#courfjolras

Please note that Poll Stealing is NOT active in this round!

summary: Courfeyrac finally begins to settle into the team, but the season isn't going well. Barcelona lose another match and yet he's not discouraged, there's a hungry fire burning in his belly, a belief so strong that it hurts. Still, there's one thing that rankles at him: Enjolras. Combeferre warns him that he likes to be alone after losses, but Courfeyrac just can't let it go. After all, what is there in the world that a tupperware full of homemade stew and a positive attitude can't fix?

pairings: courfeyrac/enjolras, courfeyrac & enjolras

Okayyyy here you go !

I'm going modern Era for this one

Let's start there : Enjolras is aromantic and really confused about romantic relationships

Also I am going with trans Enjolras in any headcanon I make

Enjolras and Courfeyrac met at the beginning of High school and became best friends

And as time goes by they also both get real hot

Like really really hot

And man the ✨sexual tension✨ from the start

But no real feelings aside from sexual tension though

And everyone was like "so... Is there anything going on here ?"

Anyway one day they decide to hook up

And it's like

Really really good

So they decide to stay friends but hook up occasionally

And Courfeyrac has to explain the whole Friends with benefits concept because Enjolras is a dork who didn't know there was a word for this

When other people find out they start saying stuff like "be careful in this relationship you could catch feelings for each other"

And Enjolras gets really confused like no ??? Why would I ever get feelings for my best friend ?????

And Courfeyrac claims that "yeah he is really hot and amazing in bed but man ?? He writes speeches about France and has a whole collection of french flags in his room ??? I'm too cool for a relationship with that guy"

And all the others are just so done with them

Sometimes they are all in a room and all of sudden sexual tension starts rising like crazy

"Jeez just get a room you two"

Also sometimes they shower together and Courfeyrac goes " what the F*CK is that for a shampoo" and then he starts buying Enj proper hair care products

Because Courfeyrac LOVES Enjy's hair

Like he is always playing with them and trying to braid them

"but Jehan look they are so long and golden and uuuhhh beautiful"

"Courf we get it stop talking about his hair"

Totally off the subject but they love starring into each other's eyes and get totally mesmerized doing it

Anyway this rant was too long I need to stop so yup here I am with my headcanons <3

Courfeyrac is happy

He’s so fucking happy

He smiles until his cheeks hurt and his jaw cramps

He waves at strangers and winks at friends

He’s the centre; he’s the heart

He is a bundle of joy with laughter that is so contagious that the people around him have to laugh too

Courfeyrac is happy

It doesn’t matter that the smile never reaches his eyes

That his heart is like an ocean;

Waves of pain smashing against its cage walls

As unforgiving as his mind

A cold loneliness beating in time with his heart

It’s only when he begins to feel so constantly alone

Even when surrounded by so many people

Only when he begins to find it difficult to choke back tears

Muffled into pillows, biting down on his hand

Screams that never leave his body

When he lays awake at night with a ringing so powerful in his ears

that he wishes for the world to go silent

That maybe he thinks he’s not so happy

He’s lying, he’s pretending

He’s a fucking attention seeker

And he should keep quite and keep smiling

He’s fine, he’s okay

He has no reason to be upset

(It’s more than just sadness

His sadness is not a cup of water being thrown at him

He is downing)

Courfeyrac is happy

And his friends wonder how he does it

How he’s always smiling

But he knows the only way he’ll ever truly smile

Is if they cut him from ear to ear

So when he looks in the mirror

Tears staining his cheeks

Blood on his floor

He thinks to himself

He thinks

I am happy

He is being eaten up from the inside

And it’s so very dark in here

His face wants to grimace and contort in pain

But the years of pretending no longer allow it

And he is sure there must be a rock bottom

A floor

Though when he hits it he finds no blessing

Because he doesn’t have the energy to crawl back up this time

Depression is unseen, unheard

A silent killer

And he blinks back at the person he sees in the mirror

It is not him

It has not been him for a long time now

He doesn’t know what replaces him

But this Courfeyrac has to be happy

Without a sound he plummets downwards

Engulfed in the dark nothingness

That is as merciless as sinking sand

There is less light

Less air

He knows he should find a branch to hold onto

A fragment of hope

But he no longer wants to

And he finds that his life has no chapters

No story

No purpose

Just white, blank pages that he doesn’t want to fill

When they find him

He is laying on his bathroom floor

His head is empty

His heart is empty

His body is empty

And there is no pulse

And finally, Courfeyrac is happy

Inspired by: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24775954

Enjolras: no, we actually just stayed home

Enjolras: Courfeyrac taught me some new finger patterns

Combeferre: ...on his guitar

Enjolras:

Combeferre: right??

Enjolras:

Combeferre; right?

YOU FEEL ME

oh my god i have the most beautiful mental image of courfeyrac and enjolras, bottles of the cheapest white wine they could find in front of them, drinking from whatever’s clean, watching jane the virgin (courfeyrac is team michael, enjolras team rafael. they don’t talk about it) which is not a shitty tv show but definitely the kind of show those two would binge watch are you fucking kidding me subtle political commentary and minority representation and ‘it’s like a telenovela, enjolras, it’s incredible’