#creatingbalance

Listen👂🏾I don’t care what anybody tries to make you believe - life is messy for all of us. Some people are just better at hiding their mess. We all have private areas of our lives not for public display. As my mom would say FYEO (IYKYK).

Suppressing the messy parts of our lives is what creates harmful imbalances - inhumane secrets - and trauma that will spill onto someone, somewhere, someday. You might not want to put your mess on front street like some of us choose to - but find a healthy outlet for how you feel about that part of your life.

How do you say it all, without speaking at all? What is the universal language? Is it through images and visual art? Music and dance? What if we were to make our bodices themselves a symbol? Aren’t we already?

Over the past few weeks, I have been finding in a variety of situations, that words themselves have not really been the best method for communicating my thoughts clearly. Hence, the absence of writing. 

On a recent trip back to Michigan, where I moved from just over a year ago, I spent a day with my sister. We Stopped at a sculpture garden she randomly found one day and thought I might like to see it. Turns out, she was right and I did really enjoy it.

 A few years ago, on a trip with my sister and her then fiancee, now husband, to San Francisco, we accidentally stumbled upon a temporary sculpture garden in Crissy Field. The temporary sculpture garden was a serious of work by Mark di Suvero. As we walked through the field, we didn’t talk much, but rather just enjoyed the moment and took photos of the different angles of the sculpture we each found to be the most interesting. Since then, it seems that visiting sculptures with my sister provides an experience we both enjoy, and seems to be an unspoken bridge for communication between us. The sculptures themselves say what I can only think to describe as us both enjoying form for being form, shapes for being shapes, and connected to each other through the sculptures to an even deeper value we both have, finding the joy in simplicity. 

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Balance

My “new years resolution” for this year was/is about creating balance. Balance within myself, and without in my life. How much is too much? What is not enough? How do you know when it’s juuuust right? 

I am finding that balance in the now seems to be weighing equally the past and the future. Bridging the old with the new. Changing bad habits and countering them with good ones. Staying grounded, while also remaining open to new opportunities. 

One without the other is just one. With one there is no other, but if there isn’t an other, than there can’t even be one. 

“That doesn’t mean the opposite ideas are automatically true: you can’t escape the madness of crowds by dogmatically rejecting them. Instead, ask yourself: how much of what you know about business is shaped by mistaken reactions to past mistakes? The most contrarian thing of all is not to oppose the crowd but to think for yourself.” - Peter Thiel

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Reading: Zero to One by Peter Thiel

Listening: Efterglow by Erki Panrnoja