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| Nightmare [passive] belongs to @/jokublog

When I think of every BTS member I struggle with definitions, not only because they’re unique but also because they’ve set the pace, the standard and the level. Consequently they can’t be closed in a specific already existing box and scheme, they’re everything the world has never seen before. Only time, death, only the long run till their very end will make us all able to look back and realize what they really were. Whether you stayed with them from the start, met them along the way or never did.

Thinking of Yoongi now I feel the most grateful I could be. Because what happened to him wasn’t easy, his life wasn’t. Some people had it easier, more gentle, more merciful. He didn’t.

And that latest scandal, just like any reports regarding BTS members, was only aiming at punishing him and making him miserable rather than actually solving the case and moving on, looking at the facts and the circumstances instead of spreading misinformation and hatred. The way these guys have become some sort of ashtray where people throw their rotten, frustrated and unsolved emotional leftovers should be seriously studied.

I don’t know what kind of internal flow he has been through. I have no idea. We don’t know if he has recovered from all that, if he’s trying to but struggling, if he completely did and what’s gonna happen when he’ll be back. All I know is that his resilience has been an example for many, me included, and that the affection and respect I feel for him are so grounded that I wish him happiness and fulfillment, all the time, but also that bit of sadness or anger that balances life out. I care for him so much - and for every member - that I don’t wish for any emotion to be taken away from them forever, ever. Not even sadness or anger, even though I’d love to know that my loved ones - celebrities or not - can’t feel anything far from joy.

But that’s not how life works. And that’s not how that “future’s gonna be okay” phrase works either. It loses its meaning otherwise. And Yoongi has helped me really embracing and digesting it like a wise poet helps you from another country or another century with their words. He has honored his purpose as an artist in the best way he could, and I hope he’s aware of that.

The tears on stage, the songs, the lyrics, the productions, the speeches, the depth of his mind and being, his good hearted spirit and genuine humor that came out on Suchwita, and that had always been there if you learned to pay attention to him, all of this and more have been great examples. Not that I’m trying to turn him into some sort of self-development book or attraction... take this more as a form of recognition and appreciation. Yes, his struggles and past, his choices and opened mind, his beauty in every aspect are appreciated around here.

And as I was saying, what I’ve learned the most from him is how human and intelligent it can be, at times, to let yourself fall. To let yourself disappear for a while, or don’t know what to do with yourself and your persona. To let yourself bend without breaking entirely, but to also let some pieces of yourself fall off in order to build new and stronger ones. I miss him and treat him like he’s some sort of rare stone or oasis in the desert when he’s seen publicly, but deep in my heart I know he knows better for himself.

He’s graceful, no matter what. You could find him in the lowest place and still get a glimpse of some sort of effort or hope to stay united, whole. To don’t let himself get lost anymore like he used to. And I process how seriously involved I am with these guys when I realize that no matter how low or high they can get, in every corner of their life and career, I’ll always stick around and support.

These are just words on top of other words on top of OTHER words that I’ve written on here an insane amount of times, I’m aware. But these 21 months have been an emotional baggage not very easy to carry around.

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Oh hello Nayeon!!

Thank you so much! I'm really excited and nervous too for friday...I want to give it my best as performer and give a great memory for ARMY. Excited I am for finally being back on stage and being able to tour from that day on though it will still surely feel different and weird at first without my 6 brothers.

I'm curious if I'll spot you in the crowd and send off?

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