#dearviolet

I hope once you come out of quarantine, you are more at peace with your mind, you know a little bit of Spanish, you’ve finished most of your notes and you’re a lot more fit and healthy. But I hope you don’t pressure yourself. You have a lot of time, take one day one step at a time.

Love,

Courage, my dear Violet. You are beautiful, my dear Violet. Such lies you tell me dear Violet. Saying you won't be missed my dear Violet. Saying you're replaceable my dear Violet. Such lies you tell me my dear Violet.

You move me my dear Violet. You inspire me my dear Violet. Your words make me feel things my dear Violet. I miss you my dear Violet.

You have so much to offer dear Violet. Life is worth living dear Violet. It gets so much better dear Violet. Because you are loved dear Violet.

I regret everyday not saying hello dear Violet. I regret not letting you know I care dear Violet. But I hold the memories close my dear Violet, Of the conversations we did have dear Violet.

I believe in you dear Violet. I believe you will make it dear Violet.  You're irreplaceable my dear Violet.

I know that everyone deserves a space on this Earth as long as You want us here. And I cannot believe that Jessica has served her full purpose. She has been kind and nice to everyone and has helped tons of people, but she has never helped herself. Please, please help her now. We need her.

I don't know if we can handle a death like this. I don't know if some of us will make it through that unharmed.

Deaths change things and I don't like that.

Death is so...permanent. Please help me understand this and cope with it. Please help all of us cope in a healthy way. 

If it is in fact Jessica's time to go, please help us. Please let it bring us together in love. Please let it show the world what hatred can do. Please use it for good.

But most of all, Lord, please don't let Jessica die.

Love,