A/N: gonna write a Sam version and a Dean version next because honestly, I doubt I can write a threesome.
âWhat, we can't all three share a bedâŠâ he laughed before taking the far left side.
âFine.â You challenged laying in the middle of the bed beckoning for Sam to join you. Which he reluctantly did soon enough. The three of you laid on your backs not touching or well trying not to. âDean, can I please just get another room?â You pleaded rolling over to face him.
âLast night you were asking if we thought you were pretty babyâŠwhy you nervous now?â Dean smirked at you, turning to face you as well. Blood rushed to your cheeks and you quickly made your way to the bathroom locking the door. âReally DeanâŠâ Sam scolded before making his way over to the bathroom door.
âHey pretty girl, can I come in?â Sam gently knocked. He heard the lock click and made his way inside. You were sitting on the counter with your knees pressed to your chest and head down. âI already apologized for thatâŠI thought we were past itâ you whispered looking up at Sam tears pricking the corners of your eyes.
âI know baby girl, I'm sorry he is being a dickâŠI will go get another room if you want.â Sam sat beside you putting his arm around your shoulder. Then an idea hit youâŠtwo can play at that game. âSammy, do you want to help me with something?â An evil smile lit up your face.
The plan was in place, you would walk out of the bathroom and act like you were just fine sleeping between the brothers but you would only talk to Sam, Dean was getting the silent treatment. As you walked out of the bathroom Dean started apologizing he really looked like he felt guilty but the plan was in place. âI'm going for a swim Sammy, call me when you get a lead.â You said stripping down to your underwear and bra before walking out of the room.
âHey, waitâŠwhatâŠâ Dean's thoughts died on his lips. He turned to Sam âshe didn't even accept my apologyâŠâ he frowned. Sam just shrugged and got his laptop out to start looking into leads. Dean looked out the window at you swimming laps, feeling bad he decided to join you. He pulled his pants down and his shirt off before marching out to the pool.
âHey princessâŠIm sorryâŠâ he started sitting on the edge of the pool near where you were floating. âI will get you as many rooms as you wantâŠplease just talk to me.â You looked him up and down and damn if he didn't make you drool a little shirtless and pleading for your forgiveness. âFineâŠget in here and hug me Winchesterâ you said standing up and holding your arms out.
He jumped in and wrapped you in his arms. You wrapped your legs around his waist and put your head on his shoulder. He backed up to the side of the pool and just held you. âNow that we are back on speaking terms, want to tell me why you really got so drunk last night?â His voice rumbled through his chest and you could feel it in yours as he spoke.
âI thought it would help me do something and it did not.â You spoke softly, enjoying his embrace. âReally guys?!...â Sam crossed his arms âwhy am I the only one working?â He pulled his bitch face. âJoin us thenâŠâ you giggled, swimming away from Dean toward the steps. He saw that glint of mischief in your eyes and know what was about to happen.
âNooooâŠno...heyâŠno..â Sam started backing away from you and your grabby wet hands. âC'mon SammyâŠDon'tcha want to hug meâ you pouted before darting towards him and hugging his waist. He looked down at you and smirked before jumping in the deep end with you still attached to his waist. He came up for air with you wrapped around him still.
âHeyâ Sam shook his hair out of his eyes and they met yours âHeyâ you smiled back. Dean cleared his throat having made his way to the deep end with you both. You floated backwards so your head was on Dean's shoulder and your feet were on Sam's âwe should probably get to work huh?â You sighed looking up at the beautiful sky.
The boys both agreed and the three of you made your way back to the room. Sam got first shower since all his clothes were wet. You could feel Dean's eyes on you. âTake a picture, it will last longer,â you joked before turning to look at him. âMaybe I willâŠâ he stood reaching for his phone on the table. You pulled the towel you had wrapped around you tighter and blushed.
Thankfully Sam exited the bathroom before Dean could close in on you. âMy turn!â You and Dean exclaimed in unison. In order to avoid another argument Sam suggested rock paper scissors. You threw rock, Dean threw scissors. You had recalled Sam saying Dean always picks scissors first.
You made your way into the bathroom and turned the shower on lukewarm just the way you liked it. While you were in the shower your mind drifted to how their bodies felt against yours in the pool. You ran a hand down your body finding your core already wet. You whispered a hoarse âffuckkâ while circling your sensitive clit. You pictured their hands exploring your body and kissing you all over.
You threw your head back and sped up your motions feeling the coil in your abdomen start to feel tight. âSam, Dean, ohh fucckâ you moaned a little louder than you meant to as you came. Hopefully they didn't hear that you thought to yourself as you finished getting cleaned up. You got dressed and left the bathroom acting like nothing happened.
Dean rushed into the bathroom without a word. Sam was at his computer jaw tense leg bouncing. So they must have heardâŠat least they were being cool about it. You sauntered over to Sam and wrapped your arms around his shoulders from behind âhey Sammyâ you practically purred in his ear breath hot against his neck.
âHey pretty girlâ , his words going straight to your core. He spun the chair around and patted his lap for you to sit. You obeyed and straddled his waist. âYou have been quite the tease lately baby girlâ he searched your eyes for a sign he should stop. When he found none his hands captured your waist.
You looked down at him biting your bottom lip. His hand left your waist just long enough for his thumb to pull your lip away from your teeth shaking his head no. âGetting some mixed signals here princess, is it me or Dean that you want?â He inquired, tilting his head almost innocently. âB..bothâ you stuttered, looking away and to the ground.
You saw Dean's feet and raked your eyes up his body. âThink you can handle that sweetheart?â he asked with a smirk. You just nodded silently, eyes flicking between them looking for any hints of how they were feeling. âWhadya think SammyâŠthink she can handle us both?â He asked eyes running up and down your body.
âI think we should make her choose,â Sam smirked at you. You wanted to bite your lip again but instead you pouted and started to get off Sam but his hands held you tighter against his lap. âUh uh pretty girl you are staying right here until you decideâŠWho fucks you firstâ Sam growled in your ear.
They both looked at you like you were prey, and honestly, you were here for it. You could feel how wet you were already. You decided onâŠ..
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A/N: My first time writing in a while, please be gentle, but Im always open to constructive advice. Let me know if I missed any warnings. If you want to hear the song I was inspired by its Feathered Indians by Tyler Childers.
Word count : 668
Warnings : unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it, yall) p in v, fluff,
Dean loved the pick up a stranger at a bar routine. So there you sat nursing a beer waiting for him to saunter in and talk you into his car. A cowboy wanna-be walked up and asked you to dance as your favorite song started playing. As much as you loved jealous Dean you didn't want to start tonight with a fight.
âAs much as I would love to, I better stay here.â You said with a smile and a wink, he walked back over to his friends defeated. You turned to the door as you heard it squeak open and there he was.
He made his way over to you with a smirk already on his face. âCan I buy you a beer sweetheart?â He asked, his smile breathtaking â I think I would like thatâ you purred, before biting your lip. A few beers later you find yourself in the back seat of baby.
Dean slowly kissed his way up your body, his belt buckle cold against your exposed inner thigh. You could feel how hard he was through his jeans. âDean baby please, need you nowâŠâ you moaned in his ear as he nipped at your neck. âSoon baby girl, soon.â Dean's gravely voice soothed rubbing slow circles on your clit. You let out little breathless moans with every movement he made. God he loved the way you would come undone for him.
âTell me what you want babyâ he whispered, sliding his fingers in and out of your core. âMmm want your cock inside me Deanâ you begged, rocking your hips into his hand. He smirked and began lining himself up as you shifted impatiently. He slid into you slowly groaning at your tightness. You run your hands over his chest loving the way he stretches you open.
âFuck Dean m'close babyâ you groaned gripping his biceps so hard you left marks. âGood girl cum f'meâ he moaned, leaning down and kissing you. You came hard, moaning loudly into his kiss. He came shortly after you filling you up.
You giggled at his hazy expression peppering kisses anywhere you could âI love you babyâ he whispered almost like a prayer. âI love you too deanoâ you responded wrapping your arms around him and holding him close.
Once you both got cleaned up and redressed you sat on the hood of baby watching the sun rise together. âOh..One more thingâŠ.â Dean smiled, sliding off the hood and offering you his hand. âWhatâŠâ you asked slowly, taking his hand and standing up. He pulled out his phone and started playing your favorite song. âDance with me?â He smiled down at you âAlwaysâ you smiled back up at him.
You shed a silent tear as you swayed to the song, your head in the crook of his neck. âDeanâŠYou know how much I love you right?â You whispered, pulling back and making eye contact with him. âOf course I do babyâŠwhy are you crying?â He wiped your tears away pressing his forehead to yours. âThank you for tonight, it was wonderful.â You smiled as more tears fell down your cheeks. âAnytime baby girl⊠but why are you crying?â his brow furrowed with worry.
Shaking your head you smiled up at him again âI don't know what I would do without you Dean.â A whisper fell from your lips as you dropped your gaze to your feet feeling embarrassed. Dean took a step back and put his hands on your shoulders âBaby, I was gonna wait to do this but I guess now is as good a time as anyâŠâ He said as he dropped to one knee in front of you.
âYou are my favorite person, and I know you will always be there no matter what. Will you make me the luckiest man in the world and marry me?â He asked, searching your eyes for an answer. âDeanâŠI would love nothing moreâŠâ You smiled and kissed him hard as he picked you up, spinning you around.
MINORS DNI! blue dividers by @cyberbeat and @cafekitsune
pairing: actor!dean winchester x actress!fem!reader
summary: She's pure chaos wrapped in heels and sunshine, he's a brooding mess with a clenched jaw and a bad reputation. Dean Winchester did not ask for this. Their fake relationship was supposed to fix both their careers. Staged desire before the World Premiere of their last movie. Except she makes him laugh for real and he kisses her like he means it. Looks like they forgot the first rule of pretending: don't believe your own lies.
disclaimer: english is not my first language!
warnings: too many to even list them. age gap (dean is 41, reader is 25), mentions of divorce, scandal, fluff, angst, SMUTTY SMUT (also dom!dean, oral - f! receiving, unprotected sex, fingering, spitting, car shenanigans, semi-public sex, castiel!voyeur but i swear it's funny), "enemies" to friends to lovers, grump/sunshine trope, costars, FAKE RELATIONSHIP AU!, slow burn but flirty!reader , third person, no use of y/n, no explicit physical description except she's the same height as dean with heels (self-indulgent) and it's implied she has long hair, there are some visuals, but they have been chosen for the aesthetic of it (all from pinterest), not for body type/skin color/hair type, you can imagine whoever you want!, hollywood vibes, pining if you squint, mentions of cheating (not between main characters), panic attack, leaked sex tape (non-con), castiel novak is a menace to society, sam winchester is finally a lawyer, jess is alive.
word count: 20k+, proofread to the best of my abilities
chye's corner: i'm on holiday, inspired and i love aus and cliches, so there's that. this is a monster of a one-shot, i know, i'm sorry, i couldn't stop. i have five other scenes written, cutting them was the worst pain ever. pls consider a reblog, a like, or a comment! thank you for choosing to read my words (((:
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THE PITCH
The sun had started its descent behind the Hollywood hills, turning the glass-walled office into a fishbowl of fading goold and too much silence. Outside, the world was Los Angeles perfect, with bougainvillea climbing fences, palm trees whispering like waves, lazy, constant, impossible to ignore. Inside, the room smelled like eucalyptus and tension, Dean Winchester standing like he was about to bolt.
He didn't sit. Never did in these kinds of meetings. His body wasn't made for soft chair and softer conversations. He leaned against the corner window, arms crossed, cap shadowing his face. His shirt clung to the line of his shoulder, damp from the late July heat. One boot tapped the hardwood floor slowly. Not out of impatience, but annoyance. These days, Dean Winchester was always annoyed. His jaw was set so tight it could've cracked his molars.
Across the room, Castiel Novak was halfway through a lukewarm espresso, and already at the end of his patience. "I need you to stop glowering," he said flatly, glancing at him over the rim of the tiny cup. "You look like you just found out Santa isn't real and he slept with your ex-wife."
Dean didn't smile. Cass sighed and stood, rolling up the sleeves of his button-down with a flair that was too practiced to be careless. He paced in front of his desk, tapping his fingers against his phone like it was a metronome. "You know, I don't do this for just anyone," he said. "I don't beg. I suggest. I redirect. I subtly manipulate with grace and well-timed press leaks.â
Dean arched an eyebrow. âYouâre doing all three right now.â
Cass ignored that. âBut with you? Iâm begging. Because this thing, this disaster spiral youâre riding down like a flaming motorcycle stunt, ends one of two ways. With a public breakdown. Or with me saving your ass.â
Dean looked away, lips pursed. The texts had been harmless, not even flirty, not really. Just late-night nostalgia with a woman he used to love. A woman whoâd moved on. A woman who was married now. And it didnât matter what he knew. The internet had already decided he was the villain. âI donât need saving,â he muttered.
âTell that to your haters.â Cass crossed his arms. âYouâre not in your thirties anymore. You donât get to be the brooding heartthrob with a ârough patch.â Now, youâre the guy who never moved on. Who couldnât let go. Who made a move on someone elseâs wife.â
Dean scowled. âThatâs not what happened.â
âI know that,â Cass said gently. âBut this town doesnât care about facts. It cares about image. And right now? Yours is bleeding out.â
Dean exhaled through his nose. The room felt too warm. Or maybe that was just shame settling into his chest like secondhand smoke.
Cass stepped closer, lowering his voice. Softer now. Friendlier. Like the guy Dean used to get drunk with after long shoots in Vancouver. Before everything got complicated. âThereâs a way out of this. A clean one. But you have to agree.â
Dean didnât answer.
Cass tapped his fingers against the desk once. Then added, casually. âSheâs already in.â Dean looked up.
Cass smiled, just a little. âKnew thatâd get your attention.â
Deanâs stomach twisted. âYouâre serious?â
âShe doesnât need to do this,â Cass said. âShe wants to. Or, okay, she wants the headlines. She wants the narrative reset. And youâre part of that.â
Dean ran a hand over his jaw. âSo what, we parade around town pretending to be a couple? Thatâs your master plan?â
Cass turned to the window, facing the city like he could bend it to his will. âYou walk through Venice Beach holding an iced coffee. She smiles up at you like sheâs never heard of bad press. You laugh, maybe for the first time in public this year. Boom. Next thing you know, the internetâs in love with you two. Everyone forgets the texts. Youâre trending for the right reasons again.â
Dean stared at the wall. He hated this. The performative bullshit. The way it always came back to playing a role, even when the cameras werenât rolling.
And then the door opened. He didnât see her at first, just heard the creak of sandals, the whisper of fabric, the soft metallic jingle of stacked bracelets. Then she stepped into view.
Dean straightened before he meant to.
She looked... like summer distilled. Loose waves in her hair, golden from the sun. A plain white tank top that clung just enough, a slouchy brown leather bag over her shoulder. The soft dip of her collarbone catching the light. Her skirt was deep red, rich and full, cinched at the waist, swaying gently with each step like it had somewhere better to be. She looked like she belonged barefoot in a villa, or stepping out of a vintage convertible with a peach in one hand and a secret in the other. Not here. Not in a PR negotiation.
She gave him a once-over. Not rushed. Not shy. Just amused. "Hi boys," she said, a small smile crossing her lips. âDid he agree yet?â she asked Cass. âOr is he still brooding like a tortured novelist?â
Dean stared. Then blinked. âYou serious with that outfit?â
âWhy?â she smiled. âWorried Iâm gonna outshine your baseball cap?â
âIâm worried Iâm gonna look like your damn babysitter.â
âOh please,â she said, tossing her bag onto the chair and lowering herself into it like a cat. âYou wish you looked this relaxed.â
Dean opened his mouth, ready to bite back, but Castiel beat him to it, his voice always sounded like he was halfway through a sermon. Publicist to the stars, fire extinguisher to the famous. And today, babysitter to two people who wanted to kill each other. Or fuck. It was a fine line, really. âChildren,â Cass said, raising a hand like he was casting a spell to ward off drama. âDean, your brooding is giving very âdivorced lumberjack with a podcast about knives.â And you, darling,â he turned to her, eyebrow arched. âyou look like a Pinterest board for women who journal about their exes in vineyards.â
She grinned. âIâll take that as a compliment.â
âIt wasn't one,â Cass muttered, but without heat. âNow. Back to why weâre here.â He was already typing something into his iPad, giddy like a kid unveiling a school project made entirely of glitter and power moves.
