May 5
i’ve been sick for so long now lol even if it feels as if it wasn’t as bad, or that it’s not as bad now. It doesn’t matter. It’s always been bad, and I’ve been sick for so, so long. I was on here at fifteen and I’m on here at nearly twenty-five and I have nothing to show for it. The brief moments of respite i have had in my body have long since passed and it is now repulsive yet again. I really did think I would be the exception to this twisted illness, that I would walk all linear path never to waver. It was all hubris—I’m just another statistic. And I’m stuck, and I have to do it all over again. This has been my entire life.
