#ddbs

yassen retirementhoughts haunting me. does anyone have any ideas of what hey think he does… i think he wants an apartment in st. petersburg but commander hill and alex say it’s not secure enough so he does a slightly fancier cabin in thw woods situation outside the city and moves the fer de lance to a port in st. petersburg. i also think that we’ll he definitely doesn’t slack off he realizes that he can actually sleep more than 4 hours a night and still get done what he needs to do. and maybe sometimes he only exercises for 1.5 instead of two hours. i think he probably spends most of his time at home but occasionally visits malagosto to check up on alex and maybe teach some classes. and he takes a couple of contracts with the mafia but only if they’re genuinely challenging and require creativity because he wants to have fun. and he learns more languages and all sorts of skills with his free time but what else does he do….

Today I got back into playing Blue Skies (I took a break after getting Yuri and Natsuki’s good endings) and at this point Sayori’s route has made me feel every possible human emotion

No but do you ever think about how in ddbs, when Alex thought back to his RTI training, it wasn’t just that he basically got lowkey tortured for a week, but it was a torture Yassen actively participated in. It was Yassen holding his head under water at Dr Three’s orders, Yassen who stabbed down on his pressure points and injected him with the drugs. And maybe most of those two weeks are a blur to Alex and Alex knows Yassen did it because he wants Alex to survive, but on some level there has to be that memory of Yassen hurting him. Bruises that Yassen left on him! And yet still his trained obedience holds up and still Alex decides that he will trust Yassen with his life and the thoughts he can’t share with anyone else and afsfsgdgdh it’s so messed up and I love it