Dean stayed where he was, arms folded tight. His body had settled into the posture he used in meetings with directors he didnât trust: immovable, unimpressed, vaguely threatening. On the other side of the room, her elbows were resting lightly on the armrests, red skirt spilling around her like rose petals left behind after a party. Her back straight, chin lifted. Not a trace of apology anywhere on her, not in her posture, not in her outfit, definitely not in the way she glanced at Dean like he was an inconvenient errand.
âSo,â Cass began, without even pretending to build tension, âIâve walked Dean through the strategy. The publicâs already halfway convinced you two are falling in love, weâre just going to let them believe it. Youâll be photographed together. Twice a week, minimum. Venice Beach, Silver Lake, maybe a hotel lobby with dramatic lighting...â
She interrupted without looking up. âCan we skip the farmerâs market aesthetic? Iâm not carrying kale for this man.â
Dean rolled his eyes. âYou think I want to be seen buying kale?â
She grinned, and it was lethal. âYou look like you havenât eaten a vegetable since 2004.â
âOkay,â Cass said, raising both hands. âThis is the chemistry Iâm talking about.â
Dean looked at her, jaw tight. âYouâre really on board with this?â
âI am.â She adjusted her bracelets. âWhy wouldnât I be? I get a golden-boy redemption arc without having to cry on national television, and you get to look like someone can stand you for more than ten minutes.â
Dean let out a sharp exhale, not quite a laugh. âYouâre good.â
âIâm great,â she said brightly. âAlso, I get to wear cute outfits and fake-date a man who broods for a living. Itâs basically my charity work for the year.â
He shifted his weight, arms still crossed. âYou sure youâre ready for the âcontroversially young girlfriendâ headlines?â
"I've been called worse for less," she snorted. "All I have to do is try not to look bored while you pretend not to stare at me. Feels like a win.â Her tongue was sharp, but Dean's life was made of sharper things.
âI wonât be staring.â
âYou already are.â
Dean blinked. Once. Slowly. âYouâre not that special.â
She shrugged, all lazy confidence. âYou donât have to think I am. Just act like it.â
Cass, standing between them, was trying not to smile. Failing. âThis,â he said, gesturing vaguely between their bodies like he was conducting an orchestra of rage and unresolved sexual tension, âis exactly why people love you two. The chemistry is rabid. Online audiences are feral for it. You touch her elbow and they start planning wedding menus.â
Dean let out a sharp exhale. âIâm too old for this.â
She smiled sweetly. âYouâre not that old. Just... older than Twitter thinks is okay.â Deanâs jaw ticked.
Cass cut in again. âLook, youâll each get your own version of the narrative. Dean, rugged actor turns romantic again, regains public sympathy after âheartbreakâ and âhumble misstep.â You, a former scandal starlet chooses stability, matures publicly, audience re-learns how to root for her.â
She turned to Dean, head tilted. âI like how I get character development and you get a redemption arc. Very on brand.â One hand flicked a piece of hair out of her eyes. "So. Whatâs the play? Share an oat milk latte under a tree? Pap shots of us laughing while I pretend Deanâs funny?â
Dean gave her a look. âI am funny.â
âYouâre funny in a way that makes people cry in bathrooms.â
âSheâs not wrong,â Cas added, flipping his iPad toward them. âYouâre trending lower than crypto, Dean. And you,â he pointed at her, âare still âthe girl from that tapeâ to half the industry. But you two together? Youâre golden. Magnetic. Preposterously hot.â
âI am not magnetic,â Dean muttered.
âTell that to the internet,â Cass replied. âTheyâve built a religion around your thumb grazing her jaw in that trailer. We fake a relationship, ride the chemistry, clean up your public images, and then have a tasteful, tearless breakup by awards season.â
âI canât believe Iâm agreeing to this,â Dean said.
Castiel winked at him. âThis fake relationship controls the narrative. You get sympathy. She gets rebranded. You both get more than survival. You get power again.â
âYou know Iâm in,â she said, breezily. âBut I get Instagram caption veto power, no interviews about âhis healing journey,â and heâs not allowed to wear flannel in public.â
Dean scoffed. âWhat the hellâs wrong with flannel?â
âYou want to look emotionally available, not like you coach Little League and wonât shut up about your divorce.â
There were too many people. Too many sunglasses disguising not-so-subtle glances. Too many phones held at chest level, recording just in case. And the worst part was, Dean couldn't tell which cameras were real and which ones just wanted content. He knew Cass had tipped off paparazzi the day before, but he did not really take into account how many people would actually recognize the two of them. He had no doubt Novak knew and planned accordingly.
One thing was certain, even after thirty years in the industry, Dean didnât belong here. He stood near the railing overlooking the beach, wearing boots that were already too warm, jeans that stuck to his legs, and a black t-shirt that soaked up sunlight like punishment. Sunglasses on. Arms crossed. Mood foul. It didn't help that she had told Cass, who had told him not to wear his baseball cap. It apparently made him look too much of a redneck for her liking. So, he was stuck trying to not let his hair completely go over his eyes, having gotten longer this past year.
And then she appeared like a hallucination. She was walking toward him in a ridiculous outfit (was it really ridiculous?), head held high, legs long, her butter-yellow skirt barely reaching mid-thigh, swaying with every step. The halter-style top hugged her like it was custom-cut. A matching bag hung off her wrist like it weighed nothing. Gold earrings caught the sun. A soft white headband framed her face like a crown. She didnât just stand out. She detonated.
Dean let his gaze caress her figure. âOh, for fuckâs sake." She smiled.
âMissed me?â
âYou look like an off-duty Bond girl.â
âGood.â She stopped next to him, posing for nobody and everybody. âThatâs the vibe.â
Dean didnât answer. Just stared at her like she was an optical illusion he was too tired to decode.
Everything about her was blinding. The pale yellow of her outfit glowed against her skin, catching every drop of sun like it had been stitched out of light. She looked like she belonged in a vintage convertible in the south of France, not beside his sunburnt misery on a too-crowded boardwalk.
âHow the hell are you not melting in that?â he asked, gesturing vaguely to all of her.
She turned slightly so the breeze caught her skirt and her hair, perfectly timed, like a perfume commercial in slow motion. âItâs called fashion, Winchester. Try it sometime.â
Dean scowled. âWeâre on a beach. You look like youâre going to the Met Gala.â
âJealousy doesnât look good on you.â She smiled sweetly. âBut what does? Oh right, just your IMDb credits and the collective thirst of sad women on Twitter.â
Dean bit back a sigh. He could already feel the edges of a migraine forming, right behind his eyes. He blamed the sun. And her voice. Mostly her voice.
They started walking down the boardwalk, her sandals clicking softly on the concrete, his boots thudding like punctuation marks behind her. She walked a half step ahead, as if daring him to keep up, every inch of her curated to look effortless. He hated how good she was at this. Palm trees lined the path, rustling overhead with that slow, lazy rhythm that always sounded like waves crashing in the distance. A tourist couple paused to look. Then someone else. And someone else. Phones came out like reflex, again.
Dean didnât flinch, but he could feel his shoulders coil tighter.
âYouâre tense,â she murmured, glancing over her shoulder. âYou look like youâre going to your execution.â
âMaybe I am.â
She laughed. âRelax. Pretend you like me. Or at least that you donât want to push me into traffic.â
Deanâs eyes cut to her. âI donât want to push you into traffic.â
âProgress,â she beamed. âWeâre halfway to married.â
They sat. She crossed her legs delicately, smoothing the edge of her skirt so it revealed just enough thigh to make Dean curse under his breath. âYouâre doing that thing,â she said, not looking at him, reaching for a napkin âWhere you look like you just got told your favorite character died.â
âI hate this,â he muttered.
âNo, no. Thatâs too honest.â She tapped her brow, wiping off some sweat, smiling politely at nothing. âThe vibe weâre going for is more brooding-but-soft, you know? Like a widowed sea captain slowly learning to love again.â
Dean glared at her. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âAnd youâre pouting.â
âIâm not...â He caught himself. Sat back. Frowned deeper.
She leaned in slightly, eyes glittering, just shy from laughing out loud. âLook, you donât have to like me. I donât like you either.â
âGreat.â
âBut,â she said, her voice dipping into something low and smooth, âyou do have to pretend you want to bend me over this table. At least for the next twenty minutes.â Dean choked on absolutely nothing. Her smile turned wicked while she thanked the waiter for bringing her a latte. âCass' words, not mine. Though I didnât disagree.â Dean didnât respond. Couldnât. His mouth was too dry. She tilted her head. âWhatâs wrong, old man? Cat got your tongue?â
âNo,â he muttered. âJust trying to find the will to live.â
âAww,â she cooed. âWell, until you do, maybe lean in. Touch my hand. Smile like Iâm the best thing thatâs happened to you since high-def.â
Dean glanced toward the street. A camera clicked. Then another.
She reached across the table and brushed her fingers against his wrist, featherlight, cool from the glass she was holding. He was an actor, for fuck's sake, he could do this. He was born to do this.
He let out a slow breath, low and steady, and when he opened them again, something in his face had changed. The irritation was still there, sure. But now it simmered underneath something smoother. Something practiced. Controlled. A tension he knew how to sell, and how to weaponize. His green eyes stared into her soul.
He leaned in. Not dramatically. Not all at once. Just enough to close the space between them, elbows on the table, forearms bracketing her untouched latte.
Her hand was still on his wrist.
His voice dropped an octave. Smooth. Steady. âYou know what Iâm thinking about?â he said, his mouth tugging into something between a smirk and a sneer. She blinked. Just once. Her fingers curled slightly, but didnât pull away.
âWhat?â she asked, trying to sound amused. And almost succeeding.
Dean tilted his head slightly, eyes locked on hers. âHow easy itâd be to sell this. All Iâd have to do is touch your knee under the table. Let my eyes fall a little too low. Say your name like I mean it.â
Her posture stayed perfect, but her throat bobbed once. âGo on,â she said lightly, lips twitching. âYouâre on a roll.â
âOh, I havenât even started,â he murmured. âBecause then youâd laugh. The cameras would catch it. That little moment where you look at me like Iâve just said something filthy youâd never admit you liked.â
She sucked in a breath. Soft. Almost soundless.
He smiled, not kindly. âAnd people'd love it. Because itâd be the first time someone didnât treat you like a headline. Not like that shitty director you used to date. What was his name? Gordon, or something like that. Iâd be the man who wants you, for real. Right here. Right now.â
Her eyes narrowed, but her hand stayed exactly where it was. Dean leaned in a half inch closer, voice quieter now. For her. Just her. âBut we both know better,â he said. âI donât want you. And you donât want me.â She blinked again, and this time the smile didnât return right away. He sat back.
The space between them snapped taut, air heavy and warm with what had just passed through it. She reached for her drink, too fast. Dean watched her carefully, not smug, not quite, but with a flicker of satisfaction at the flush that crept into her cheeks.
âYouâre good at this,â she said, after a beat. Her voice was light, but less steady than before. âActing. Forgot this is why people want us together in the first place. Almost believed you.â
He reached for his own coffee, casual. âThatâs why they pay me more than you.â
She scoffed. âBarely.â
He smirked. âStill counts.â
A shutter clicked again. The sound barely registered. The entire world had blurred down to the look in her eyes, a mixture of irritation, curiosity, and something else she didnât want to admit.
She straightened. Smoothed her skirt like it hadnât risen halfway up her thigh. Tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and cleared her throat. âWait until week three when Iâm âaccidentallyâ wearing your shirt,â she said breezily, as if she hadnât just gone breathless three minutes ago. "This performance of yours will be long forgotten by then."
She was already sipping her drink like she hadnât just short-circuited half his neurons. He looked up at the sky. Prayed for a solar flare to end this performance and possibly the earth.
She looked over at him with a playful glance. âYouâre gonna hate this.â
He turned his head just slightly. âI already do.â
When the photos hit thirty minutes later, him leaning toward her, her hand on his arm, their eyes locked like the tension between them was too much to hide, the comments said exactly what Cas wanted to hear:
Theyâre so in love it hurts.
The age gap?? The chemistry??? Iâm unwell.
If this is fake, why am I crying?
THE FIRST PICTURE
The hallway to the upscale restaurant batroom looked like something out of a dream, or a fever. Walls of gleaming dark wood, soft gold lighting from sculptural fixtures, and black mirrored tile that made every movement ripple like water. The kind of place that tried hard to make you feel expensive. Everything gleamed. Everything whispered money. Dean wasn't really sure how he ended ip there, holding a woman over his shoulder like a bad of contraband.
Actually, he knew exactly how. Her. She'd been smirking from the moment they walked out the dining room. The second she saw the velvet-lined mirror panel at the end of the corridor, her eyes had flicked over to him, an idea harboring in her mind. And now Dean was paying for it, in heat, in proximity, in the way his heart hadn't quite gone back to normal.
"Youâre stiff," she said from behind his ear, voice slightly breathless. "Loosen up. Youâre carrying a woman, not a sack of flour."
"You threw yourself at me."
"I climbed gracefully."
âYou launched yourself like a cannonball.â
âSame thing,â she said sweetly, adjusting her arm around his shoulder. He could feel the edge of her bracelet press against the back of his neck, cool metal, soft skin, chaos incarnate. Her dress had been a problem since the moment she stepped out of the car.
It was black. Not just black, but the kind of black that absorbed every spotlight and gave it back as something sinful. Satin, probably, or some other expensive material he couldnât name but felt with every shift of her body against his. It clung in places that made conversation difficult. Thin straps, barely-there neckline, the kind of thing that had probably been taped into place with magic and a prayer. When she walked, it moved like smoke, hugging the backs of her thighs, catching the light in glints that werenât fair. There was a slit up the side, he hadnât dared look directly at it, but it flashed like a threat every time she climbed stairs or turned too quickly. She had worn heels that night, sharp, scrappy. With them on, she stood eye to eye with him. Maybe half an inch taller, depending on posture. And of course she had posture. She carried herself like she was starring in her own perfume ad, all lifted chin and killer elegance, like she knew sheâd just crossed the threshold of being unforgettable.
He hated that dress. Hated how it demanded attention. Hated how it looked like sheâd worn it specifically to ruin his evening. Worst of all, he hated how good she knew she looked in it, like the whole city was her runway and he was just the unwilling cameraman.
And now she was wrapped around him like a red carpet come to life.
He had tried to resist this, to put his foot down. He was not a damn teenager, these things were not for him anymore.
"I'm not doing this," he had said.
She had given him a slow look. âYou think I canât make you?â
Dean had crossed his arms in defiance. âIâm not one of your little Instagram husbands.â
âNo,â she had said, voice dropping slightly. âYouâre worse. Youâre a grump with a god-tier jawline who makes women online forget how to breathe. If weâre gonna sell this, we need to lean in.â
He had opened his mouth to argue, but she was already moving.
She was everywhere, perfume in his nose, skin against his shoulder, laughter pressed against his spine.
âThis is not happening,â he growled.
âIt is,â she whispered against his neck, and somehow that was worse.
The mirror in front of them caught the whole thing: her body curved over his shoulder, head hanging upside-down, lips parted in a breathless grin. His jaw was clenched. His grip was firm. The tension in his arms was unmistakable, like he could hold her forever or drop her just to make a point.
Dean looked at the reflection. At them. And something in his chest shifted, sharp, reluctant, a little unsteady. She looked like chaos. He looked like control. Together, they looked like trouble.
Deanâs grip tightened around the backs of her thighs, careful but firm. Her dress draped over his shoulder in a way that definitely wouldnât pass Instagram guidelines if she shifted the wrong way. Her legs swung slightly against his chest, bare skin brushing cotton. She smelled like heat and lipstick and something floral that didnât belong in this hallway.
"You're going to throw my back out," he muttered.
"Youâre strong enough," she replied lightly, though her breath hitched. âGod, this is going to break the internet.â It sounded like foreplay.
And Dean hated how much it worked.
She caught his eye in the reflection and winked. âYou gonna take the damn picture, or just stand there looking tragic?â
Dean grunted and pulled his phone out one-handed, angling it toward the mirror. He took the first picture.
