Another one. No really, another one. I messed up. I overplayed my hand. Sometimes I really wish I can learn from my mistakes, but I guess it's true what they say. You really don't choose who you fall for. It just happens. I did like him, I truly did. But it was never enough. Not pretty enough, not sexy enough, not confident enough. Idk. Sometimes I just think maybe it's me. Maybe I don't go for it as much as I would want to. I just don't think I can keep going like this. Keep expecting that the next one that comes along will be better, because it's never is. It never has been and from where I'm standing it doesn't seem like it will be for a while. I never believed in coincidences, I always believed that destiny was a thing. And we may all probably make our own destiny, if you want to look at it like that. But nothing ever "just happens", so I don't get it. Am I just supposed to go through all this pain for the sake of it? Cause clearly nothing seems to be happening... Maybe it was all the soap operas or the the first one, but it's just been difficult. I wish I just didn't have feelings. I wish it would just be all daisys and friendships and I would not want nothing more than that. But it isn't. Now I lost another good friend, and I'm actually sad about it. A part of me just wants to sit in the corner of the room and cry, listen to Adele and just bawl my eyes out. But then the other part of me is just tired of all the tears. I feel the hurt but nothing can fall. I think I've cried too much for all the wrong guys that it's to the point that this is normal for me. It's sad isn't it. A girl with a big heart, but no one to share it with.
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