āÆ DE:CODE JANUARY EVALUATION: HEART POUNDĀ !
JANUARY 31ST 2020 FINAL PERFORMANCE
where he lacks in vocal lines, he more than makes up for it in the choreography ā and won is soĀ grateful for the chance, even if it makes him a little nervous.Ā
starting front and centre of their debut song ( even if not their first song, itās still what will go down in history as their official debut and he will be the centre faceā breathe ) is entirely terrifying. what excitement and pride he has is almost completely countered by fear and pressure, or rather, the dangerous combination of both. he doesnāt want to let anyone down or lose the audience in those precious opening seconds before the song really kicks in.Ā
( he reminds himself royal wouldnāt choose him for this if he isnāt capable of doing it, but it only helps until they start from the top and he takes position once again. everything about this is so surreal. )Ā
over the course of last month, with all the uncertainty and lack of confidence around learning his selection of potential lines, heād set himself the goal of mastering the choreography quickly enough to be of use to the rest of the group, particularly anyone less comfortable with dance. he knew heād be helping mingyu, not because his boyfriend isnāt capable, but because itās the perfect excuse to spend time alone with him, but heād feel more at ease helping where he can knowing that heāll lack on the vocal side. nothing had quite felt like itād fit him too well, but he expected ahead of time that the dance would be his chance to shine ā and he was right.Ā
it starts with relief that the references to gorillas arenāt so literal in the choreography. they bang on their chest enough for wonās to ache a little at first as he misjudges his movements, but beyond that, thereās little that links the titular animal to their stage. itās high energy, fun and full of moments fans can easily pick up on and perform with them. thankfully, too, it often allows the member singing or rapping to slow their movements or stand still almost to ensure stability when they add vocals. he doesnāt know just yet if theyāll be lipsyncing anything, and if at all, how much, but for the endless times theyāll likely perform this song, itās a valuable luxury to have. after his time on the mgas and subsequent focused training, heās pretty confident in how to balance everything but itās a skill that has to be learnt and practised, so he understands that not everyone is there yet; seasoned idols included. itās hard, after all.Ā
in practising and helping mingyu, he had become more comfortable with the choreography, too. by the time their final performance rolls around, heās feeling relaxed ā not complacent, but not stressed. he believes in himself and the work heās putting in, even if he had had his doubts when dragged to so jisubās office a week ago. itās easy in moments like that to think the worst, at least for won, but signing on the dotted line had lifted a weight off his shoulders and now he just wants to show the coaches what heās capable of and have fun doing so.Ā
the song starts soft before jumping to high energy like the flick of a switch. he takes pride in his starting position today, grins as he dances until they switch formations and jihoon takes over as centre with his opening line. he doesnāt sing until much later, so heās already instinctively putting all of his focus on his movements. when the time comes, heāll take it easier, but for now, heās giving it a hundred and ten per cent ā no more, no less, and what royal and more importantly,Ā de:code, deserve from him.Ā
although thereās no part he doesnāt like, the pre-choruses and ending are definitely wonās favourites of the stage. the former for their smooth movements, the latter for the playfulness of his and minhoās duo part. his expressions are natural yet practised, though thereās no cameras for him to find and direct them to. instead, he focuses on the coaches when heās closer to the front or centre, maintains what he believes to be a strong presence and performance from the second they start to the final formation, chest rising and falling steadily, breathing heavy.Ā
excitedly, he bows in gratitude to their coaches and grins. dancing always brings this out of him,; the adrenaline rush that convinces him heās readyĀ to tackle whateverās coming next. perhaps he wonāt feel so pumped when heās told whatever that may be, but for now, itās a welcome and warming feeling spreading through his chest that heās desperate not to let go of. itās all happening, preparations ticked off one by one andĀ debut so close. he canāt wait.Ā