The room around them gleamed, dim but golden, like everything had been filtered through luxury and late-night sin. Her hair caught the light in soft waves as she tilted her head back, a flash of teeth in her smile as she pointed toward the mirror again. She was relentless. âGood for a first try. Now, look like you sort of like me.â
Dean stared at the reflection. Her legs wrapped around him, heels kicked up like a goddamn movie poster. His plain white tee pulling across his chest. His hands holding her steady. Every muscle in his body was tense, but the worst part was... it didnât look like that.
In the mirror, it looked effortless. Hot, even.
He sighed. Another click.
âAgain,â she said.
âIâm not your tripod.â
âNo,â she said with a sly smile. âYouâre my man candy. For now.â
Dean rolled his eyes, but he took another. This one, her legs shifted, slightly, and his palm slid higher to adjust. Her skin was warm. His ears burned.
Click.
She adjusted reached over the angle, ever the perfectionist, hair falling over her shoulder, lips parted in a mock gasp like she wasnât the one orchestrating the whole thing. âOkay, now look a little less âhostageâ and a little more âcanât believe I get to do this'. Maybe smile?"
âI really canât.â
âDean.â
He gave the camera a smirk. Lazy. Slight. The kind that made fans lose their minds when it showed up mid-interview.
She blinked. âHoly shit. Do that again.â
âAbsolutely not.â
He lowered the phone. Glared at it like the photo had personally insulted him.
âLet me down,â she whispered after a beat, and though it was teasing, there was something else in her voice too, something breathless. Quiet. Almost real.
He bent slightly, letting her legs slide down his chest as she lowered herself. Her fingers stayed on his shoulders a second longer than necessary. When her feet hit the polished black tile, the air between them snapped taut, hot and close and thrumming.
They didnât move.
He could feel her watching him.
Could feel the tension ricocheting off the mirrored walls like static.
She looked down at the screen. Her expression changed, just for a moment, from playful to something more reverent.
âThis one,â she murmured.
He looked over her shoulder. In the photo, his arm wrapped securely around her thighs, her smile devilish, his mouth tilted just slightly, not quite a smile, but softer than a scowl. Like heâd stopped fighting it, even if just for the shutter.
It looked real. Too real.
She started typing a caption. Something snarky, probably. Something to make the comments froth. But her fingers paused. Hovered. Like maybe she didnât know what to say.
âPost it,â Dean said roughly.
She glanced up. âYou sure?â
He nodded once. She hit share.
Then she looked at him, and for the first time that night, the banter was gone. Just for a breath.
âYouâre dangerous when you let yourself be charming,â she said.
He looked down at her. âAnd youâre dangerous, period.â
Her smile returned, slow and sharp. âGood thing weâre pretending.â
THE FIRST REAL TALK
The car smelled like leather, perfume, and pressure.
Dean sat back against the seat, legs spread, hands resting on his thighs like he didnât trust them to stay still. He shifted in his seat, tugging slightly at the collar of his open-button shirt. The fabric felt too stiff against his neck, the jacket tailored within an inch of breathing. He could hear the low purr of the tires over pavement. The quiet exhale of the AC. The soft sound of her thumb scrolling on her screen. The city slid past in flashes of gold and brake lights, headlights catching on the curve of her shoulder as she scrolled on her phone like they werenât about to be photographed within an inch of their lives.
She looked... unfair. That was the only word that came to mind.
Her dress was some delicate, strappy thing in slate blue, soft and shimmery, elegant but a little too bare for his sanity. One leg crossed over the other, just enough thigh showing to be a statement. Hair pinned back with strategic precision, earrings like glints of trouble when she turned her head. Her heels rested on the floor mat next to his boots. She'd taken them off five minutes into the drive, sighed dramatically, and leaned her head back like she'd been through war.
He hadnât said much since. Neither had she.
Theyâd been silent for most of the ride, save for the occasional honk or the quiet jazz bleeding from the driverâs speakers, some Spotify playlist probably titled red carpet chill. Dean watched her screen light up her face in the dark. Her dress shimmered every time the car passed under another sign, silver-blue, like moonlight in fabric. When she moved, it rippled. When she laughed, which she hadnât done yet tonight, he imagined it would glow. She smelled expensive, soft perfume layered with something warm and human. A little sunscreen. A little sweat. Real things.Â
Dean couldnât decide if the silence was awkward or earned.
âYou ready for this?â he asked finally, voice rough from disuse.
She didnât look up. Just tilted her head toward him, lashes flicking upward. âYou asking if Iâm emotionally prepared for that many people with veneers, or if Iâm about to fake-laugh through forty red carpet interviews about my âprocessâ even if this isn't my movie?â
He gave a low snort. âYou rehearsed that one?â
âI live that one.â
A beat passed.
âAre you?â she asked.
Dean let his head fall back against the seat.
Outside, some guy in a hoodie was selling fake roses to couples at the stoplight. The kind of moment that usually made Dean roll his eyes. Tonight, it just made him tired.
âTheyâre gonna ask about it,â he said. âThe Lisa thing.â
She glanced at him, more alert now. âYou want to run through the story?â
Dean gave a quiet snort. âNo point. Whatever I say, theyâll believe what they want. The narrativeâs already written.â
She waited. Didnât interrupt. Which surprised him.
He shifted slightly, cracking his knuckles. âIt wasnât flirting,â he said. âNot really. Not the way theyâre making it look. I messaged her first, we were both drunk, and yeah, it got... fuzzy. But there wasnât anything sexual. No crossing lines. I think we both just missed what it felt like, having someone who knew the old versions of us.â
The window beside him showed his reflection, half-dissolved in the streetlights. He looked like someone explaining away a ghost. âSheâs married now. To someone I introduced her to, to someone she cheated on me with. Theyâve got a daughter. I didnât mean for it to get messy. But I didnât shut it down soon enough either.â
Silence. And then her voice, low. âDo you still love her?â
Dean blinked. The question wasnât cruel, or curious. No one had just asked that. Not Castiel, not his brother Sam. âNo,â he said, too fast. Then again, quieter. âNo.â And it was true. There was a time where Lisa's black hair and full smile had been the highlight of his life, sure, but after he found out about her affairs throughout their years together, he couldn't bear to look in her eyes and see the truth he chose to ignore for so long.
She cleared her throat. "You're a good man, Dean. I need you to know that," her hand slowly went to his bicep, he looked at it. "You didn't do anything wrong."
He let out a breath. âDoesnât matter,â he said. âIâm forty-one, divorced, and moody. People donât root for that. They see a man texting his ex and call it pathetic.â
She titled her head toward him. "I see a man who gave a shit when it would've been easier not to, if you ask me." Her voice was soft, but certain. She wasn't offering comfort, not really, she was telling the truth. "You're not pathetic, Winchester," she added, quieter. "Maybe deeply allergic to look like you're happy, but very far from pathetic."
Dean huffed a breath that mightâve been a laugh if it didnât hurt a little. âThatâs generous.â
âYou ever regret something that didnât feel like a mistake until someone else watched it happen?â he asked.
She smiled. Not the PR smile. Not the one that got her out of interviews or into luxury partnerships. Just the ghost of one. Dry. Bitter. True. âDon't you know? I built a career on it.â
Dean looked at her, really looked, and for once, she didnât deflect. Didnât pose. Just breathed.
âI was nineteen,â she said, voice steady. âNew producer. Big audition. I thought I was lucky, that someone powerful wanted me. He was older. Smarter. Knew what to say to make it all feel... earned.â Dean didnât speak. Her gaze dropped to her lap. âIt wasnât just the tape. It was the headlines. The phone calls. The way everyone looked at me like Iâd handed it out myself. Like Iâd wanted it. I lost two jobs. Almost three. You know what saved me?â He shook his head once. She looked up. âI laughed about it. Turned it into a brand. Became the girl from the tape, but who also wasn't shy about it. You know how exhausting it is to pretend something didnât break you?â
Deanâs jaw tightened. âYeah.â
A long, low silence settled between them. Not awkward. Not anymore. Just real. âI never watched it,â she said suddenly. âThe tape. Never saw it. Didn't even know it existed in the first place.â
Dean looked over at her. She met his gaze. âGood, don'tâ he said, voice rough. "That tape doesn't matter. It never did."
She let out a little laugh. "Yeah, tell that to my dad."
"Fuck, I bet that was awkward," his hand crossed over his face.
She smiled, again, barely there. âDonât cry for me, brooding sea captain. Iâm still here.â
âIâm not crying,â he muttered.
âYouâre thinking about it.â
âNo. Iâm thinking about how to not punch someone in a tux if they bring it up on the carpet.â
She smirked. âNow thatâs the romance I signed up for.â
The car rolled to a stop. The door clicked as the lock disengaged.
Outside, the lights were brighter. The shouting louder. A wall of flashbulbs and PR handlers and scripted charm waited just beyond the door. She slipped her heels back on without flinching. Adjusted the strap on her dress. Lifted her chin. Dean watched her become someone else, not fake, exactly. Just armored.
Then she turned to him and did something unexpected. She reached over and fixed his collar. Lightly. Fingers brushing his jaw. Brief. Human. âYou look good,â she said.
He studied her. âSo do you.â
They stared for a breath too long. Then the door opened, and they stepped out, into the lie they were learning how to live together.
THE FIRST INTERVIEW
The sidewalk shimmered under the weight of L.A. heat, and the press line looked like an overcaffeinated runway, flashes, boom mics, plastic smiles. A cluster of reporters stood behind a velvet rope, fanning themselves with folded call sheets and half-empty coffee cups. Neon-orange cones kept back the crowd, and a black Escalade had just rolled up like something important was about to happen. Which, of course, it was.
Dean Winchester stepped out first. Grumpy. Broad-shouldered. A walking PSA for men who hadn't had a full nightâs sleep since 2012. No entourage. No warning. Just that familiar shuffle of boots replaced with clean sneakers and quiet dread. His black crew-neck tee hugged his chest like it had been made for him, the sleeves barely containing the curve of muscle. Crisp white pants, immaculately unbothered, like he gave a damn but not too much. Aviators obscured his eyes. Jaw clenched just enough to let everyone know he wasnât thrilled to be here. Classic watch glinting at his wrist. He looked like someone who was about to refuse to give a quote, and somehow still go viral.
Then she stepped out. And the temperature shifted.
Her navy pinstripe jumpsuit hugged and draped in all the right places, sharp lapels, a cinched waist with a silver chain slung low, the neckline a deep, dramatic V that made headlines on its own. She wore pointed heels and walked like the sidewalk was hers. Silver-rimmed sunglasses, thick chain necklace, and earrings big enough to reflect the sunset. The reporters surged like sharks catching blood.
A male reporter adjusted her mic. âYou look amazing,â he gushed.
"I try," she said brightly, adjusting her sunglasses.
Dean muttered under his breath, âSheâs modest, too.â
She smiled wide and fanned him with one hand. âIgnore him, heâs just upset Iâm taller than him today.â
âSheâs not,â Dean said flatly.
âI am.â
âYouâre wearing stilts.â
âTheyâre Tom Ford.â
Dean didnât blink, âI don't think it matters.â She was enjoying this, he knew that. His discomfort, the attention, the way the reporters were already leaning closer, not to her, but toward the gravity of them. Together.
The reporter laughed nervously, sensing he might need to play moderator. âSo! The film. âWithout Warning.â Action, romance, international espionage. Howâd you two prepare for the roles?â
Dean pushed his glasses up. "It's a project I've had my eyes on for a while, and Charlie, the director, she's amazing," He smiled without showing teeth. "Had fun watching me getting punched in the ribs by three different stuntmen."
She jumped in, chipper. "I learned a fake Italian accent and drive stick in five-inch heels."
Dean glanced sideways. "You never used the accent."
"I was ready, Winchester. That's what matters," she quoted his words from before, a small grin on her perfect face.
"And you stalled the car," Dean added, gaining a few laughs from reporters. Huh, that's new.
She rolled her eyes. "On purpose. It was character work."
Another journalist, next to the one who had asked the first question, giggled. "I have to ask, the entire Internet deserves to know..." she paused, a michievious glint in her eyes. And there it was, the question Cass had briefed them on before hand. The question they had spent an hour and a half preparing in his office. They were told to answer a simple yes to the question of the year, but it seemed too dry and out of character for her. Surprisingly, she had agreed to Cass' version of mystery. "Was it love at first sight, or did you grow on each other?"
Dean blinked slowly, deadpan. "Like mold?"
She bit back a laugh beside him. âYouâll have to forgive him,â she said to the host, all warmth and faux-concern. âHeâs only been media trained in sarcasm and long sighs.â
âIâm very talented,â Dean added. Dry as a desert.
The interviewer smiled too big, sensing blood in the water. âSo... not love at first sight?â
Dean turned slightly toward her. âAll about timing. You tell it,â he said, gesturing, giving her the possibility to go off script.
She thanked him with a squeeze on his bicep. âWell, we met on set. I thought he was terrifying and allergic to small talk. He thought I was loud, sparkly, and definitely the reason he had a headache.â
âYou were the reason I had a headache,â Dean muttered.
She ignored that. âBut then,â she continued brightly, âHe scowled at me so much I mistook it for affection. And now weâre here.â
The interviewer laughed. âSeriously though, the chemistry is unreal. Like... people are invested. Especially after that photo on Instagram...â
Dean let out a breath. âYeah. That one.â
âAny truth to the rumors?â another reported leaned forward, faux-casual. âIs it method acting? Or something more... ongoing?â
There was a pause. One of those electric, camera-eats-it silences. She adjusted her sunglasses and said with a coy little tilt of her head: âWeâre very good at what we do.â
Dean looked over at her, eyebrow raised. âThat supposed to be mysterious?â
âA little mystery sells tickets.â
He looked at the interviewer, deadpan again. âWe're friends.â
She shrugged. âNot technically.â
Dean let out a low grunt of disbelief, and more journalists leaned in, thrilled. âWait, what does that mean?â
She smiled at Dean like she was daring him. âMeans we hang out. Laugh. Spend quality time together."
âSounds like dating,â the same reported from before teased.
âI donât cry in public, so clearly not,â she quipped.
Dean finally cracked a smile, small, crooked. Real. âSheâs allergic to vulnerability.â
She grinned, tossing it back. âAnd heâs allergic to joy.â A fan yelled her name. She turned just slightly and waved. The chain around her waist shimmered like sunlight on water.
The laughter hadnât even fully died down before a different journalist stepped forward, this one with a sharper look and a mic already lifted like a blade. Her smile was practiced, her blazer wrinkle-free. She wasnât here for flirt-banter. âYou mentioned timing earlier,â she said, glancing at Dean over her tortoiseshell glasses. âThereâs been a lot of discourse about yours, Dean. Specifically the messages to Lisa Braeden and how quickly this new... friendship entered the spotlight. Just two weeks after, if I recall. Some critics have called it âconvenient.ââ A beat. âWhat would you say to those people?â
Deanâs jaw flexed. His sunglasses did nothing to hide the way he inhaled, once, deep, and nearly spoke. He had practiced an answer, a simple no comment. Maybe that would have raised some eyebrows, but it would have saved him from publicly addressing his private life. One of the things he dreaded the most about the spotlight.
She beat him to it. And this time, her smile was nowhere in sight. âIâm going to stop you right there,â she said, turning toward the reporter fully. Her voice was calm. Unflinching. âIf the question youâre asking is whether Dean is using our relationship to distract from some kind of scandal, then the answer is no.â The air felt heavier. âAnd to those people who like to speculate, Iâd say theyâre forgetting heâs human.â
The journalist blinked.
She didnât stop. âHe didnât do anything wrong. He reached out to someone he used to care about. Thatâs not a scandal, itâs a Tuesday. And if people are more interested in spinning headlines than showing grace, thatâs not on him. Thatâs on you.â Dean looked over at her, actually looked. Something unreadable passed between them. Something heavier than cameras and banter. She wasn't done. "We started hanging out because we had a connection. Because we spent time together and realized it wasnât just on screen.â She looked at Dean then, direct, with a soft kind of heat. âAnd if our... time together has made things a little easier in the middle of all this noise? Then good. He deserves that.â She was a professional at it. But somehow, behind the little white lie, Dean knew she wasn't pretending, not fully, not like he had expected her to.
