#daxndy

I’m so clumsy. I’m kind of slow. I suck with my words. I misunderstand and miscommunicate nearly everything, with everyone. My mind changes a lot. I have a pretty wild imagination. I’m indecisive and over analytical. I’m impulsive and emotional. I eat too much pizza and icecream. I laugh too loudly sometimes. I love too hard. Most of the time, I’m so wrong. I am so sorry for all of it…

Thank you to the ones who still stand by me through it. I love you all so much and I don’t say so enough, but I do. I don’t know where I’d be without your grace and forgiveness because I don’t deserve friends like you. I’m just blessed with you all.

I’ve only just realized now how much grace you guys give me. I mean, I knew before that you guys put up with a lot of shit from me, but I had to realize that I’ve taken it all for granted, the hard way. I thought, just because I give grace to others then other people should give it to me.

It doesn’t work that way. No one deserves grace. Grace is given and forgiveness is a form of grace, and without love, none of that exists. Just because you’re brave enough to come clean, doesn’t mean people have to forgive you for what you’ve done, no matter how sorry you are. It doesn’t matter what you willing to do to try and make up for whatever has been lost. To some people, none of that matters.

Robyn helped me come to terms with that ultimately, but she also reminded me that the people who have taught me that forgiveness deserve a thank you because it’s something that is so rare and I can’t imagine going through life without knowing.

how did ya kno