#daymaker

Her: Where were you?

Me: I was sent to a dark shadow world where I was with shadowhunters and I met two men who would make my heart beat. Together we kill the demons who break the law of the clave.

Her: .....

ME: and to be honest, we also break the rules AHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH

i think there's something special about me. i have an adoration for talking to people, genuinely asking them about their day. i do that because, if you think about it, not often are you asked about your day and someone actually cares. but i do. i want to help you through your bad day, or celebrate with you on your best day. maybe because no one genuinely asks me about my day and listens and responds in a way that helps me through or celebrates me. which is okay!! not complaining. there can only be one ceyde. i mean, i suppose i could ask myself about my day and really evaluate it. use my subconscious and higher self to respond. what did they see?

its funny because i actually used to hate peopling. it was draining when i had nothing to give, but that was because i was married to a narcissistic ass hole who took all my energy. ( i hope hes healing and on a better path these days) now i use spare parts to do things i love and i have the spare energy to lend. ive also learned to be present with the person im conversing with, when theyve left my space, i recycle their energy into love and light.