There was a pause. One of those beautiful, press-silencing pauses where even the cameras hesitated. Dean cleared his throat. "I donât regret reaching out to someone I cared about,â he gained confidence. âAnd I sure as hell donât regret being here with her.â He gestured, a small tilt of his head in her direction, subtle, but enough. âYou can call it convenient or whatever you want. I know what it is.â
She didn't turn to him, but her lips parted slightly, just enough to catch her breath. The question had surprised both of them, Cass hadn't said anything about it. Sure, Dean thought this would happen, he had avoided it for too long now, but, still, he hadn't expected her to step in like that. Not with fire, not with conviction.
Sheâd defended him like she meant it.
She smiled again to the sea of reporters, her shoulder still tense beneath the practiced curve of her charm. "Thank you for being out here!" she called out brightly, one last burst of sunshine for the flashing cameras. She waved, blew a kiss toward the fans behind the barricades, perfectly framed for the final shot, and then pivoted on her heel.
Dean followed, a beat behind, jaw still tight, mind still chewing on the thing they werenât supposed to say out loud. He too waved at the crowd behind them, earning a few squeaks and scream from his fans. But then, just as they cleared the velvet rope, just as the shouting dimmed into background noise and the hotel lights loomed ahead like lifeboats, she reached for his hand.
No warning. No theater. Just her fingers slipping between his, warm and certain and real. He squeezed it. Thank you.
THE FAMILY DINNER
The restaurant was one of those candlelit, whisper-toned places tucked into the Hollywood Hills, where reservations took two weeks and the maĂźtre dâ greeted you by name if your IMDb profile had enough views. It was too nice for Dean's taste, hell, he had to dress up for it. Still, Jess had made the reservation, and Sam had insisted. Something about "You owe me for that one time in Tahoe." Dean didnât ask. The table was private, near a fake fireplace with a low crackle and a polished bronze mirror hanging above, throwing back all that soft, amber light.
Private was a generous word. Once Cass had got wind that Dean was going to have a family dinner, he had pushed for her to be there too. The perfect opportunity, he had called it. So, they were sat in a back corner, low velvet banquette, candles flickering in small glass cups. The lighting was warm enough to be forgiving and golden enough for a few spontaneous photos. Which, of course, was the point. There were three strategically spaced âpap opportunitiesâ on the walk in. He was sure Cass had sent them a map.
Dean looked like heâd been poured into his black suit, the cut sharp across his shoulders, the tie just loose enough to feel like defiance. His white dress shirt was crisp, sleeves pushed up his forearms the way he always did once the food arrived, watch glinting just under the cuff. He sat back with a practiced ease that bordered on boredom, one hand cradling a glass of something red and overpriced. His other arm was draped low around her waist, not quite possessive, more like gravity had decided for him.
Across the table, Jess grinned over the rim of her wine glass. âYou know, for a fake couple, you two sit awfully close.â
His jaw ticked. âThis place doesnât believe in chairs that arenât bolted together.â
âYou could scoot over,â Sam said mildly, buttering a roll. âUnless youâre enjoying the view.â
She didnât even blink. âHe really is.â
She looked like trouble in gold. Her dress shimmered under every flicker of candlelight, clinging in a way that was half slink, half statement. The neckline dipped dangerously low, catching the eye like a whisper you werenât supposed to hear. Thin straps curved over bare shoulders, and the silk pooled around her hips like melted sunlight. She wore oversized earrings that glinted every time she turned her head, and her long hair was sleek behind one shoulder, the other left bare and glowing. Her smile was radiant and a little unbothered, she belonged in every room he hated.
Sam was nursing a scotch and trying not to smirk, his own blazer undone and his hair pushed back like the lawyer he'd been born to be. "This is wildly entertaining," he looked at the woman beside his brother. "I see why Cass pitched this."
âCass pitched it because weâre a publicistâs dream,â she said, tone light, but laced with something razor-sharp beneath the charm, all reserved for him. âDean broods, I sparkle. Weâve got the whole Beauty and the Existential Crisis package.â
Sam barked a laugh. Jess nearly choked on her drink.
Dean, to his credit, didnât even blink. He just muttered, âThis was a mistake,â and drank some wine, everything to get out of that conversation.
Sam sipped his drink and looked at Dean. âI like her,â he said mildly.
Dean didnât look up. âYeah, thatâs your problem.â
âYou always hated when I liked your girlfriends,â Sam went on, just to needle.
âSheâs not my...â Dean started, then stopped. There was no good way out of that sentence, and paparazzi were looking, better not test his luck. His date raised a brow, lips twitching into a private smile.
Jess, never one to miss an opening, leaned in with a grin. âDean, sweetheart,â she said, feigning shock, âare you finally learning the art of shutting up?â
He sighed, leaned back, and stared at the ceiling like it owed him an apology. âIâm learning survival.â
She tilted her head toward Jess, as if sharing a delicious secret. âThis is him being charming, by the way. Donât be fooled by the grimace. Thatâs just how his face rests.â
Jess giggled into her wine. âOh, I know. I married one with the same setting.â
Sam raised a hand. âHey, my face has never grimaced like his.â
Dean shot his brother a look. âYouâre literally a public defence attorney.â
âAnd yet somehow Iâm less terrifying at dinner,â Sam replied, then gestured to her. âMeanwhile, you brought someone who has half the room reconsidering their marriage vows.â
She beamed. âThank you.â
Dean groaned. âCan we eat now?â
Jess was already holding up her phone. âNot until I get a picture. The lightingâs great, and you two are actually within a foot of each other without one of you fake-coughing a slur.â
âNo,â Dean said immediately, voice flat.
âYes,â she said, ignoring him completely. âLean in.â
She didnât wait for permission, just shifted effortlessly, silk whispering across silk as she turned on the velvet banquette and rested her back on his chest, settling into him like it was second nature. The dress shimmered in the candlelight, all golden sheen and defiance, dipping low enough at the back to leave a trail of skin beneath his hand. Her arm curled around his shoulder, warm and confident, her manicured fingers brushing the base of his neck with casual intimacy. She smelled like vanilla and something sharper underneath, the kind of perfume that lingered in a car long after she was gone.
Dean froze, jaw locked, wine glass hovering mid-air like even it couldnât believe this was happening. His free hand automatically found her hip again, fingers flexing once, betraying the reflex before he could stop it. His suit jacket pulled tight across his chest. The table had never felt smaller. Or hotter.
âJess,â he ground out, barely moving his mouth. âIâm going to kill you.â
Jess just grinned, framing the shot. âYou'll have to deal with your brother on stand.â
âDonât be dramatic,â she said sweetly, adjusting her earrings as if she werenât almost perched on the lap of Hollywoodâs most reluctant heartthrob. âWeâre giving the people what they want.â
Sam sipped his drink and didnât even try to hide the smile curling his lips. âOh yeah,â he said dryly. âThisâll definitely boost the opening weekend numbers.â
She tilted her head toward Dean, just enough for the curve of her cheek to brush his temple. âSmile, darling,â she murmured, all teeth and triumph.
Dean didnât smile. But he did lean in, eyes on the camera, his arm tightening ever so slightly around her waist. When the shutter clicked, the photo looked effortless. Natural. Intimate in a way that made it feel like the whole world had been watching something they shouldnât. Click.
Sam whistled. âYou two fake it so well, I think Iâm catching feelings.â
"Dean, dare I say you look... affectionate?" Jess teased, squinting at the screen with a pleased grin. After fiften years being in a relationship with his brother, she was getting awfully comfortable with him. Dean really loved her. Not that he would say it out loud.
Dean let out a quiet, disbelieving snort. âThatâs just my face when Iâm being held hostage.â
Her smile sharpened. âHe looks like that because heâs grumpy, not emotionally unavailable. Itâs a fine line, but Iâve trained him.â Dean looked at her, disbelief written all over his face, his hand still resting on her waist like a promise. "Oh, don't give me that look. You know you're enjoying yourself, Winchester."
He muttered half-insult under his breath, something about "training" being for dogs (and he was not a dog!), detangling himself from her. He used the kind of exaggerated care that only made it more obvious he didn't want to move. His hand lingered for a second too long at her waist before sliding away, like his muscles hadn't caught up with his mood yet. Sam caught it. Of course he did. And he fucking winked at him, the bitch.
Jess winked too, they really spent all their time together, and went back to her risotto, clearly satisfied with the shot she had taken. She leaned in as the brothers veered into a surprisingly passionate argument about their fatherâs old storage unit in Kansas, something about a vintage rifle, a sealed box labeled âDONâT OPEN,â and a cursed-looking doll wrapped in flannel. âYou know theyâre both going to drive out there next weekend and pretend itâs not just an excuse to avoid talking about how they miss each other,â Jess murmured, her voice low and full of practiced fondness.
Her companion smirked, sipping her wine. âDeanâs already packed for it in his head.â
âMmhm.â Jess didnât look up. âAnd heâll claim itâs because he doesnât trust Sam not to break anything, but really he just doesnât want to be alone.â
She tilted her head thoughtfully, watching Dean gesture with his fork like it was a weapon. âHe hates silence.â
Jess paused. âHe used to. Now heâs gotten good at pretending it doesnât bother him. Youâre the first person Iâve seen throw off that balance after his divorce.â
She blinked. âIs that good?â
Jess gave her a look, dry and knowing. âItâs not bad. You get under his skin.â
"He is a good friend," she narrowed her eyes. "But don't tell him that, I'm not even sure he knows we're friends."
Jess set her fork down. "Oh, believe me. He knows. He's a good actor, don't get me wrong, but Dean doesn't fake well."
"I beg to disagree... on the good actor part"
The blonde woman let out a laugh. "He doesn't know how to fake like he's doing right now. He can put on a smile, go through the press junket motions, but this?â She nudged gently with her elbow. âThe way he listens when you talk. The way he doesnât snap at you the same way he does with everyone else. Thatâs not fake.â
She glanced away. âWeâre just good at this.â
âYeah, but youâre better than good at pretending. And heâs never been that good at lying.â
There was a moment of stillness between them, not heavy, but deliberate. The kind of silence Jess was an expert at creating. safe, not awkward. She gave people room to step into truth if they wanted.
So she did. Just a little. âI didnât think heâd even like me.â
Jess smiled. âThatâs because you think too much about who you used to be and not enough about who you are now.â
She didnât answer. Just looked over at Dean again, who was now gesturing wildly about how cursed the storage unit probably was, Sam trying and failing to rein him in.
âTheyâre really talking about driving twelve hours to open a haunted box?â she asked, a small smile on her face harboring just by looking at him. Yeah, she liked being his friend.
Jess didnât even blink. âWelcome to the family.â
And for the first time, this didnât feel like play pretend.
THE PARTY
The rooftop was the kind of place meant to distract you. Floor-to-ceiling glass. Sculptural ice. People in suits that cost as much as mortgages, holding flutes of champagne and pretending they werenât constantly scanning for someone more important. It was all curated elegance, low lighting, soft jazz, the quiet hum of too much money. And at the center of it all, Without Warningâs cast and crew were celebrating like they hadnât just clawed their way through PR hell for the last two months.
Dean lingered near the edge of it, back to the New York skyline, glass in hand, tie loosened just enough to say I showed up, donât push it. The jacket clung across his shoulders; he hadnât taken it off. It was black. Classic. Like him. He hated this kind of thing, the schmoozing, the performance, the bright-toothed executives who called you âbuddyâ after leaking your salary to the trades.
She, instead, was thriving. She played her part effortlessy, smiling at the cameras when needed, clinging glass with the most obnoxious upcoming actors, and promoting the movie before its release. He had to admit she fit into this life almost too well.
She wore red that night, danger red. Secret in silk.
High neck, no sleeves, the bodice hugging every inch like it had been painted on. The fabric shimmered with a constellation of tiny sequins, catching light with every shift of her hips. Her hair was slicked back in a low bun, elegant and severe, like she knew she was going to war and planned to win with one look. Dean had nearly choked on his drink when she first appeared next to him.
She found him near the edge, right where she figured heâd be, back turned to the crowd, face half-lit by city lights, like he was auditioning for the role of brooding rooftop gargoyle. The drink in his hand had barely been touched. His tie was loose, but everything else about him was pulled tight: his shoulders, his jaw, that vein in his neck that only appeared when he was ten seconds from telling someone to fuck off.
She stopped beside him, letting the hem of her dress brush his shoes like a challenge. âYou know youâre supposed to at least fake enjoying yourself,â she said, swirling the last of her champagne. âItâs a party, not a sentencing.â
Dean gave her a look, slow and unimpressed. âYou sure? Because it feels like community service.â
She grinned, tilting her head just enough for a drop of earring to catch the skyline glow. âMaybe if you smiled more, people would stop asking if Iâm your caretaker.â
Dean exhaled through his nose, not quite a laugh. âMaybe if you dressed less like a warning label, I wouldnât have to scowl so much. Scare people.â
âOh, honey,â she said, feigning sweetness, âI dress like this so you scowl. It's the only time you show emotion.â
He glanced down at her then, really looked, the sequins, the curve of her shoulder, the kind of self-assurance you didnât learn, you bled for. She was a goddamn inferno wrapped in couture.
âPretty cocky,â he muttered, sipping his drink, âyou're gonna make me think your outfitâs about me.â
âYouâre the one choking on your whiskey every time I walk past.â
Dean didnât answer right away. His eyes drifted back out to the skyline, the light glancing off the glass of his tumbler. Then he said, dry as ever, âIt is not my fault you cause a scene just by standing still."
She blinked. It wasnât quite a compliment. But it wasnât not one âYouâre flirting,â she said, suspicious. âYou never flirt.â
âIâm not flirting,â Dean said flatly.
âYou just accused me of being distracting.â
âThat wasnât flirting. That was an observation.â
âYou're confusing.â
Dean shrugged, barely lifting one shoulder. âItâs a good dress.â
She blinked again. Slower this time. âOkay, who the hell are you and what did you do with Dean Winchester?â
He finally looked at her, sideways. That quiet, unreadable smirk he reserved for the moments when he let something slip on purpose. âYou wore that thing to be seen,â he said. âIâm just seeing it.â
That one landed. Her stomach twisted, low and sharp. âCareful,â she murmured, voice dipping. âIf you keep talking like that, I might think you actually like me.â
He took another sip of his drink, eyes on hers. âWorse things have happened.â
She stared at him for a second too long. Then raised her glass and bumped it lightly against his. âTo worse things,â she said.
Their glasses clicked, soft, almost private in the swell of rooftop noise, and for a brief moment, the world around them blurred. She looked over the rim of her glass, and Dean couldnât tell if she was daring him or warning him. Maybe both.
He was about to say something else, nothing good, probably, when he noticed her expression shift. Not dramatically. Just the barest hardening at the edges. Her spine straightened. Her smile didnât drop, but it hollowed out just enough to feel practiced.
"I thought Cass said this wouldn't happen, that this was safe." Dean followed her gaze. The man was already halfway toward them.
Polished. Crisp. Probably born in a country club. His smile was the kind that wanted to be mistaken for charm but rang too cold, too smooth. His suit was navy silk, his shirt open just enough to say he had something to prove, and his eyes didnât leave her face for a second. Dean didnât know who he was. But he knew that look.
âWell,â the man said, with a voice like expensive bourbon and something oily underneath. âI was told the cast was glowing tonight, but no one mentioned how radiant you looked.â
She didnât flinch. Didnât move. But Dean could feel the shift in her body beside him, like a current tightening. Subtle. Tense. âDick,â she said, her voice smooth as ever, but just a shade cooler than before. âThey still let you into these things?â
Dean blinked. Dick?
The guy just smiled wider. âDonât worry, Iâm not here to cause trouble. Though I did have to come see it for myself. The new image.â His eyes flicked to Dean for half a second. âThe shiny new... co-star.â
âDean Winchester,â she said before Dick could say anything else. âYouâd know him if you watched movies not made for creeps.â
Dick let out a short laugh. âAh. Yes. The brooding one. Youâve got a type, donât you?â Deanâs brow ticked, but he stayed silent. Still measuring. Watching. Trying to figure out what exactly was happening here.
She stepped half a breath forward. âWeâre not doing this, Dick. Back off and go drink your shitty bourbon.â
âOh, relax,â he drawled. âIâm just saying hello. You donât have to get defensive.â Then, a little lower, a little closer. âItâs cute,â he just for her. âHow hard you try to convince them youâve moved on. But people donât forget. Not really. I know I donât.â He bit his lower lip and smiled wildly. Almost like a... crocodile. "And how can they forget? I could've posted the entire thing, given them more to look at, changed your life for good. I still have it somewhere, I think. If you ever need it for a role, you can count on me."
