#dark lemon

Monkey D. Luffy

My guy may look all sunshine and rainbows but we know he's been going through a LOT

Keeping up to people's expectations, having the whole world on his shoulders

He wouldn't be there without his friends, no one would manage to go through that alone

But how does he keep that strength burning while you, you can barely get out of bed?

You wish you were that strong, not letting the world affect you, not letting your thoughts play with you

But you couldn't help but feel like a burden, Luffy didn't need someone like you in his crew

And Luffy knew, he knew something was going on with you, he could feel it

He knew the first time he heard you make self deprecating jokes

Luffy was the first to stay with you during your 3 am breakdowns

You'd expect him to be asking constant questions, but in reality Luffy kept quiet, letting you cry on his shoulder

He doesn't want you to be alone but will respect it if you need it, the last thing he wants is to make you feel worse

Luffy shares his food with you, because food brings him happiness (and so should do the same for you), but mainly to help you stop skipping meals

You were afraid the others would be jealous for having the Captain's attention but it were never the case, they would all join Luffy to help you feel better

Cat Burglar Nami

Nami was actually the first to notice but didn't want to startle you so she told Luffy since he's the Captain, who replied that he always had the feeling you were going through something but weren't ready to talk about it

And if Luffy had that assumption it had to be true

You had a hard time taking care of yourself, just getting out of bed in time to have diner with the others didn't happen often and someone had to wake you up so you don't skip all your meals

Nami offered to help, to which you shrugged, you didn't know how to help yourself and didn't want someone wasting their time on you

But she didn't take "no" as an answer

So Nami initiated you to ~Self Care~

Bubble baths, eating ice cream while reading a book, cooking together, nothing too demanding but anything that could help you relax and have fun

On days you weren't feeling it, those were the days she would stay by your side, because she knew it's when you needed someone the most

She would let you cry, talk about how tired you were, how you felt like giving up, and Nami would listen while holding your hand and help you calm down

She was really caring and patient with you

No matter what bullshit you'd spill out of your mouth, she never made fun of you

Roronoa Zoro

Zoro was the last one to notice, to no one's surprise

When he discovered you were depressed, he almost scolded everyone else for not telling him sooner (which they had before but his skull is so thick the info never reached his brain)

He even apologized if he had ever been too rough with you

You thought he wouldn't be able to understand how you felt, and he didn't at first, but he wanted to understand

He even asked the others to help him understand you more

He knew you were in pain but it wasn't like a physical wound you can treat with "bandages and booze" (Chopper's words so Zoro could understand)

He really wanted to give his support for you, in a Zoro-way

He would get you out of bed by saying he needs help with workout

And you wondered how the heck you could help him with that? You could barely lift one of the boxes from the pantry

Zoro had you sit on his back while he was doing push ups, that's what he meant

He heard from the others that one of the best ways to help you was to keep you busy, since emotional support wouldn't be his strong point

So he had you hang out with him while he worked out, listening to you talk about your day or rambling about the stuff that made you happy, stuff he made sure to remember in case it'd be needed in the future

He tried and that's something that would make you smile

Sniper King Usopp

Usopp had a pessimistic view on everything but that didn't mean he didn't care if a friend felt the same

He knew it wasn't for the same reasons as him and when the word came around that you had depression, he made it his goal to bring joy into your life

He would try to make you laugh, telling stories you knew were fake but you appreciated the effort

Even on days that it was more difficult to bring a smile to your face, he'd try

Giving up was an option he would never use with you, because he knows that you're doing all you can to not give up either

Usopp got the idea from Brook to tell stories where you were the main character, you thought it was a bit too much but Usopp always put so much heart into them you couldn't help but smile and laugh at his stories

Since Chopper is so gullible, he was sure those heroic stories about you were true and you didn't feel like breaking the fun so you just went along with it

They surprisingly helped you feel better with yourself, maybe not all the time, but believing in a "you" that could be the hero was a nice feeling

You thanked Usopp all the time for never giving up on you, for always trying even when you didn't feel interested or in the mood

Usopp never minded, that's what friends are for right?

