl başarıyorsun ? Çocukların vurulduğu, çiçeklerin koparıldığı, sevgilerin harcandığı, umudun tükendiği, renksiz, yapay bir dünya var dışarıda. Uyuşmadan uyum sağlayamadığım, gürültüsünden uyuyamadığım. Kirli, kibirli, kaba bir dünya var. Çıkarları uğruna seni çakıyla son model bir arabayı çizer gibi çizecek binlerce insan var. Kanını emecek bir sürü vampir. Sana kullanılıp, köşeye atılmış pis bir mendil gibi hissetirecek bir sürü katil. Sen neden burada değilsin?”

Body

Long legs. Short legs. Average legs. Slender thighs. Thick thighs. Toned thighs. Skinny arms. Soft arms. Toned arms. Toned stomach. Flat stomach. Flabby Stomach. Soft stomach. Six-pack. Beer belly. Lean frame. Beefy/muscular frame. Voluptuous frame. Curvy frame. Petite frame. Lanky frame. Short nails. Long nails. Manicured nails. Dirty nails. Flat ass. Toned ass. Bubble butt. Small waist. Average waist. Thick waist. Narrow hips. Average hips. Wide hips. Big feet. Average feet. Small feet. Soft feet. Slender feet. Calloused hands. Soft hands. Big hands. Average hands. Small hands. Long fingers. Short fingers. Average fingers. Narrow shoulders. Broad shoulders. Average shoulders. Underweight. Average weight. Overweight.

Height

Shorter than 140 cm. 141 cm-150 cm. 151 cm to 160 cm. 161 cm to 170 cm (5′5″). 171 cm to 180 cm. 181 cm to 190 cm. 191 cm to 2m. Taller than 2 m.

Skin

Pale. Rosy. Olive. Dark. Tanned. Blotchy. Smooth. Moles. Acne. Dry. Greasy. Freckled. Scars. Birthmarks. Burn marks.

Eyes

Small. Large. Average. Grey. Brown. Blue. Violet. Pink. Green. Gold. Yellow (Amber). Hazel. Doe-eyed. Almond. Close-set. Wide-set. Deep-set. Squinty. Monolid. Heavy eyelids. Upturned. Downturned. Dark sclera. Dark Iris. Light Iris. Shaded Iris. Dark Pupil. Light Pupil.

Hair

Thin. Thick. Fine. Normal. Greasy. Dry. Soft. Shiny. Curly. Frizzy. Wild. Unruly. Straight. Smooth. Wavy. Floppy. Cropped. Pixie-cut. Afro. Shoulder length. Back length. Waist length. Past hip-length. Buzzcut. Bald. Weave. Hair extensions. Jaw length. Mohawk. Dreadlocks. Box braids. Faux locks. White. Platinum Blonde. Golden Blonde. Dirty Blonde. Ash Blonde. Honey Blonde.Blonde. Ombre. Light brown. Mouse brown. Almond brown. Golden brown. Chocolate brown. Dark brown. Jet black. Raven black. Ginger. Red. Auburn. Dyed. (She got purple-y grey hair) Thin eyebrows. Average eyebrows. Thick eyebrows. Plucked eyebrows.

Tattoos/Piercings

Full sleeve. Thigh tattoo. Neck tattoo. Chest tattoo. Back tattoo. Shoulder blade tattoo. One tattoo. Face tattoo. Hand tattoo. A few here and there. Multiple. No tattoo. Monroe piercing. Nose piercing. Septum. Nipple piercing(s). Cupid’s Bow piercing. Genital piercing(s). Industrial piercings.  Earlobe piercings.Prince Albert piercing. Eyebrow piercing(s). Tongue piercing(s). Lip piercing(s). Top of the ear piercing. Tragus piercing. Angel bites. Labret. Stretched out ears. Navel piercing. Chest-bone piercing. Inverse navel piercing. Cheek piercing(s). Smiley. Nape piercing(s). No piercings.

Cosmetics

Eyeliner. Light eyeliner. Heavy eyeliner. Cat eyes. Mascara. Fake eyelashes. Matte lipstick. Regular lipstick. Lipgloss. Red Lips. Pink Lips. Nude Lips. Dark Lips. Bronzer. Highlighter. Eyeshadow. Neutral eyeshadow. Smoky eyes.Colorful eyeshadow. Blush. Lipliner. Light contouring. Heavy contouring. Powder. Matte foundation. Shiny foundation. Concealer. Wears war paint from time to time. Wears make up regularly. Wears it from time to time. Rarely wears make-up.

Scent

Floral. Herbal. Earthy. Fruity. Perfumes. Aftershave. Cocoa. Moisturizer. Shampoo. Cigarettes. Leather. Fur. Sweat. Food. Incense. Marijuana. Cologne. Whiskey. Wine. Fried food. Blood. Fire. Metal. Rain.

Clothing

Jeans. Tight pants. Overknee socks. Tights.Leggings. Yoga pants. Pencil skirt. Tight skirt. Loose skirt. Tight/Form-fitting dress. Cardigans. Tunic. Blouse. Button up Shirt. Band-Shirt. Sports-Shirt. Sweatpants. Tanktop.  Cut off Shirt. Designer. High street. Leather jacket. Thrift.  Lingerie. Long skirt. Miniskirt. Maxidress. Sundress. Tie. Tuxedo. Cocktail dress. Highslit dress/skirt. Loose clothing. Tight clothing. Jean shorts. Sweater. Sweater vest. Waistcoat. Khaki pants. Suit. Hoodie. Harem pants. sport shorts. Boxers/Boxer-Briefs. Thong. Hotpants. Hipster panties. Bra. Sportsbra. Crop top. Corset. Ballerina skirt.  Leotard. Polka dot. Stripes. Glitter. Cotton. Linen. Silk. Lace.Leather. Velvet. Patterns. Florals. Neon colors. Pastels. Light colors. White.Black. Dark colours. Fur/Fauxfur. Revealing clothing. Heavy armor. Medium armor. Light Armor.

Shoes

Sneakers. Slip-ons. Flats. Slippers. Sandals. High heels. Cat heels. Ankle boots. Combat boots. Knee-high. Platform heels. Stripper heels. Bare feet.Loafers. Oxfords. Gladiator shoes.