Her face didnât change. Not really. But Dean saw it. The tightness in her jaw. The flicker of something like nausea. The flicker of something like fear. She didnât blink, didnât move, but sheâd gone still in that quiet, coiled way people do when something inside them buckles.
Dean took one step forward. "Walk away," he said. Flat. Measured.
Dick barely spared him a glance. "This doesn't not concern you."
"It does now."
The air around them shifted. Dickâs eyes flicked over Deanâs frame, calculating. âRelax, friend. Iâm just having a conversation with an old... colleague.â
Dean tilted his head slightly. âI thought she told you to back off, didn't she?â
âShe doesnât have to. Iâve known her longer than youâve been relevant.â
Dean stepped closer. His voice was low, dangerous, steady as a trigger pull. âYou donât know her. You know who you could push around when she was nineteen and desperate and you had the power. But thatâs not who she is anymore. And Iâm not someone who lets shit like that slide.â
Dick huffed a laugh, a little too forced. âThis your guard dog phase?â
Dick raised his eyebrows, mock-wounded, but behind his facade, Dean saw it. The panic. âOh? Is this where the gruff hero punches the villain in the jaw for dramatic effect?â
âYouâve had your hello,â he said, calm, his voice flat and dangerously quiet. âNow fuck off.â
Dick lingered a second too long, then smiled again, all teeth and rot. âWell. Enjoy the afterglow.â He walked away into the noise and light and glitter like nothing had happened.
But she was still frozen.
Her jaw was tight, shoulders rigid. She hadnât breathed. Not really. Not fully. Her chest rose once, sharp and shallow, then again, her hands trembling now, one hovering over her stomach like she could hold something in. Her face was still composed, but her body betrayed her. Like she couldnât quite climb back inside herself.
Dean stepped closer. âHey,â he said, not a whisper, not a command, something gentler than both. His voice, stripped of sarcasm, of press performance, was a balm. âYouâre okay. I got you. You hear me?â
She nodded, but she couldnât speak. Her eyes stayed fixed on some invisible point just past him, like if she blinked sheâd unravel.
He reached out slowly and touched her hand, the one gripping her glass too tightly. Her fingers twitched, but didnât let go. âYouâre okay,â he said. âHeâs gone.â
She swallowed. Just once. And blinked, too slowly for his liking. She wasn't there with him anymore, not yet. Dean moved in another step, crowding her gently, carefully, like getting too close to a live wire. The glass in her hand trembled against her rings, and he could see her knuckles gone white from pressure.
âHe,â he said again, quieter now, âcan't do anything.â
Her lips parted, no sound. Just a breath that didnât go anywhere. Her lashes fluttered, but she still wasnât blinking right. Her whole body was locked like it had been flash-frozen, and the part that killed him was how used to it she clearly was. Like this was a state she knew too well, like sheâd learned to survive this kind of silence by living in it.
Dean reached up. Slowly. Fingers brushing along her jaw, just enough pressure to make contact. Not enough to startle. Just enough to call her back. His palm curved around her cheek, thumb ghosting along the line of her cheekbone. Her skin was ice-cold.
He leaned in slightly, tilting his head, trying to meet her eyes, really meet them. âLook at me,â he said, low and soft.
Her gaze slid to his face, barely. It wasnât enough. Not when she still wasnât breathing right.
So he did the only thing that felt real. The only thing that didnât feel like a performance. He kissed her. Not for anyone else. Not for cameras or stories or Cassâs PR daydreams. He kissed her because she needed to feel something that wasnât him. And because he needed her to come back.
His hand stayed on her cheek, holding her like she might drift off if he didnât. The other landed at her waist, grounding her. He didnât press too hard, didnât demand anything. Just leaned in, lips warm and sure, slow and steady, breathing her in like a promise.
And she kissed him back.
At first it was barely movement, the slack pull of someone unraveling, then it was more. A sudden inhale, like surfacing after drowning, her fingers fisting the lapel of his jacket like she wa grabbing on. Her lips moved with his, not rushed, not frantic, just real. Open. Raw. Full of something that felt almost too big to fit between them.
When he pulled back, just an inch, he kept his forehead against hers. His hand never left her face. Her eyes opened, slowly, finally. And there she was. With him. âWell,â she said, voice low and a little wrecked, âif that was your idea of CPR, I think Iâm going to need a second opinion.â
Dean huffed something that mightâve been a laugh, half relief, half disbelief.
She tilted her head, that old, dangerous smile finally tugging at the corner of her mouth. âYou always kiss like that, Winchester?â
He looked at her, eyes darker now. âOnly when it counts.â
Her smile lingered, quieter now. Grateful. Still sharp, but with an edge that curved inward. She touched his chest once, briefly. Thank you. âGood,â she murmured. âBecause I think I might need that again.â
THE CAR RIDE
The SUV's leather seats creaked softly under his movements, the city sliding past the tinted windows in streaks of gold and neon. Traffic hummed outside like white noise. Dean sat back on the passenger side, elbow resting on the edge of the window, one knee drawn up slightly. His tie was loose again, shirt collar unbuttoned. His jacket had been tossed somewhere between the rooftop and the curb. He didnât ask for it back.
She sat beside him, legs crossed, arms folded over her lap. Her red dress shimmered faintly in the low light. Her heels were off, tucked beside her like a white flag. Sheâd pulled her hair loose from the severe bun at the nape of her neck, and now it fell in lazy waves around her shoulders, like she was letting herself breathe again for the first time all night. He looked at her once, briefly. Then turned back toward the window.
She was the one who broke the silence. âYou kissed me.â
Dean didnât flinch. Didnât smile either. âYou needed grounding.â
A beat. Then she glanced sideways at him, chin tilted slightly. âIs that what weâre calling it now?â
He gave a low, amused exhale. âWould you prefer âemotionally strategic mouth rescueâ?â
She snorted, soft and sudden. âYouâre the worst.â
His mouth curved, not quite into a grin, but it was close. âYou say that a lot.â
âBecause itâs true.â
He glanced at her again. This time, he didnât look away. âYou okay?â The question was simple. But it hit in a way she hadnât expected.
She hesitated, then gave a small nod. âYeah. I think so.â Her voice dipped. âThanks to you.â
He didnât answer right away. Just studied her, quiet and unreadable. Then: âYou shouldnât have had to see him.â
âI didnât expect it.â Her nails tapped lightly on the edge of her clutch, fingers restless. âI thought I was... past all that.â
âYou are,â Dean said. Steady. Firm. âHeâs just a reminder. Doesnât mean he still gets to own the moment.â
She looked at him, really looked. âYou got that from one of your therapy podcasts, didnât you?â
He deadpanned, âNo, that one was from Sam.â
She smiled, warm and a little weary. âI liked your version better.â
They sat with it for a while, letting the road take them. Downtown lights blurred by. She leaned back into the seat, shoulder brushing his, head tilting slightly in his direction, not quite on his shoulder, but close. Close enough to matter.
âHey,â she said after a long pause, voice quiet, almost teasing. âSo if that kiss was just âgrounding,â does that mean I donât get another one?â
Dean looked at her then, turning fully, one arm resting along the back of the seat. His voice was low. âYou want another one?â
She pretended to think. âFor research purposes, sure.â
The car turned down a quieter street, buildings giving way to palm trees silhouetted against the sky. The hum of the tires softened. The interior glowed dimly, lit only by the occasional sweep of headlights from the street outside. A perfect little cocoon of leather and heat and unsaid things.
Dean had one arm stretched behind her, his fingers resting against the curve of her neck. His thumb brushed the spot just below her jaw, slow, thoughtless, like muscle memory, like he had done this countless times.
She hadnât moved away. If anything, sheâd leaned into it. Her eyes stayed on him, steady. And Dean, for all his gruffness, didnât look away. âYou sure?â he asked, low, rough.
âAbout which part?â she whispered, breath catching a little.
He tilted his head, just slightly. âYou said research.â
âI said maybe I want another kiss.â
âMaybe,â he echoed, voice all gravel and restraint.
She nodded. âFor science.â
The words barely cleared her lips before he kissed her again. Slower this time. No urgency, no crowd, no noise. Just the heavy, deliberate press of his mouth against hers. His hand slid down, fingertips brushing her collarbone, then lower, tracing the seam of her dress.
She arched just enough to meet him. Her fingers gripped the lapel of his jacket, pulling, grounding, something. It was the kind of kiss that pulled oxygen out of the air. The kind that made it easy to forget they were supposed to be faking this.
She gasped when his hand moved to her waist, thumb brushing over the place her dress cinched in. He kissed her deeper, firmer now, and she responded like sheâd been holding back for weeks. Maybe she had. Maybe they both had.
His teeth grazed her bottom lip, not rough, but enough to make her tremble. She tugged him closer, and he let her, shifting toward her until his body was angled against hers, all heat and intention. Her dress glittered in the low light, rising and falling with every sharp breath. He touched her like he was memorizing the way it moved.
âDean,â she breathed, more sound than word. His name sounded different in her mouth now. Not teasing. Not coy. Just real.
He rested his forehead against hers, their breath tangling in the air between them. âWe should stop.â
âShould we?â
He let out a breathless laugh. âProbably.â
Neither of them moved.
The car was still. The world around them moved on, quiet and unaware, but inside the SUV, the air had shifted.
His hand didnât move right away. Just stayed resting against her waist, thumb brushing soft, distracted circles into the side of her dress like his body was already thinking ahead of him. She felt it, not just the heat of his palm, but the focus in it. The restraint. Like he was holding himself back by a thread.
She pulled in a shallow breath. âDean,â she said again, quieter this time. That alone did it.
He kissed her one more time, slower, softer, and then his mouth slid to her jaw, her neck, barely grazing. His fingers moved downward, gliding over her thigh, slow and deliberate. He didnât rush. Didnât ask.
His touch ghosted over the hem of her dress. She opened her legs, just a little, and that was all the answer he needed.
His hand slipped beneath the fabric, warm against her bare skin. Her breath hitched, chest rising fast. When his fingers brushed over the heat between her legs, his breath caught too. No words. Just a low sound from the back of his throat, part reverence, part disbelief.
âYouâre soaked,â he murmured. She nodded, lips parted, eyes fixed on his. âIs that for me?â he asked, quieter now. Rougher.
She didnât answer with words. Just leaned in and kissed him again, teeth catching his lip, hands curling into his chest.
Dean exhaled hard and moved her panties aside, sliding his fingers through her heat, slow, deliberate, parting her carefully. He circled her with just the edge of his fingertip, teasing, savoring every shift of her breath, every twitch of her thighs.
She buried her face against his neck, breath catching on a whimper. Her hand clutched his arm, not to stop him, to ground herself.
âEasy,â he whispered. âIâve got you. I always got youâ an echo from earlier.
One finger slipped inside her, then another, slow and impossibly deep. Her back arched against the seat. He moved with precision, with care, fingers stroking, consuming her, curling just right, while his thumb circled her clit with maddening patience. The wet sounds of her arousal filled the car between their ragged breaths. She whimpered again, face flushed.
His fingers were inside her, slow and sure, but it wasnât about the movement. It was about her. The way her body opened for him like she remembered him, every shape of him, every rhythm, every hesitation. Like she trusted him to wreck her. He felt like he was burning from the inside out. Every time she gasped, his control slipped. Every time her hips rolled into his hand, he felt something in him break apart.
Dean watched her like he couldnât look away, like seeing her come apart under his hand was the only thing that made sense anymore.âThatâs it,â he murmured. âJust like that,â he kissed her brow. "Gimme your eyes."
His words were lethal. She turned to him, a pout on her mouth, eyes glassy with need. Her nails dug into his arm as she clenched around his fingers, hips jerking slightly as the tension broke. She came quietly but sharp, breath stuttering, body curling inward around the wave. Dean didnât stop right away, just eased her through it, slow and careful, his lips brushing her temple.
When she finally relaxed, he kissed the corner of her mouth. âYou okay?â he whispered.
She nodded slowly, still trying to breathe.
He pulled his hand back, gently, and smoothed her dress down without a word. Then he laced his fingers with hers, his dick straining pulsing, hurting in his pants from how badly he wanted her.
Neither of them spoke for a long moment.
Then she smiled, slow, shaky, wrecked in the best way. âFor science,â she whispered.
Dean grinned. âBest damn experiment Iâve ever run.â
THE PREMIERE
Dean was already three photos deep into what felt like a public execution by flash photography. The carpet beneath his shoes was blood-red, the lights above him surgical, and the press screamed his name like they wanted to eat him alive. He looked good, he knew that. The suit was custom, the black silk lapels catching just enough light to tell people someone had paid a disturbing amount of money to make him look effortless. But his shoulders were locked, and his jaw had been clenched so long it might never unlock.
She wasnât beside him. Hadnât been for three days.
Not since the kiss. Not since the car ride, not since he had seen a side of her he didn't ask for, but was now obsessed with. He hadnât stopped thinking about the way her hands had trembled when he touched her jaw. The way her breath had caught right before she kissed him back. The way something in him had stilled, gone quiet and sharp and scared.
And yeah, theyâd smiled through interviews, posted photos with cute captions, let the press speculate. But she hadnât answered his texts. Hadnât returned the call he hadnât even meant to leave. Just disappeared behind curated silence and Cassâ carefully rerouted talking points. He knew it had meant something. That kiss. Maybe not everything. But something. And sheâd treated it like a wardrobe malfunction, one that could be tucked away with enough lipstick and good lighting.
The reporter in front of him shouted, âDean, over the left shoulder!â and he did it. He moved, robot-smooth, face blank. Pretend youâre grateful, he thought. Pretend you want to be here.
Then a laugh. Sharp. Familiar.
He didnât have time to brace for impact. She came barreling toward him like a high-speed disaster in copper silk. The leg slit cut high up her thigh, the fabric clinging and then floating, her hair pulled back in a way that looked lazy but wasnât, not with that kind of precision. She was radiant, worse, she knew it, and she flung herself at him with a grin that burned too hot to be harmless.
âDean!â she said like she hadnât vanished for seventy-two hours. âMiss me?â
He caught her. Of course he did. One leg around his waist, one arm around his neck, like she had every right to wrap herself around the man sheâd been purposefully ignoring.
âYouâre unbelievable,â he said, voice low in her ear, almost swallowed by the crowd.
âYou love it.â
âI didnât know if you were even showing up tonight.â
She leaned back enough to look at him, still grinning for the cameras. She adjusted the collar of his shirt. âPlease. I wouldnât miss watching you suffer in formalwear.â
His hands gripped her tighter than necessary. âYou disappeared.â
âAnd yet, here I am. Letâs not make it weird in front of the paparazzi, Winchester.â
Reporters were already shouting. âTogether! Dean! Look here!â
âGive us a kiss!â
Dean bit the inside of his cheek. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âIâm adorable,â she said, adjusting her leg higher on his hip. âNow smile before your scowl melts the carpet.â
He gritted his teeth, smile nowhere in sight. âThree days, and this is what I get?â
She tilted her head. âDonât pout. Itâs bad for the brand.â
âYou think this is funny?â
âI think weâre in public. So unless you want to have a very candid conversation in front of every entertainment blog in the country...â
âSmile, Dean!â a reporter barked.
Dean turned to the cameras. Held her tighter. Smiled. The kind of smile that said everything was fine. The kind of smile that made him want to punch something.
She leaned in and kissed his cheek, dramatic, posed, clearly for the cameras. âStill mad at me?â she whispered against his jaw.
âAsk me again when weâre off the carpet.â
More shouting. âGive us one on the lips!â
She turned his face slowly, her eyes catching his like a challenge.
Deanâs breath hitched. âAre you seriously....â He wasn't kidding before, she really was unbelievable. His pulse stuttered. Not just because of the press shouting his name or the heat of the spotlights cooking his jacket to his back. No, this was her. Always her.
There was too much in his chest. That lingering, sour burn from the silence sheâd given him these past three days. The kiss they werenât talking about still echoing behind his ribs like something unfinished. The way her fingers curled just behind his ear now, coaxing his face toward hers like it was nothing. Like he wasnât still wrecked from the way sheâd kissed him last time.
His jaw flexed, stubborn habit. He didnât want to be angry, not really, but he was. Not because sheâd left him hanging in that damn hotel room, heart pounding and hands shaking like some teenager. But because now here she was, back like nothing happened, smiling for the cameras like she hadnât vanished right after heâd given her something real.