Black Leg Sanji

Sanji grew up being seen as the weakest of the family, feeling worthless isn’t a new feeling for him

So he doesn’t want you feeling that way too, not on his watch at least

You can’t be sad with a belly full of delicious food, so he always try to cook something you’d like

Even when you don’t feel like eating, Sanji’s food is just too good you can’t refuse when he offers you something

Chores suck, but someone has to clean the dishes, without breaking it, so you get to help Sanji sometimes, which gives you the opportunity to talk to him

He’d often ask you how you’re doing, having a conversation with you, and you liked it, not only because it made the chores less boring but you didn’t fall into your own thoughts

Sanji is very caring and respectful of your boundaries, he won't ask questions that make you uncomfortable or force you to open up if you're not ready

Like he never meant to hide his past to his friends, he understands that some stuff are harder to talk about

Sanji will be the first one to scold Zoro whenever he says something insensitive towards you

He's like a big brother protective of his younger sibling, he never got the chance to act like one to his own family and is happy to give you that "caring big brother" support whenever you need it

Tony Tony Chopper

Doctor mode ON

Chopper helped you get proper treatment and kept tracks on how you're feeling

He's used on healing physical injuries but knew how to take care of mental illnesses too

He cried the first time he heard that you were suffering from depression, because he felt so bad for you, how could life do this to someone as caring as yourself?

He checked on you 2 or 3 times a week, to make sure you were okay and to give you a place to vent if you needed it, not just as a doctor but as your friend

On days you felt like taking some depression naps, Chopper would join you, sleeping on your laps or next to you (everyone found it cute)

LOTS of hugs whenever you felt down, everyone knows the best hugs come from Chopper because he's soft and cuddly (he will deny it tho)

Nico Robin

You feel that because she's not easily shaken by death and macabre stuff, you can open up about your intrusive thoughts without scaring her

Some were afraid because of her dark personality Robin would (involuntarily) contribute to your dark thoughts, but she's actually one of the crewmembers you enjoy hanging out with the most

And she understood you best, she was ready to die at some point in her life, so she gets why you'd want the same thing

You didn't want to have the others worry about you more than they already did so you always kept the worst part of your brain to yourself

Only to Robin you felt comfortable enough to cry how much you felt like dying most of the time, how everything was too much and could barely keep up because you felt too tired all the time

What did everyone do to stay so strong? Why were you the one cursed to feel like shit all the time?

Robin told you that you were strong, maybe even stronger that anyone in the crew, and that made you laugh, of course you didn't believe her

She explained that you could have ended it anytime, yet you kept hanging on life, and that was what made you stronger than anyone

Maybe you had a hard time believing it, but you trusted your friend's words

Robin joined you and Nami in your ~Self Care~ days, let you borrow her books or even read them to you when your brain couldn't let you read in peace

You liked the sound of her voice, how relaxing it was, only focusing on her voice and she didn't mind repeating if you spaced out

Cyborg Franky

Franky, just like Usopp, will try to make you laugh, because laughing is a SUUUPER medicine

He's more into trying to help you feel better, he knew you already had people like Nami to cry to when you were at your worst

Instead, he would show off with cool tricks and little robots he made for fun, like a dog with a flamethrower in its mouth

He even had you help him when he was cafting something

Sometimes he would ask how you were feeling, he told you he wanted to understand so he could help you better

Each effort was appreciated and taking the time to try and understand what you were feeling helped you trust others a bit more

You told Franky you had a hard time opening up, you didn't feel others would understand or even care

Of course Franky cried as usual but it couldn't be helped since he's a bit of a crybaby, everything made him cry

Soul King Brook

Brook lived 50 years all alone, all he had was himself and his thoughts

So he kinda gets what it's like to feel alone and stuck within your own thoughts

When you asked him how he managed to keep going all those years all alone, he responded that music keeps the soul alive

Hearing his songs really helped, they were always full of happiness

Brook gave you his support the best he could and it would be through songs

If he learned that you were in one of your depressed episode, he wouldn't hesitate joining you with a song to lift your spirit

If he saw you cry, he would find ways to make you smile, or even laugh a little with some of his skull jokes

First Son of the Sea Jinbe

Jinbe is a really sweet guy, very caring and super loyal

When he heard from Nami that you had a rough life, he wanted to help you

He worked on boosting your confidence, something he noticed you were lacking

He helped you see some of your qualities, if you couldn't see yourself positively he would try to make you see how the others saw you

You didn't want to bother him too much but he told you he was always happy to be helpful when it's needed

And he knows how much you needed it

Jinbe is one of the people you vent to the most because he's good with words, he knows the right thing to say to make you feel better

He's fine with hugs too in case you need them, plus he's so huggable