#decayed decrepit

so. I've been watching session 3 n realized this, but this is also a behavior I noticed in session 2 as well. all talking about the characters by the way, not the content creators

at certain points when talking to people, or when talking to himself, 4C continues to mention the fact that he's hungry. that he's running out of food soon, or that he needs to get more food

he even goes so far as to ask others for food, saying that he's starving— when we can literally see this isn't the case. he has like 14 bowls of ice cream on him, he has a decent amount of carrots, a pork chop, etc., so why is he doing this ?? is it just the Concussed Confusion ?

well. I think NOT

I think that 4C is hungry. however full his saturation bar is, however much food he has on him, I think he's still hungry. I don't think he's lying about that or exaggerating it

I just don't think he's hungry for what he has on him. he's also mentioned being thirsty or parched (and I imagine the infection is similar to rabies in a sense), but talking specifically about hunger, I don't think he's hungry for carrots or pork chops;

I think he's hungry for brains. or whatever it is that the infected eat. and I think he just doesn't know it

"I tried to tell you, / I didn't know how to stay. / You believe she can see through. / Cutting at the silent clay."

This lyric would be from Jonathan's perspective. he doesn't know how to stay, how to form meaningful connections (or so he thinks), and doesn't know how to be honest with his emotions. he runs— both from physical danger and from emotional vulnerability

the mentioned 'you' would be 4c. he firmly believes that Spidey would never lie/he fully trusts her. so when she says that Jonathan has a big heart, and that he cares for them, 4c fully believes her. and she's right. she can see through him, even if it's just the most miniscule amount

"Eat the gun as it feeds you, / Spitting up the oxygen."

This would be more of a reference to 4c's death and the circumstances of it. we all know how he died, of course, and one of the main symptoms of infection is coughing, ie; 'spitting up oxygen'. a loose tie, but one I found nonetheless x,D

"Once again, empty horses,"

Honestly just a reference to the fact that both Spidey and 4c had horses somewhere outside of Paradise City

"Crystal blood like a dream true, / A ripple in the wound and wake."

This is me being very poetic and metaphorical and whatnot, but the infection is the 'ripple' within 4c's bite wound. his blood is 'clear', grounded in reality, because what he's experiencing, what's happening to him, isn't a dream. it is the waking world.

at one point, while he's alone, 4c goes on a small monologue about how everything feels foggy, he can't tell reality from dreams, and he feels like this is all one bad nightmare. not even the infection could 'wake' him from this, or perhaps it was making it worse, but it certainly did wake the others into a sort of horrible reality. a reality about what they had to do

while he was having this monologue, actually, Spidey and Jonathan were talking about who would shoot him. awful, right ? :,D

"From the 31st floor of the simulation swarm,"

31st floor, 4c fell from a very tall building and got a concussion, you get the picture. this meaning, though, could also parallel the fact that 4c had to climb some pretty tall scaffolding to find Spidey after they were separated

"I'd fly to you tomorrow, I'm not fighting in this war."

4c was training to be a pilot !! the mention of war also connects back to the fact that the army did seem try and fight off the infection in one way or another

"I remember building an energy shield / In your room, like a temple. / Swallows in the windless field. / Very thin, with your mother, / Tall as a pale green tree; / Very wild, bright as winter, / Rising with a prism key. / And a child to deliver, / Taken with the blood and vine: / As the first little angel."

I couldn't choose a specific lyric from this part of the song because they all connect to Jonathan so well. the child to deliver; Jonathan, when he was young, was taken with the blood and vine. the blood being the infection, the vine being the overgrown city/the city becoming overgrown as it is abandoned

I'm not sure if he's ever mentioned anything about his mother specifically, because I've only ever watched session 4 of his POV thus far, but there's many mentions of angels and temples and such. I feel like this could all tie into his religious trauma in some way, if you were to look at it in the right light, but I don't know enough about religion/the religion he used to worship to be sure 💔

"Little Andy, soft in your newborn skin. / Only one, little Andy, will you return again? / I believe we can renew, / And you could be my brother. / Once again, fall asleep with our backs against each other. / You believe, I believe too, / That you are the river of light who I love, / That I sing to, in the belly of the empty night."

Another full section of the song because, again, all of the lyrics were just TOO GOOD !!! this part, specifically, feels like Spidey talking either to or about 4c.

'newborn skin' could reference the fact that every time a new session starts, a more considerable piece of his memory seems to be wiped as opposed to just overtime within a session. Spidey so badly wants to believe that it all might be a sick joke that he might come back fine— we see, in the session, that she goes out of her way to ask him if he's joking or playing a prank on her

this is why she believes that they can 'renew'. become new again, that he could become her brother. the reception of the dynamic between the sunset trio has always been dependent on just,, how you feel about it, I guess— but the way I see it is this:

Jonathan acts like a father figure both to Spidey and 4c, despite the fact that he acts like he doesn't care for them. as for between Spidey and 4c, I don't necessarily view them as siblings dynamic-wise; but considering they're both considerably young compared to Jonathan, and very close, I could definitely understand how that (them being 'siblings' under Jonathan) would carry over as a meaning

"I wanna drop my arms and take your arms, / And walk you to the shore."

..do I even have to say anything?