To The Guy I've Fell Out Of Love With
You were just a boy standing at the door
And there was a girl finding herself a cure
You bumped into each other,
Felt like it’s going to be a happy ever after
It was between June and July,
When you started to say “Hi”
Months passed by,
But you are still holding tight
The girl was afraid,
Seeing you with another girl someday
She didn’t deny what’s in her side,
And even the gladness that might be her darkness
She was dreaming that you can be together,
But there’s a doubt that you can live without her
Every time you make her happy,
Her world becomes beautiful exquisitely
But one day, her eyes were filled with tears
Asking you, “Why you have to leave?”
You left her without any reason
And she had nothing to do, but made it a life lesson
You didn’t let her know what you were going through
Family, friends, career, and the love that you want to
It’s been years of denying, years of trying to let go
But the way you feel for her is unlike any other you’ve ever felt before
Seasons have changed, so have we
You were trying to get back, but you saw me happy
That happiness I’ve felt after all the heartaches
That happiness I’ve felt that you could ever make
You explained everything after all what happened
I was listening to you and my heart was dying
I know in my heart, I haven’t moved on yet
Because I have anchored so much of my life around you
I’m still deeply in love with you
You are the one, the one that I pursue
But you already moved on,
And I’m still holding on…
If there’s one thing I want to say,
“I am sorry…”
Sorry for giving you pain,
And not the love you want to get
Remember what you said,
That you would be here forever
I pray that you would stay,
But then you’re gone so far away
As time passed, I felt like I wasn’t your priority anymore
You have taught me the greatest lesson and that is to love
I love you, and I never stopped loving you
I pray that someday, I can finally say it in the past tense
With or without you, I should be happy
So this is the end, my lover
I hope when I wake up tomorrow,
I can finally give this letter to you…
— Christine Dotillos, 2015
