It was getting closer.Ā Too close.Ā Soon Mareloen will leave and she will be left to take care of the estate.Ā Gone to Tevinter without her.Ā Just as she wishedā¦Ā Ā
But now things were different.Ā There was no one keeping her here.Ā There was Leon but wellā¦Ā
Her heart still aches thinking of such things.Ā She was silly to think that it would lead anywhere.Ā Even if he made her believe so she should have known better.Ā And yetā¦Ā
It was far too easy to get caught up in the fantasy of it all.Ā She used those words once with Mareloen and he didnāt seem to favor them all too much.Ā Her fantasy and his nightmare if she recalls correctly.Ā Something about how Leon would have succumbed to mortality in half a century and the problems it would have caused.Ā Genevive wonders⦠Sometimes it seems like Mareloen forgets that she too is mortal.Ā That she too will fall ill to the fate of humanity.Ā Half a century⦠To her it seems like a long while away but to Mareloen itās not much more than a blink of an eye sheād suppose.Ā They are so differentā¦Ā One day she will be gone and he living as if she never had existed.Ā Perhaps not at first but after a couple decades or centuries surely her memory must fade from his mind.Ā And there's a pang in her chest at such thoughts.Ā A sadness to it all.Ā When will it end?Ā All the hurtā¦Ā Genevieve remembers a time all she really felt was joy.Ā A time she was able to find the positive of even the most negative but it seems as if the tide has turned and such things are becoming harder and harder.Ā A certain despairā¦Ā A hopelessness to the future.Ā Ā
But alas⦠Best not dwell on such.Ā She can still put on a smile and pretend everything is alright.Ā For now that's all she can doā¦
Like now!Ā Grabbing the basket of goodies she puts on a smile and greets Mareloen as he enters the kitchen.Ā She was going to find him but this works too!Ā Ā
āGoodmorning,ā she greets all too cheery, the sound dancing off the walls to an almost eerie tune.Ā āI made you some muffins.Ā Theyāre fresh, straight from the oven.āĀ Recently Genevieve has taken up baking as a way to pass time when she wasnāt studying or training.Ā It was always easier to go to the market and buy her morning treats but now the market has become a place she avoids, everything reminding her of him.Ā āIām hoping they turned out better than the last batch.Ā I couldnāt even get Hawke to swallow one and that man will eat anything.Ā But Iām fairly certain I used the sugar instead of salt this time around.Ā Itās not my fault they look deceptively similar.Ā Quite suspicious if you ask me,ā she jests, holding one out for him.Ā āI used blueberries and lemon this time.Ā They smell quite good, hopefully theyāll match in taste.āĀ But her eyes shine, a sorrow laden deep within.Ā āI know it probably wonāt be as good as the ones Iād bring from the market but hopefully they arenāt too disappointing.āĀ Looking up at him she waits for him to take a bite, a tad nervous for some reason.Ā āI hope to perfect them before your journey.Ā I wish to slip a few in your pack.Ā Something to remember me by.Ā There are only a few days left before you leaveā¦āĀ Ā
Things were hectic to say the least.Ā Tevinter was no small journey after all and they needed to make sure Mareloen left with everything he needed.Ā If only he needed her as wellā¦Ā But alas.Ā It was her choice.Ā Her decision.Ā And she doesn't have the heart to ask to come with.Ā Not when they spent the past couple of weeks going over her tasks and duties here while he was away.Ā There were too many responsibilities that needed to be taken care of and there was no one else to do them but her.Ā