#day rant

And at the risk of sounding like a character from silence of the lamb, I was jealous. But then part of me was just like no that’s stupid your pettier, and you look amazing and your face is looking so good and your picking has been low, don’t be jealous of some girl.

I tried really hard but I guess I still am… After all my back looks awful. Im very aware of it.I try to ignore it. But it’s pretty hard when it’s ugly bumpy spotted skin.

Went swimming at my friends house and she read my blog… I try to be super honest with her cause she’s pretty much my best friend. But I wonder if she saw any thing I didn’t mention? I try to tell the truth all the time but I often forget to tell people things or just end up not saying anything cause timing and stuff…

And picking my back….l

I did something out of the ordinary and talked to a stranger inline at the store had a great intellectual conversation.

Got home at midnight. Started to bed at 1. Its now 9 minutes till two.. I may not be sleep till 3 and don’t know if I wasn’t too go to Monday night prayer at my church. Mostly cause I’m lazy. Buy I always feel better afterward.

But what was REALLY caught my attention was that I saw an old friend today, well actually an old crush.

So I went shopping and thought to myself, I'm gonna go see if he's working and sure enough he was! He works at a shoe place and I needed some new shoes, so it was kind of busy and I wanted him to help me since he gets commission there. But he was helping someone else and he took FOREVER so this other guy came and help and I tried to get him to go away but I let the guy help since my friend took forever. I bought the shoes, and since I was talking to my friend after he was done with the customer the guy gave me a discount since I knew him! So I was happy about that. So right after I bought the shoes my friend got off and I'm like what are you doing after and he's like let's get ice cream. I was shocked cause usually he wouldn't push to hang out with me. I would have to enforce it. So after everything we headed to frozen yogurt and he payed for mine! The last time we went out for ice cream he bought mine and now he did it again.

So we sat down and ate it and we were talking and I could tell he was happy to see me. I haven't really seen or talk to him since like October when we last saw each other at work. So we were talking and my other friend got off work from another store (I saw him earlier and asked for me to wait till he got off) He comes along and my old crush just stays quiet. Now the other friend is gay so I know he wasn't jealous but I think he was just happy that me and him were talking alone.

I noticed that a lot during the season when we worked that he was all happy and talkative when it was just us two, but when someone else came along, he's very quiet. But I don't know what that means