âJust let me, Deanâ she said sweetly, and then she kissed him.
It was quick, professional, a blink of heat, but her hand stayed on his chest a beat too long, her nails brushing fabric like a question she wasnât ready to ask. He didnât know if this was another game. Another PR move. Another way she kept her distance while pulling him in. But her hand on his jaw was warm. Her voice had been soft. And the way she was looking at him now? It felt too personal to be fake. And that pissed him off even more.
Because if she was faking it,he was in trouble.
And if she wasnât? He was in deeper.
When they pulled apart, the press lost their minds. Dean leaned in close, voice low, she removed her leg from his waist, looking forward. âYou donât get to kiss me and pretend weâre fine.â
Her smile didnât waver. But her voice, when it came, was quieter. âYou donât get to make it feel like that and expect me not to panic.â
âYou didnât call.â
âI didnât have anything to say.â
âYou kissed me like you meant it,â he said quietly. âAnd then vanished.â
She blinked, but the flashbulbs distracted her. She turned her face just enough to give the press a wide, flirtatious grin. âSmile,â she hissed through her teeth. âYouâre giving them tension when they paid for romance.â
Dean leaned in, jaw tight, lips close to her ear. âYouâre a real piece of work, you know that?â
âAnd yet youâre still holding me like this.â
Reporters shouted. âKiss her again! One for the fans!â
Dean barely looked at them. Instead, he looked at her, really looked, and something unspoken cracked under his ribs. She was hiding. From him. From whatever was spinning out between them. âYou okay?â he asked, quieter now.
She hesitated. For once, no ready smile. Just a flicker of something close to guilt. Or fear. He brushed a strand of hair from her cheek, his fingers grazing skin. âTalk to me.â
She opened her mouth, but one of the reporters called again, closer now: âJust one kiss, câmon! You two are killing us!â
Dean didnât look away from her. His hand cupped the back of her head, fingers sliding into the loosened bun sheâd twisted like an afterthought. âSmile pretty for the cameras,â he said. âThen weâre gonna talk. You and me.â
She swallowed, but nodded. The crowd leaned in. Dean kissed her this time. Gentle. Clean. But not empty.
And just before they broke apart, low enough only she could hear, he added, âYou hear me, baby?â
The world stilled for a long second. âCopy that,â she whispered back.
The moment they stepped off the carpet, the roar of the press dimmed to a dull throb behind the heavy velvet ropes and gold-rimmed doors of the theater lobby. Inside, it was cooler, barely, but enough that Dean could breathe again. He loosened the top button of his shirt, his pulse still caught in the cage of his ribs.
People milled around in tuxedos and gowns, glasses of champagne already being passed on silver trays, the soft murmur of producers and critics and overpaid influencers humming like bees in a gilded hive, waiting for the screening to start, to be awed or disappointed.
She walked three steps ahead of him, like none of it touched her. Not the kiss. Not the past three days. Not him. Dean caught up to her in three long strides and pulled her in a corner, shelded from prying eyes. They stood near the marble wall just before the main corridor into the auditorium, a sliver of quiet tucked between chatter and flash. Her hand hovered near the small gold clutch at her side, fingers flexing like they didnât know what to do now that they werenât curled into his collar. âHey,â he said, sharp, his fingers brushing her elbow.
She turned slightly, all cool poise and movie-star light. Her profile looked carved, her dress catching every gold-tinted reflection like it was part of the set. The slit swayed just enough when she stopped to remind him how close sheâd been only minutes ago, wrapped around him like she had a right to be there. âNow?â she asked, breathy, practiced. âYou wanna fight now?â
âI wanna talk,â he growled. âAnd every time I try, you disappear.â
She didnât flinch, but she didnât smile either. âThis is not the time...â
âThere hasnât been a time,â Dean cut in. His voice was low, steady, but threaded with frustration he couldnât hide anymore. âNot since the rooftop. Not since that kiss. You just disappeared."
"I didn't have anything to say"
He pointed a finger at her face. "Don't give me that bullshit." Her mouth opened, but he didnât give her the chance. Not yet. âI stayed up that night,â he went on. âI was... Christ, I was ready to pretend it didnât mean anything if thatâs what you needed. I wouldâve. But you didnât even give me that. Just silence.â
âI didnât mean to,â she said. âI just didnât know how to come back from that night.â She scoffed. "How am I to blame for that?"
Deanâs jaw flexed again, tired of how often it did. âYou kissed me.â
âYou kissed me,â she corrected, eyes flaring. âDonât rewrite that just because I ran.â
âI kissed you because I didnât know how else to get you to breathe again.â
âAnd then what?â she asked. âYou wanted a debrief? A full emotional rundown? I panicked, Dean. It wasnât about you.â
He paused. Then stepped a little closer. âBut it was.â
She blinked.
âI felt- feel it,â he said. âDonât lie to me. Not about that.â
She drew in a breath, the neckline of her dress rising and falling too fast. âI needed time.â
âYou donât get to need time after doing that. After looking at me like...â He cut himself off. Jaw tight. âYou donât get to vanish and then climb me on a red carpet like itâs your goddamn stage.â
âDonât yell at me,â she snapped, stepping closer. âDonât act like I havenât been spinning out too. I didnât know what it meant, Dean. I still donât.â
He laughed, bitter, biting. âYou didnât know? You kissed me like you wanted to undo my whole life.â
Silence. Sharp and dense and seething. She opened her mouth. Closed it. âIâm scared.â
Deanâs mouth parted, just slightly. His chest rose, shallow. âOf what?â
âOf you,â she said, soft but brutal. âOf how you look at me like you already know how this ends. Like youâll love me too hard or hate me too fast and I canât afford either.â His face changed. Not softened, he was too wound for that, but something in his shoulders gave. She went on. âI panicked. I didnât mean to disappear. I just... needed to not be seen. Not by you.â
He stepped in. Close enough that her perfume, warm, spicy, something expensive and devastating, hit him full in the chest. His voice dropped low, sharp. âToo late, baby. I already see you.â
Her lips parted. She blinked like she was trying to memorize the ceiling.
Dean lifted a hand to her face, slow, deliberate, and let his thumb trace the line of her cheek. It wasnât gentle, but it was careful. Like he was learning her expression by touch. âNext time you run, donât come back smiling for the cameras and pretending Iâm just another prop in your fairy tale.â
Her breath hitched. âDean...â
âBaby,â he said, and it wasnât soft. It was a warning. A plea. A promise. The word hung between them, thick with all the things they werenât saying.
She nodded once. Tight. Uncertain. âI wonât run next time.â
âGood,â he said, mouth barely moving. âBecause if you do, I wonât follow.â
The theater was velvet-dark and full of the kind of silence that only happens when a hundred people are trying not to breathe too loudly. The movie had just started, the sleek white-on-black title card of Without Warning stretching across the screen like a promise, but Dean wasnât watching the film.
Not really. He was watching her.
Out of the corner of his eye, in the low light from the screen, she looked carved out of firelight. Copper silk pooling around her crossed legs, one ankle arched delicately in those ridiculous heels. Her profile was pure composure, lips slightly parted, lashes casting shadows. Her expression didnât give anything away, not to the room, not to him. But he could see the tension in her shoulders, the set of her jaw. She wasnât just watching the movie either.
They were tucked into the very back row. A calculated move, Cassâ doing, probably âdiscreet, elegant, no press up hereâ but now, it felt like too much space and too much silence. The kiss on the carpet still lingered between them like heat in a room long after the fireâs gone out. Their fight still playing in their minds.
Deanâs hands were braced on his thighs, fists curled, eyes flicking toward the screen and then right back to her. And then, like a goddamn act of war, she placed her hand on his leg. Not high. Not anything scandalous. Just her palm, flat and warm, resting on the inside of his thigh, just above the knee.
Dean didnât move. His breath caught, not loud, but enough that his chest shifted, and the screen in front of him blurred for a second. He turned his head toward her slowly, eyebrows drawn. She didnât look at him. Didnât say anything. Her hand just stayed there, steady. Barely even pressing. But it was worse than anything she couldâve said.
He swallowed hard. His voice was low, close, not even a whisper. âWhat are you doing?â
Still, she didnât look. âYou looked like you needed grounding.â
âIs that what this is?â His tone was dark. But not cold.
Her thumb moved. Just a soft, small brush against the fabric of his suit pants. Not enough for anyone else to notice. Just enough for him. âI donât know what this is,â she murmured finally. âI just didnât want to sit here pretending I didnât want to touch you.â
Dean clenched his jaw. Looked straight ahead. On screen, their characters were yelling in some fake hotel room in Prague. His voice echoed from the speakers, rough, angry, different, but the real version of him sat frozen in his seat.
And all he could feel was her hand on his thigh, burning through every layer of his defenses.
Dean turned his head toward her again, slower this time. The light from the screen flickered across her face, painting her in flashes of blue, gold, shadow. She still hadnât looked at him, but her hand hadnât moved either. If anything, her fingers flexed slightly, like she was nervous, or bracing herself.
Her fingers tapped once, twice, lazy and slow, like she was drumming a secret rhythm only he could feel. Deanâs jaw flexed again, muscle ticking just beneath the surface. He shifted slightly in his seat, as if that would help. It didnât.
She leaned in, breath brushing his neck. âRelax,â she whispered, voice light, teasing, a smile hiding beneath every syllable. âYouâre wound so tight I can hear it from here.â
âYou think this is funny?â he muttered, still not looking at her.
She hummed. âA little.â
Then her thumb traced a slow, deliberate line over the seam of his pants. Casual. Dangerous. Deanâs entire body stilled. His grip on the armrest turned white-knuckled.
âI could move my hand,â she whispered again, lips dangerously close to his ear, âbut you havenât asked me to.â
Deanâs throat worked. His eyes flicked toward her, just once, catching the glint of copper at her shoulder, the spark of mischief in her lashes. âYou really wanna play this game here?â
âI didnât start anything.â Her voice was sugar and sin. âJust helping you focus.â
âOn what? Not dragging you into my lap?â
Her teeth grazed the edge of a grin. âThatâs up to you.â
He didnât speak. He shifted. Not away. Toward. His hand came down on top of hers, large and warm and too steady for how fast his pulse was hammering in his chest. He didnât grip. Didnât trap. Just covered it. Like an anchor. Like a promise.
Then he leaned in, mouth near her ear, voice low and thick enough to drag her under. âBaby,â he said, voice low and wrecked, âif you keep touching me like that, weâre not gonna make it to the credits.â
She didnât say anything, but he felt her tremble.
No teasing comeback, no smug little smile. Just silence. Her hand lingered for a second longer beneath his, then slowly slipped away. Dean fully turned toward her, confusion beginning to twist his brow, until she stood. Graceful. Composed. Dangerous.
She smoothed the hem of her dress, eyes still fixed on the screen like nothing had changed, and then, without a word, stepped past him and down the aisle, disappearing through the soft gold glow of the exit sign.
Dean didnât move. Couldnât.
She was walking away. And it wasnât a retreat. It was summoning.
The movie still played around him, loud, distant, fake. But she was real. That whisper of perfume trailing after her, the warmth of her hand still ghosting against his thigh, that was real. And suddenly, everything else felt cheap by comparison.
His pulse was in his throat.
She hadnât looked back. Because she didnât have to.
Dean stood. He didnât think. Just pushed up from the seat like gravity had shifted in her direction. His chest was tight, jaw tense, nerves wound so tight they couldâve snapped. But beneath all that anger still simmering from the red carpet, beneath the confusion and frustration and three days of silence, was something worse.
Need.
Need, coiled low in his spine, crackling down to his fingertips.
The second the theater door shut behind him, the rest of the world dropped away. He caught the tail end of her disappearing through the private bathroom door, the shimmer of her dress like a dare written in firelight.
He hesitated, barely. Not because he doubted her. But because this, this, was the moment everything would change. Then he moved.
Pushed open the door. Closed it behind him. Locked it. And there she was. Back to the wall, arms loose at her sides now, as if even pretending to play it cool had been too much effort. The light overhead caught the edge of her cheekbone, kissed the slope of her shoulder. She wasnât smiling. Not yet.
But she was waiting.
"You ran, again," he titled his head.
"I thought you said you wouldn't follow me this time."
Dean stepped forward, slow and deliberate, closing the distance between them one breath at a time. âI meant it.â She swallowed. âBut then you touched me,â he said, voice low, thick with something between anger and reverence. âSat there in the dark like your hand on my leg was an apology.â
She didnât answer. She couldnât.
Dean stopped just inches from her. His hand lifted, not to her face. Not to kiss her. But to curl around her waist, drawing her forward. His touch was possessive. Steady. No heat behind it yet, just weight. âI should kiss you,â he said. âI want to. God, I want to so bad, baby.â
Her breath caught, and her lashes lowered just slightly, anticipation, apology, maybe both. "You should, Winchester."
âBut Iâm not gonna,â he said.
Her gaze snapped back to his.
Deanâs eyes were dark, hungry, but hard. âYou donât get that yet.â
Her lips parted, to argue, to question, to beg, maybe, but he was already lowering himself to his knees. Her back hit the wall behind her with a faint thud. âDean...â
âYou ran,â he said again, fingers dragging slowly, deliberately up the slit of her dress. âYou left me wondering if I imagined that kiss. If it meant anything. If I was just another tool in your PR kit.â
âI wasnât...â
âYou were scared,â he cut her off, voice rough now. âI get it. But donât think Iâm gonna let you walk back in and pretend weâre fine without making you feel every goddamn second of what you did to me.â
Her hand found the edge of the counter behind her, anchoring herself. âThen why...â
He glanced up at her, gaze unwavering. âBecause I want you to remember who you ran from.â Her breath hitched, sharp and quiet.
His hands slid up her thighs, fingers slow and steady, parting the soft shimmer of copper silk until she was bared to him. No rush. No teasing. Just reverence in every touch.
âDean,â she whispered, but it wasnât a protest. It was a confession.
He didnât answer. Just pressed his mouth to the inside of her thigh. One slow kiss. Then another. Then a third, higher. His stubble scraped soft skin, and she flinched, not from pain, from need. âYou donât get my kiss,â he murmured, breath warm against her skin. âBut you still get my devotion.â
And then he touched his mouth to her pussy, gentle, steady, deliberate, and made sure she remembered exactly what it meant to be wanted by a man who hadnât stopped waiting, even when she left. She moaned, loud, sharp, echoing off the tile.
Dean didnât flinch. He wanted her loud. He wanted her wrecked. He wanted the whole damn building to know she belonged to him right now, not with a headline or a label or some paparazzi-friendly kiss, but with his mouth buried between her thighs, and her legs already starting to tremble.
âYeah,â he rasped against her skin, voice thick with heat. âThatâs it, baby. Donât hold back now.â
Her fingers tangled in his hair, desperate, trembling, not to guide, to hold on. Dean dragged his tongue through her slowly, deliberately, savoring every flick, every shift of her hips, every breathless curse she spilled when he found the spot that made her knees buckle.
âOh my God,â she choked out, loud and wrecked, one heel slipping off her foot.
He looked up at her, smirk curling against soaked skin. âSay my name again,â he growled. âLouder.â
She moaned, his name this time, drawn out, high and messy, her head tipping back to hit the wall. Her thighs clenched around his head, but he didnât slow down. He groaned into her, hands sliding up to grip her hips, dragging her forward to keep her exactly where he wanted her. âThatâs right,â he muttered, breath hot and ragged between strokes. âYou were running, and now youâre right here, falling apart on my tongue.â
Her breath stuttered.
Dean flattened his tongue and pressed deeper, curling it slow, curling it on purpose, the way he knew drove her to the edge. âYou like that?â he asked, voice low, mouth slick with her. âYou like me eating your pussy in a goddamn bathroom like itâs the only place I can touch you?â
She whimpered something that wasnât a word, hips rocking down into his face. That was answer enough. He smiled against her, wicked and warm. âYouâre soaked, baby. You were soaked when you touched me in the theater, werenât you?â
A broken sound clawed from her throat, a choked, desperate moan that sounded like guilt and need collided. Her thighs shook. Dean kissed the inside of one, just briefly, then went back in, harder now, rougher, two fingers sliding inside her without warning as his mouth moved against her clit, unrelenting.
Her body bowed. Her cry echoed off the tile. Dean didnât stop. Didnât slow. She was clenching around his fingers now, her hand slipping off the counter, the other clawing at his shoulder, and all he could think was God, sheâs mine when she falls apart like this.
âThatâs it,â he whispered, voice a rasp. âCome for me. I want it. I want every sound.â
And she did. Loud. Sharp. Raw. He bit her inner thigh.
Dean rose slowly, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, eyes locked on her like heâd just survived drowning. His lips were slick, his jaw tight, but his expression, his whole damn face, looked carved out of something that had waited too long to burn. She was still against the wall, breath hitching, knees barely holding. Her hand gripped the edge of the counter like she wasnât sure what was coming next.
"Open your mouth, baby," he cradled her face, gently squeezing her cheeks. She obeyed, breath rough, eyes glassy, still trembling. Dean sneered at the eagerness and spat into her mouth. He wanted her to feel what he felt, to have a taste of the honey he just devoured. "Swallow... yeah, just like that," he leaned even closer, her eyes fluttering, hoping that his lips would finally crash against hers. âTurn around.â
She blinked. Shaky. But didn't protest.
âNo questions now?â he murmured, dragging one hand down the curve of her hip, bunching her dress up again until it was around her waist. âNot gonna argue with me this time?â
She braced herself against the counter, chest rising. âNot when you sound like that.â
His laugh was quiet, dangerous. âSound like what?â
âLike youâre gonna ruin me.â
Dean pressed his chest against her back, his breath hot on her neck. âBaby,â he rasped, one hand moving to undo his belt, the other teasing between her thighs again, over her clit, just to feel how wet she still was, âI already did.â
She let out a breathless moan, hips pushing back into him. He groaned at the contact, his cock pressed hard and hot against her. âFeel that?â he muttered. âThatâs what you do to me. You disappear, you wreck me, and then you show up looking like sin wrapped in silk.â
She pushed back again. âThen do something about it.â
His hand slammed down on the counter beside hers. âYou think I wonât?â
âThink you need to.â
That broke him. Dean shoved his pants down just enough, lined himself up, and pushed into her in one smooth, deep thrust. Her mouth fell open, a strangled cry escaping her.
Deanâs grip on her hips tightened, bruising, grounding, like he didnât trust her not to disappear again. His thrusts were slow, but hard, dragging every inch of him through her like he meant to make her feel it for days. And when she moaned again, low, helpless, ruined, he nearly lost it.
âThatâs it,â he growled, voice thick and ragged. âLet me hear you.â
She gasped, her fingers curling over the counter, knuckles white. âDean... Holy shit, Jesus, fuck...â
He slammed into her harder, one hand sliding up her back, pinning her down with just the pressure of his palm between her shoulder blades. âNot Jesus, baby,â he muttered near her ear. âJust me.â
She moaned again, louder this time, and he felt it, in his chest, in his spine, in every clenched, wound-up part of him that hadnât breathed right since she left. âYou disappear for three days,â he bit out, thrusting again. âYou come back looking like a fantasy, and you think Iâm just gonna take it easy on you?â
âNo,â she whimpered, wrecked.
âDamn right you donât.â He reached around to grip her jaw, turning her face just enough that he could see her mouth fall open again when he drove deeper. âSay my name.â
âDeanâ
âAgain. Louder.â
âDean.â
He grinned, teeth bared, sweat at his temples, control unraveling. âYou like when I fuck you like this, donât you?â
âYes, oh shit, fuck, yesâ
âWhen I use you. Make you loud.â
She gasped through a half-sob of pleasure, head nodding, eyes fluttering closed. âYes, Dean, please...â
âPlease what?â he growled. âYou want more? Want me to ruin that perfect little voice for the afterparty?â
She gave a broken laugh, full of heat. âYou want them to hear me?â
Deanâs next thrust made her cry out, sharp and sudden. âIÂ want to hear you,â he said through gritted teeth. âI want your voice in my head when I try to sleep tonight. I want the whole damn room to know what you sound like when you give in.â
He reached around her again, hand sliding down between her legs, his fingers finding her slick, throbbing, desperate for more. âCome on, baby,â he whispered against her neck. âBe good. Fall apart for me.â
Her moans were ragged now, uneven, rising in pitch, her body struggling to keep pace with the way he moved inside her. Dean didnât let up. His grip never wavered, and his voice stayed right at her ear, wrecking her with every word. âYou feel that?â he growled. âEvery time you clench around me like that- thatâs yours, baby. You did that to me.â She tried to answer, but it came out as a gasp, her legs shaking. He smirked against her shoulder. âCanât even talk now, huh?â
She shook her head, breathless.
Dean reached up and fisted her hair, not to hurt, just to make her look. Her cheek turned toward the mirror above the sink, and he tilted his head low so their eyes met in the reflection. âThen donât talk,â he said. âJust watch.â
And she did. Watched him take her. Watched the way his jaw was clenched, the way his hand on her hip dug in like he couldnât bear to let go. Watched the wild, desperate look in his eyes, and realized it wasnât just lust. It was fear. It was anger. It was hers. Deanâs rhythm changed, hips slamming harder now, deeper. He leaned over her again, mouth just behind her ear. âYou better come for me again,â he whispered, low and furious. âYou donât get to run from this. You donât get to walk out of here pretending this doesnât own you.â
Her voice cracked. âIâm trying...â
âNo,â he growled. âDonât try. Give in.â
His hand slipped between her thighs again, his fingers relentless, and she shattered, again, right there against the counter, her body wracked with the kind of moan that didnât sound polite or pretty or posed. It sounded like surrender.
Dean didnât stop moving. Not right away. He buried himself inside her one last time, deep and aching, claiming her with his breath stuttering as he held there, unmoving, pressed to her back like maybe he could crawl under her skin and live there forever.
She was shaking beneath him, breathless and open, her forehead against the mirror, eyes shut tight like if she didnât see it, maybe it wouldnât undo her.
Dean moved slowly, his breath ghosting across the back of her neck. Then, carefully, he pulled out, shifting her body in his hands. One arm came around her middle, the other rose to her jaw, gentle now, fingertips brushing her cheek like she might break if he touched her too fast. He pushed in again, fucking back his cum inside of her. She gasped. âGive me your eyes,â he murmured.
She opened her eyes, wrecked, glassy, still dazed, and he turned her face toward him, steadying her hips, keeping her close, keeping himself inside her. She gasped from the sensitivity, a whimper curling at the back of her throat, and he caught it, not with dominance this time, but with his mouth.
Dean kissed her.
He kissed her like heâd been waiting to. Like heâd meant to do it three days ago and had never stopped thinking about it since. His hand cradled her face, thumb brushing her cheekbone as his lips moved over hers, slow, deep, nothing performative.
And he was still inside her. She moaned into his mouth, soft and ruined, like the kiss was the thing that finally broke her open, not the force, not the fight, but this, the part heâd held back.
Dean didnât rush it. He didnât let go.
When they finally parted, his forehead rested against hers. His breath was ragged, his voice quieter now, but not soft. âI donât care if youâre scared,â he whispered. âJust donât lie to me about this.â
She blinked, still breathless, still trying to remember what language was, her lips swollen from the kiss, her mind nothing but static and him. Her fingers curled into his shoulders for balance, not that he was letting her go anywhere. He was still inside her. Still holding her like she was his.
She was floating. He was glaring.
Her eyes flicked up, a lazy grin pulling at the corner of her mouth. âDefine âthis.ââ
Dean narrowed his eyes. âYou really wanna get cute right now?â
She tilted her head, breath still shaky. âItâs either that or cry, so...â
He cut her off with another kiss. Quick. Sharp. Punishing in the way it said, donât you dare deflect. When he pulled back, her smile was softer. But she was still her. âIâm not lying,â she whispered, brushing a lock of his hair back with shaky fingers. âI told you, I just⊠panicked. You kissed me like a man with intentions.â
His brow lifted. âAnd you ran like a woman who thought I was gonna propose.â
She snorted, head tipping back with a quiet laugh. âYou do have that âletâs settle down and get a dogâ energy sometimes.â
Dean gave her a flat look. âYouâre literally still wrapped around me.â
âAnd yet youâre the one who keeps talking about feelings,â she shot back, but her voice didnât have teeth anymore. Just tension easing, cracking open.
He leaned forward again, nuzzling the side of her jaw. âI meant it." She went still. âAll of it,â he said. âThat kiss. This. You.â
For a second, she didnât speak. Just let her forehead touch his again. Her hand found the back of his neck. âOkay,â she said softly.
âOkay, like you believe me?â he asked.
âOkay likeâŠâ Her smile returned, smaller this time. Real. â...youâre gonna have to remind me again later. For research.â
Dean groaned into her skin. âYouâre lucky I like you.â
She grinned against his cheek. âIâm adorable. You said so on Good Morning America.â
âYouâre insufferable,â he muttered.
She kissed his jaw. âAnd youâre still inside me, so what does that make you?â
âExhausted,â Dean grumbled, but his arms tightened around her. âAnd probably in trouble.â
THE AFTERMATH (bonus scene)
Dean reached for the door handle with all the focus of a man preparing for battle. His hair was a mess, his shirt still slightly untucked despite his best effort, and his face had that flushed, post-sin glow he wasnât quite ready to explain to anyone.
âThe movieâs almost done,â he muttered.
From behind him, her hands slid around his waist, fingers curling at his stomach, and he could feel her smile before she even said anything. âOne more,â she whispered, lips brushing the back of his neck.
âBaby, you said that five kisses ago.â
âThis oneâs for luck.â
He exhaled. Let her turn him around. Let her kiss him again, slow and wicked, like she was trying to short-circuit his motor functions.
âYouâre evil,â he said against her mouth.
âIâm charming.â
Dean pulled back, breathless. âWeâre going to get caught.â
âMm, no. Weâre going to look very composed and extremely fashionable.â She tugged him back by the lapel. âAfter one more.â
Dean melted into it for a second, just a second, before groaning into her mouth and spinning back toward the door. âOkay. That was it. That was the last one.â
She leaned against his back, cheek to his shoulder. âUnless you want to...â She held his hand, pulling on it, trying to lure him back.
Dean reached for the handle, still half-distracted by the feel of her hand slipping into his, warm and casual. He opened the door... and immediately froze.
Just outside, two figures were locked in a kiss of their own, very much not staged, very much not subtle. Castiel Novak, ever the stoic publicist, had his hand braced against the wall, mouth tangled with Meg Masters, their infamously brash co-star and his long-term girlfriend.
Dean blinked. She blinked harder.
Cass and Meg broke apart like theyâd been hit with a bucket of cold water. Cass took a step back, adjusting his blazer with military precision, face already smoothing into faux-calm professionalism. Meg looked entirely unrepentant, wiping at her lipstick with the back of her hand, eyes gleaming with amusement.
"Dean, hi, buddy"
He held one hand up. "Donât⊠just- just shut up."
His woman laughed. "Hi Meg."
Meg grinned, utterly unfazed. âHey, sweetheart. Sounded like you had a religious experience in there.â
Dean groaned. âNope. Nope. We are not doing this.â
Cass cleared his throat, clearly trying to pretend he hadnât just been caught with his tongue down Megâs throat outside a private bathroom where one of his longest friends had had the experience of a lifetime. âWe were... uh...just making sure everything was⊠secure.â
âUh-huh,â she said, biting her bottom lip to suppress another laugh, then leaned into Deanâs side, smoothing a hand down the front of his jacket like she was helping. She wasnât. She was just trying to make him squirm. âVery thorough security check, Cass.â
Dean gave her a sideways look. âYouâre enjoying this way too much.â
âYeah, well,â she said, glancing between the two very guilty parties. âYou think they heard the part where you called me baby, or just the part where I begged you not to stop?â
Meg looked over at Deanâs girl with a grin. âIâve been trying to get him to talk dirty for three years, and you guys get that in fifteen minutes of wall-thumping.â
Cass, looking like he wanted to be killed on the spot, cleared his throat and adjusted his hair. âI wasnât... That wasnât...â
âOh, come on,â Meg said to her, eyes gleaming, still ranting about her boyfriend. âHe doesnât talk like that. He talks like a legal deposition.â
âMaybe he can learn something from this guy," she winked. "He did a pretty solid job in there." Dean groaned out of embarassment.
Cass turned visibly pink. âWe were simply....â
âOh, we saw what you were simply doing,â she cut in.
âMost of the hallway heard what you were doing.â
She burst out laughing, leaning into Deanâs side like her knees might give out. Dean rolled is eyes, dragging a hand down his face. âI hate all of this,â he muttered.
Meg shrugged, still wiping at her lipstick. âHey, you started it. Next time, maybe keep the spiritual awakenings to a whisper.â
Deanâs girl lifted her hand like she was swearing into court. âNo promises.â
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Beneath the Bruises - Dean Winchester x Reader Oneshot
1.2k words
After a brutal hunt leaves both you and Dean battered and bloodied, the unspoken tension that's always simmered between you finally boils over in the quiet of a cheap motel room. As Dean tends to your wounds, years of repressed feelings surface, and vulnerability cracks through his usual bravado. For once, it's not the monsters that are scariest - it's the truth between you. Do you take the risk, or keep pretending it doesn't matter?
Dean Winchester x Reader
Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Angst, Pre-Romance
The hunt had been brutal. What should have been a simple salt-and-burn had spiraled into an all-out brawl with a vengeful spirit that refused to go quietly. The salt had barely settled before the spirit was back on you and Dean, thrashing and screaming in a rage. Bruised bloomed across your arms, and Dean wasnât much better - his lip split, dried blood crusting at the corner of his mouth. Youâd both seen worse, but this felt different. The weight of the fight lingered long after it was over.
Back at the motel, the air was thick with exhaustion and something unspoken. Dean sat on the edge of the bed, his elbows resting on his knees, his hands running through his hair in a slow, frustrated rhythm. The exhaustion of the night settled into his bones, and he let out a sharp exhale. He didnât even look at you as he spoke, his voice heavy with fatigue.
âHowâs the shoulder?â His eyes flickered over to you, but there was something unreadable in his gaze. Something that made your heart race, but you couldnât quite place it.
You winced as you moved to take your flannel off. The bloodstained fabric had stuck to your skin, and you could feel it tug painfully as you tried to peel it away. The movement was a sharp reminder of how badly youâd been hurt in the brawl, but you didnât want to show it. Didnât want to give him the satisfaction of worrying. Still, when you finally slipped out of the shirt and sat down on the bed in just your tank top and jeans, you couldnât stop the slight tremor in your hands. You looked at Dean, his eyes now locked on you, but you couldnât read the look in them.
Tears began to form, and you cursed yourself for feeling so vulnerable.
Dean noticed immediately. His brow furrowed as he stood up and walked over, his steps slow, deliberate, as if afraid you might pull away.
âLet me see,â he said, his voice softer than usual, laced with concern. There was no hesitation in his actions now, but there was a caution - like he wasnât sure whether you would let him close. His fingers hovered over your shoulder, just a hair away from touching you.
You sighed, too tired to argue. âFine,â you muttered, your voice barely above a whisper. You let him help you, almost afraid to move on your own, unsure of whether you could handle it.
Deanâs touch was gentle, his hands cautious as he carefully eased your shirt from your skin. When he saw the bruise forming along your shoulder and the jagged cut trailing down your arm, he sucked in a breath, his jaw tightening. He didnât say anything for a moment, his fingers trembling slightly as he touched the worst of it. Then, under his breath, he muttered, âYou shouldâve told me it was this bad.â
You rolled your eyes, trying to keep the humor in your voice. âWell, I didnât exactly have time to fill out a damage report, what with all the slicing of vampire heads.â You chuckled weakly, grateful for the relief that came with getting the shirt off. It was almost like you could breathe easier now.
Dean let out a half-chuckle, half-sigh, his fingers now carefully dabbing antiseptic onto a cotton pad. âYeah, well, maybe next time, you let me take a few more of those vamps so you donât end up lookinâ like roadkill.â His voice softened as he gently pressed the cotton to your wound, his eyes not meeting yours as his fingers brushed against your skin.
You turned your head to the side, your hair spilling over your shoulder to keep it out of his way. You couldnât look at him, ot when his touch was making your heart beat faster in a way that you hadnât expected. You werenât sure if it was the exhaustion, the adrenaline, or something else entirely, but having him this close⊠it made everything feel too much.
He paused, his breath hitching. âYou scared me, yâknow,â he said, his voice a little rougher now.
You didnât want to hear it. You couldnât. You needed the distance, needed to keep it all professional. You tried to make light of it. âWhy? Afraid of a girl who can take a few hits?â you joked, the words coming out flat despite your best efforts to laugh.
Dean didnât laugh. Instead, he huffed out a breath, shaking his head, his hands moving with surprising gentleness as he pressed a new bandage to your shoulder. âNah, sweetheart,â he said, his voice dropping lower, âIâm afraid of losing you.â
His words hung in the air, thick with meaning. His gaze flickered up to meet yours, and you caught the vulnerability in his eyes. Something that wasnât quite fear, but something just as raw. âYou think I like watchinâ you get torn up on a hunt? Like it doesnât kill me every damn time?â His voice was quiet now, but the weight of it pressed down on you. He didnât even try to hid the emotion, and that made everything harder.
You swallowed hard, trying to keep it together, but the teasers were already threatening. âDean,â you started, your voice shaking slightly, âhow many hunts have we been on now? And how many times have I - or even you - come back with a scrape or two? I can handle myself. I promise.â
Deanâs face softened, but there was still a hardness in his jaw. He sighed, running a hand through his hair before resting it on his knee. âI know you can handle yourself,â he said, frustration lacing his tone. âThatâs not the damn point.â He looked away for a moment, gathering his thoughts. Then, slowly, he met your gaze again. âThe point is, every time you get hurt, it reminds me how close I am to losing you. And that -â He exhaled sharply. âThat scares the hell out of me.â
His fingers twitched like he wanted to reach for you, but he stopped himself. âYouâre not just some hunting partner to me. You never were.â
You swallowed again, your bottom lip trembling. âYou arenât eitherâŠâ you whispered, barely loud enough for him to hear. And it was true. Youâd been hunting together for years now, since you were kids, dragged along by his dead to either watch Sammy or deal with the monsters. It had always been more than just a job. More than just a partnership. But the thought of changing anything⊠of letting it shift into something else, something deeper - it terrified you.
You bit your lip and shook your head âBut⊠but we canât let things change because of this one hunt, right?â you said, voice barely a whisper. âIf we do, weâre just going to get hurt again, and again.â
Deanâs jaw clenched, his fist tightening on his knee. He let out a sharp breath. âYeah? And what, ignoring it hasnât been hurting us already?â His voice was rough, the rawness of his words shaking you. His eyes burned into you as he looked at you, his green gaze darker than it should have been. âWe keep walking away from this - hell, weâve been running away from it for years. And every damn time, we end up right back here.â He shook his head, a mixture of frustration and longing in his expression. âSo tell me, whatâs worse - risking what we have, or pretending like none of this matters?â
You didnât have an answer. Not yet. And maybe you never would. But for the first time, you wondered if youâd been running from something that was already there.
This Time, Stay - Dean Winchester x Reader SMUT - MDNI
MDNI
1.7k words
You were done waiting. Years of emotional whiplash and unspoken tension with Dean had finally reached a breaking point. But just when you're ready to walk out for good, Dean stops you - with words you never thought you'd hear and a promise he's never been brave enough to make. What begins with anger and heartbreak ends in confession, forgiveness... and one hell of a night.
Angst, Smut, Emotional Confession
MDNI!!!
Dean stood in the doorway, arms crossed, watching as you shoved clothes into your duffel bag with quick, sharp movements. Each zip of fabric against fabric sounded louder than the last, like a countdown. His stomach twisted, a sinking weight settling deep in his chest. Heâd seen people leave before. He was used to it. But not you. Never you.
âCâmon, donât do this,â he said, voice rough, hesitant - like he already knew it wouldnât be enough.
You didnât pause. You just kept packing, jaw tight, eyes fixed on the wall behind him. âYou donât get to ask me that,â you snapped, zipping the bag up with finality. âNot after everything. Not after all the times you pushed me away like I didnât matter - like what we have doesnât matter.â
Dean exhaled sharply, raking a hand down his face. The urge to argue rose in his throat, but he couldnât find the words. He wanted to tell you that you did matter - more than he could explain - but he knew better than anyone that actions spoke louder than words. And his had been screaming the wrong things for far too long.
âWhere the hell are you even gonna go?â he asked, trying to keep his voice steady.
âAnywhere but here,â you said as you slung the bag over your shoulder. âI canât keep waiting for you to figure out what you want. I deserve better than that.â
The words hit harder than any punch heâd ever taken in his life. He took a step forward, heart pounding.
âYou really think I donât know that?â he asked, desperation creeping into his tone. âI know you shouldâve walked away a long time ago. But I also know that I-â He stopped, jaw locking tight as he shook his head, overwhelmed by the weight of everything he never said.
You stared at him, waiting, hoping. But silence settled in the space between you like a verdict.
âThatâs what I thought,â you whispered.
You started to move past him, but Dean reached out, his hand catching your wrist - not tight, not forceful, just enough to make you stop. Just enough to make you turn around.
âI love you,â he said, the words tumbling out like theyâd been trying to claw their way out for years. âI love you, okay? And yeah, maybe Iâm a damn coward for not saying it sooner, but I canât -â He broke off, shaking his head like he couldnât breathe. âI canât watch you walk away. I wonât.â
His eyes, usually so guarded, were raw now. Open in a way youâd never seen. It hit you then - Dean Winchester wasnât afraid of monsters. He was afraid of this. Of you. Of losing something that actually meant something.
âI donât know, Dean,â you said quietly. âYou donât know the torture Iâve been through - seeing you bring girl after girl into motel rooms, or back to the bunker, acting like none of it mattered. Or that year you were with Lisa and Ben while Sam was in literal Hell.â You dropped your bag with a heavy thud, hands curling into fists at your sides. âYou canât tell me you love me now, after knowing how I felt all this time. Why now? Why not years ago? I just⊠I want to be wanted, Dean.â
Dean flinched, your words landing like a physical blow. He looked away, guilt carved deep into every line of his face.
âI know I donât get to just say a few words and make all of that go away,â he said. âAnd I sure as hell donât deserve a second chance. But donât you get it? Thatâs why I never said anything. Because you do matter to me. So much it scared the hell out of me.â
He laughed bitterly. âEverything I love gets taken away. Everything I care about, the universe turns into a weapon. Wanting you - loving you - felt like begging for another target on my back. But thatâs no excuse. Not anymore.â
He stepped forward, voice softer now. âIf you need me to prove it, I will. Iâll fight for this. Iâll fight for you. I just⊠I need to know thereâs still a chance.â
You searched his face for lies, for any trace of manipulation. âYouâre not just saying this to keep me here, are you?â you asked, barely above a whisper.
âNo,â Dean said without hesitation. He held your gaze, steady and sure. âThis isnât a trick. I mean it. I want you. And Iâll spend the rest of my life proving that - if you let me.â
You felt the walls around your heart soften, just a little. âJust because Iâm not leaving doesnât mean I forgive you.â
Dean nodded, that tiny flicker of hope brightening his eyes. âYeah. I get it. I just need the chance to make it right.â
He reached out, his fingers brushing against yours like he was asking permission to be close again. âSo⊠what now?â
You smiled faintly. âWell⊠if I were you, Iâd probably kiss me right now.â
Dean huffed a laugh and didnât waste another second. His hands slid to your waist, and then his lips were on yours - not rough, not desperate - just right. Steady. Real. Like he finally knew what he wanted.
When he pulled back, his forehead rested against yours. âDamn. Shouldâve done that a long time ago.â
âYeah, no shit, Sherlock.â
âAlright, smartass,â he muttered with a smirk. âGuess I deserved that one.â
He looked at your, something serious blooming behind his grin. âSo, uh⊠where do we go from here?â
You raised an eyebrow, your smile taking on a more wicked curve. âThe bedroom?â
Dean blinked, then chuckled low in his throat. âDamn, sweetheart, you donât waste any time, do you?â
His hands tightened at your hips as he tugged you closer, lips brushing your ear. âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted this.â
You shivered, his voice and touch igniting something hot and electric beneath your skin.
You shivered, his voice and touch igniting something hot and electric beneath your skin.
âThen show me,â you murmured.
He didnât need to be told twice.
You barely made it down the hall before his mouth was on yours againâhungrier, rougher this time. Dean kissed you like a man starved, all the years of tension unraveling in the space between heartbeats. His hands were everywhere - gripping your waist, threading through your hair, tugging you flush against him like he couldnât stand even an inch of distance.
You gasped into his mouth as he walked you backward, guiding you down the hall like muscle memory, like heâd dreamed about this exact moment so many times that he didnât even have to think. And maybe he had.
By the time your knees hit the edge of the bed, your shirt was on the floor, and his mouth had made a slow, maddening trail down your neck. He lowered you onto the mattress with a careful kind of reverence, like he was still afraid youâd disappear.
âStill sure about this?â he asked, voice low and gravelly, hovering above you, his eyes searching yours one last time.
You reached up and curled your fingers into his shirt. âDean. Iâm already naked from the waist up.â
He smirked, dipping his head to your chest. âYeah, just checking.â
He made quick work of the rest of your clothes, tossing them aside carelessly as his own followed. You took a second to drink him in - broad shoulders, firm muscles, a few scattered scars that you suddenly ached to know the stories behind - not that you didnât know them already.
Then his mouth was on your skin again, warm and purposeful - kissing, licking, biting just enough to make you gasp. He took his time like he had something to prove. Maybe he did.
His hands were strong but patient, sliding between your thighs, teasing with slow, torturous precision. You bucked up against his touch, shameless now, needy in a way you hadnât let yourself be around him before.
âDean - please,â you whimpered, nails digging into his shoulders.
âSay what you want, sweethearts,â he murmured against the inside of your thigh, his voice dark and amused. âIâm listening.â
âYou. I want you.â
That was all it took. In the next breath, he was kissing you again, rough and hungry, lining himself up with a low, satisfied growl. And when he finally pushed into you - slow, deep, stretching you just right - you both let out the kind of sound that belonged behind locked doors.
âFuck,â he groaned into your neck, holding still for a second like he was overwhelmed by just being inside you. âYou feel like a goddamn dream.â
You moaned his name as he began to move, every thrust hitting deep, sending sparks racing up your spine. He was relentless - rolling his hips like he knew exactly how to ruin you and was determined to do it slowly.
One of his hands tangled in yours above your head. The other dragged down your body, gripping your thigh and hitching it higher around his waist, changing the angle just enough to make your vision blur.
âLook at me,â he rasped. âWanna see you fall apart for me.â
You did. Over and over, until your moans echoed off the bunker walls, until his name was the only thing you could remember how to say. Until your whole world narrowed down to the slide of his body against yours and the filthy promises he whispered into your ear between kisses.
And when he came - hard, deep, with a guttural sound that shook something inside you - he held you like he never wanted to let go. Like maybe now that heâd finally said the words, finally touched you like this, he couldnât let go.
The room was quiet afterward, just the sound of your breathing, tangled sheets, slick skin, and the soft creak of the bed beneath you.
Dean brushed damp hair from your forehead and kissed your temple, his voice quieter now, but still thick with emotion.
âI told you,â he murmured, curling around you. âIâm not letting you go.â
You closed your eyes, finally warm, finally safe.
âGood,â you whispered back. âIâm not going anywhere.â
The night was quiet, save for the low hum of the Impala's engine idling in the background. Dean Winchester leaned against the hood, arms crossed, his eyes lost in the distance. A flicker of neon from a nearby gas station cast long shadows across his face, but it didn't hide the tension in his features. He exhaled a long, drawn-out sigh, his jaw tightening as if the weight of the world rested on his shoulders.
You stood a few feet away, watching him carefully, knowing this conversation was coming. The conversation you both had avoided for far too long. When Dean finally turned to face you, his gaze was heavy, laced with something deeper than just concern. He was torn - he always had been when it came to you.
"You really want to do this right now?" he asked, his voice low, rough, like he had rehearsed this moment a hundred times in his head and still didn't have the right words. "You know how this ends. Hell, you've seen it just as much as I have. This life? It chews people up and spits 'em out. You deserve better than that. Better than me."
His words stung, but you couldn't back down. Not now. Not when you had already made your decision.
"I didn't choose this life, Dean," you said, your voice steady despite the rising lump in your throat. "When my mom dropped me off at Bobby's when I was nine, when I met you and Sammy - hell, even your dad - this life kept dragging me along. I didn't have a choice. And I didn't choose to fall in love with you either. It just... happened."
Dean's eyes flickered, and for a moment, there was a softness in them - a vulnerability you rarely saw. He shifted his weight, hands clenching into fists, as if trying to hold back the flood of emotions threatening to spill over.
"Yeah, I know," he muttered, his voice quieter now, a little more broken. He turned away, pacing a few steps before running a hand through his hair. "You think I don't want this? That I don't lie awake at night, wishing things were different? That I don't picture some world where I can just -" He stopped himself, his breath catching. "Where I can just be with you?"
The words hung in the air, a confession that felt heavier than anything else he had ever said. But then, just like that, the walls slammed back up. Dean shook his head, swallowing the emotions that threatened to break him.
"But that's not our world," he continued, his voice rough, every word carrying the weight of years spent pushing people away. "It never has been." His eyes met yours again, but this time, there was something in them that wasn't just pain - it was fear. "And the thought of losing you? Watching you get hurt because of me? I -" He cut himself off, his voice cracking for the briefest second. "I wouldn't survive that."
A tear slipped down your cheek, but you quickly wiped it away, not wanting him to see how much his words hurt. "So because of that, you think it's okay to sleep with anyone you want and leave me sitting here, waiting for you to figure it out? It doesn't make sense, Dean."
Dean flinched, like your words struck a chord deeper than any knife ever could. He opened his mouth to say something, but nothing came out. After a long silence, he finally spoke, his voice small but firm.
"It's not like that," he said quietly. "You think any of that means something? That it's real?" He scoffed, shaking his head as if trying to convince himself as much as you. "It's just... easy. No strings. No risk."
But then he looked at you again, and the guilt in his eyes was undeniable. "But you? You're real," he whispered, taking a small step forward. "You're the one thing in my life that actually makes sense." His voice wavered, but he tried to regain his composure. "And that scares the hell out of me."
You stared at him, your heart breaking as you realized just how deeply he was hurting. "I'm already hurt because of you," you said, your voice rising as the frustration boiled over. "I want to be the girl you want all the time. But we're both stuck here - watching time slip away, and you won't even try. What's the difference? We all have an expiration date, Dean. How is this any different?"
For a moment, Dean was speechless. His eyes searched yours, like he was seeing you for the first time - not the tough, independent woman he always thought he knew, but someone who was just as scared, just as vulnerable.
"You already are," he murmured, the words barely escaping his lips. "You're the person I want. You've always been."
The confession hit you like a freight train, and for a moment, you were both lost in it. The space between you both was closing, but Dean didn't move closer. He was afraid to. Afraid that if he did, it would all fall apart. He shook his head, eyes dropping to the ground.
"We all got expiration dates," he muttered. "But mine's got a countdown. And you know it."
He ran a hand through his hair, his fingers trembling a bit as he tried to fight the urge to reach out to you. "I don't know how to do this," he admitted, his voice cracking. "I don't know how to love someone and not lose them But if you keep looking at me like that... I don't think I can walk away."
Your heart pounded in your chest, the words hanging in the air between you both, and for the first time, it felt like he was finally seeing you - really seeing you.
"I've always been here, Dean. You can't say you haven't let me in, because I already know everything there is to know about you," you said, stepping closer to him, your voice trembling with every word. "I know you're scared. I know you've lost people. But we both know what it's like to lose people we love and still keep going. You're not the only one who's been broken by this life."
You forced yourself to meet his gaze, willing him to see past the walls he'd built around himself. "Just one kiss, Dean. That's all I'm asking for. If you still feel the same way after that, I'll never bring it up again."
He froze. His breath caught in his throat, his eyes darkening as he looked at you. For a moment, he thought about turning away, about telling you no, about protecting you from the inevitable heartbreak. But in that moment, all the walls he had built around himself came crashing down.
"One kiss, huh?" he whispered, a sad smile tugging at the corner of his lips. "You really think that's gonna settle anything?"
But before you could answer, Dean's hands found their way to your face, his lips crashing against yours with a hunger that surprised even him. It wasn't soft or tentative. It was desperate. A long-held desire finally given life.
When he pulled back, his forehead resting against yours, his breath ragged, he knew. He was screwed. Because now, there was no turning back.