#danielleruns

It is my day off. I am posted up at my brother’s house doing laundry and drinking a smoothie and a coffee simultaneously. I am thinking about art and making art and how to make art and when I used to make art. I am also thinking about money and how to make money and how to save money and how to pay off debts. I might work on a little bit of both today, but my primary focus will be on having clean underwear for the next two weeks. 

I downloaded an app last week called ‘Waterlogged’ to track and push me to drink more water. Some days I drink exclusively coffee because I am garbage and tired forever, and I know that is terrible and this app is actually helping a lot. I’ll give it a lot of credit because the water in the little animated bottle moves and swishes if you tilt your phone and also when you reach your daily goal you have to push a button that says ‘I am successful’ and that feels damn good. 

I lost two pounds this week. I still can’t bring myself to run, but I am making changes in what I am drinking and what I am eating and how I am thinking and it is going a long way. First steps, right? The how I am thinking part is always the hardest, but you already knew that. My relationship with my body is awful and my mental health is a mess, but thats a conversation for a different day; its not dark enough to get so serious. 

Missing you, 

Hey hi, congrats to us on starting this thing we’ve been passionate about since fourteen minutes before midnight on December 31.

I don’t know where to begin. Like, I don’t know what to tell internet humans about my life anymore, or where to start, and I also don’t know how to take a first step. Is this a first step, making a thing? Am I nervous about a second? Am I afraid to fail again? Do I feel like I’m drowning? 

Yeah, that. Those things. 

One thing I do know is trying with you is one of my favourite things. Ever since the first time we met and I took you on a weird date in a mall and felt awkward because the Internet was leaking but holy shit, what a quality human. You’re still pretty decent, even when you say we can wear pyjamas and you show up in jeans. So, I guess let’s try. We took the first step and made a commitment blog on a couch in Kentucky and now we’ll take the next ones together. Encourage each other to do the things and try the things and take care of ourselves and get tiny pats on the back from Internet strangers. It’s what we do.

Some notables. -cats in trees (first because well) -miles on sit bones -casually swimming in neighbours pool while he mows -really getting down to the nitty gritty of the Ark I hope this weekend and the laughs will tide you over until August (allegedly) when we will ride again. I hope you had as much fun as I did and next time, maybe we should hit up the Ark Encounter.