Ah, well pretty much 75% of the fandom consists of self proclaimed girlfriends/wives. We're all really sad because our lives have been ruined by exo :( weep for all future boyfriends and husbands of exo fangirls...our standards of relationship have skyrocketed into heaven ;)
But the reality of it is...is that..I'm not. and I have no right to be jealous ..so its really embarrassing when I think about it ;o; and I'm never gonna find anyone remotely like him but I don't want to because there's only one kyungsoo.and I don't want a substitute.. *heavy sigh* I just wonder who my future husband will be ..more like boyfriend...tbh. Ive been single all my life. 19 years. Not one single boyfriend. Theres 12 year old that have boyfriends and it saddens me. I might have to lower my standards just a bit tho because they seriously are too high. I know you didnt ask this but for my ideal type. These are just the basics. I hope he's cute(doesn't have to be Korean. but must accept my kpop or he has to go),isn't a homophob (cause its just a turn off and he's straight so he shouldn't care?), tall or equal height to me, maybe has toned body but not necessary, sane(I don't want to date a jealous psycho.well... jealousy is cute but the psycho part...nooooo~), manly(as in ..I don't want him to be a little bitch over everything hahaha), treats me nice & makes me a priority, isnt selfish, talented(doesn't have to be music but I prefer that? Hahah), rational, funny(I like to laugh c;), isnt a lazy bum, and very humble aswell. But I never give anyone a chance anyway. Like..im serious. I cut convos really short with anyone thats slightly interested in me because im scared tbh. Im a scared little shit and im going to be single forever because of it. Hmnn i wonder if my guy will have similar qualities like kyungsoo? & i wonder if he will compliment me as far as talents. I always had this dream of me and my bf singing to one another. Maybe he will be a musician and plays instruments while i sing. Or a dancer that sways and moves while i sing. Idk...i always wanted a relationship like that. Hmnnn...Will I even get married? Will I die before I even get to? All these thoughts just expand. Ughh I'm sorry ...my thoughts usually go down hill when I think too hard hahahaa. But It'll be much easier if kyungsoo and I date so i can see if he's really worth being jealous over. I believe kyungsoo is my perfect ideal type but I want to know the REAL him and that just won't happen. So im stuck building my perfect guy around his stupid self hahaaa. Come here, perfect guy! I'm waitinggggg~!!! c:
