#deanxamara

So I’ve been thinking about the season finale. My gut feeling during the season premiere was that the first scene of Dean and Amara in the eye of the storm was foreshadowing to also be the last scene of the season. Possibly of Dean and Amara in the Empty. You know, the moment when Dean screams “What the hell is going on?” and Amara slowly turns around and we only see a bit of her face.

I could see that happening, but only that would be too anticlimactic as a cliffhanger for S12, so I think if that scene was redone there would have to be a twist in the end and I kind of think it would be amazing if Amara turned around but while she turns around she morphs into Dean (because in the second act Dean becomes a woman for some time and you could see Amara as an embodiment of Dean’s dark side or as @sleepsintheimpala said part of Dean’s soul). And we are left with Dean staring at himself (Dark!Charlie / Good!Charlie parallel) in horror and bewilderment. Dean approaches other Dean.

It’s probably silly to spec about this tiny bit of information, but I just find this bit really interesting and important, because after all admitting there may be a problem - no matter in which way - is the first step to get better and this description to me sounds like it will be a step in the right direction.

If Dean is able to admit to himself and realize and identify that there is a certain hold Amara has over him then he is actually maybe a quater of the way there. Identifying and talking about something - especially if he opens up about it to others (that would be another major character development moment for Dean to ask or note that maybe he needs ~help) - may be scary, because in a weird sort of way it makes it real. Giving whatever it is that is going on a name, makes this thing tangible and with that changeable too though. It’s something you can do something against:

“Alter the sigil, alter spell!”

I’m sorry, but I will always come back to this line. Always. ;) But it fels really fitting in this regard.

Good morning anon!

No, I don’t ship them. Have said before will say it again. I find the bond Dean and her share an interesting yet troubling topic to meta about, because it is mind control. And in that regard comparable to what essentially is the big arc of Marvel’s “Jessica Jones” with Kilgrave or Castiel’s arc from S8 with Naomi.

So no, I don’t ship them, but I am interested in discussing and exploring in meta and spec if their bond is due to a part of Dean having remained in the Darkness and a part of the Darkness having remained in Dean when the mark was removed (my moth metas are largely about that) and that is why they gravitate towards one another and share a connection that is comparable to the one Harry Potter and Tom Riddle shared , which was just as unwanted as this connection is unwanted by Dean.

So no, I don’t ship them, I don’t see anything romantic in that arc at all, nothing equal. It’s a storyline about the loss of free will and someone asserting power over another person and controlling his mind (and it seems even body) to their liking. It’s non consensual, it’s terrifying, it’s Dean becoming Amara’s puppet, the scarecrow to Amara’s Calliope. And with that it is framed in no way, shape or form any different than Sam’s connection to Lucifer. And that’s has been made clear right from the beginning of the season, the mid season finale only made it as obvious as it was in the fine print before already. Both brothers integrity as a person is at stake. The mid season finale showed both helpless to forces much mightier than themselves that made it unmistakably clear that they can make them do whatever they want even if it’s the last thing one of the brothers wants.

And all that is definitely not something I would ever ship and want to ship. If you thought I did because of this tag “DeanxAmara” - I only recently created it because it was wished. I use it every time I am discussing Dean and Amara scenes, but it has nothing to do with shipping.

Amara on her own and without the mind control thing I find a really compelling an interesting character to talk about, because in the end limiting her to a mere love interest is exactly what this character imo was created to subvert. Especially when bringing feminism into the mix and the erasure of women in our history too. But that may just be me.