#delicate diary

"Friendship or any relantionship isn't meant to be perfect, it will hurt and you will cry cause we are all different. For nothing in life is black and white, so much is different with specs and shades of grey as views on what is bad, hurtful, and cruel differ from one another. Intent and feelings matter. We are all truly different, and that's OK. Its ok to acknowledge we are different from each other, for what truly brings people to together is accepting that we are differences. And in friend that means accepting those differences and still choosing to be there for one another. Whatever I am weak in or can't do on my own, a friend can help and support me. And where a friend is weak or need help in, I'll be there to help them. To truly love and gather today in unity, is accepting that we are all different, and will never agree on everything. But still choosing to accept those differences and supporting one another, as a friend, a loved one, and another human is when we truly unite together as one. And truly say you love one another.~"

"In life, especially in times of healing, self-care, and self-love for your mental and emotional health, always recollect your thoughts and feelings of not only yourself but those around you. Check in within yourself, ask yourself why are you doing this, is this honestly good for me, and how will effect those around me? It can be scary and overwhelming, especially for those who worry and over think easily, but this can possibly grow to a calming and soothing effect to calm your mind and your demons. It is OK, I believe in you, we are on this journey together. We will get better"

"What we have now, is a growing lack of empathy and self-aware. So many grow defensive and lash out, without truly hearing and listening to an individual. They see the person's heart or there feelings, just there own and it is sad. It is a for anyone now to show there love to another for if it isn't what a person wants to hear or want, they lash out. It is human nature to get defensive, we are all guilty of this, but this..is more then defensive, it is simply, if you truly are comfortable in your truth, why lash out? Words mean nothing when your reactions and feelings speak louder without you realizing. Lack of empathy in not understanding or wanting to understand others, it is no wonder many grow cold and uncaring. They are tired of caring and getting attacked over it. I still care and empathize but I am silent, more silent I should say. A quiet Spector, a ghost you can say who can only watch as her heart and soul cracks and bleeds.."

♡"It is ok to want space, sometimes we have or even require moments or times of it when we shut down and don't really have the strength to really reply to anyone. Could be a fear of hurting them, taking it out those around them, or just in a really bad place or mindset. It does not mean they do not value you, think less of you, that you did something wrong,or anything. Can it be distressing on the other end, yes. Stressful and even lonely, but sometimes as much as we would like them to always talk to us, or have them always tell us when they will be gone for space, life isn't always that easy or simple. Things can happen when a person just doesn't have the strength mentally and emotionally to do that. Or just in a position or state where they can tell us or be able to tell us. It is OK to miss them, to want to be there, it simply means you love and care for them. And sometimes, those times can show how strongly and deeply you care for each other, for anything you love and care about is worth the wait. For if we put to much pressure for them, we could really hurt the other when they fail to tell or force them to do it when they can't and risk a blow up as they can take their bad mood on you. A balance is always good, but sometimes exceptions and moments have to be acknowledged."♡