it must be nice to be able to lay flat on your back and watch movies, tv shows, read books, and half ass your homework while i'm sitting here pissed off because basically even if i do great in college and get my diploma i'm not guaranteed access to grad school even with a 3.8 GPA and scoring in the 50th percentile on the GRE test. IT MUST BE NICE TO NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING THAT'S GOING ON IN YOUR SURROUNDINGS WHEN YOU DON'T HAVE TO FUCKING WORRY ABOUT A JOB BECAUSE YOUR MOM WORKS FOR THE FUCKING CIA AND MAKES THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS AND YOU CAN LIVE OFF THE MONEY YOUR FATHER LEFT YOU. it must be nice to able to not give 10 shits whether you survive college with a 3.0 or with a 2.0 and know you still have 2 great governmental jobs when you go back home.
i'll be going home back to work at a freaking grocery store with no diploma even with a decent GPA and no access to grad school because schools have made it damn near difficult to get into with decent GPAs and test scores. Why? i have no damn idea but they say there is a high demand for Speech-Language Pathologists, but they've made it so damn difficult, not even 10% of the graduating class this year got into a school. a girl in my ASL class had a 3.7 GPA and scored within the 50th percentile on the GRE and also had all the recommendations and extra curriculars to get into grad school AND SHE STILL DIDN'T FUCKING MAKE IT for Speech-Language Pathology?
I can change majors, but this will make the 3rd time in 4 years and i'm still no where closer to my degree than i was back in the fall. i'd be classified as a sophomore (when i'm really a senior in credit standing) and would be having to take summer classes even if i really don't see the point in it. i can minor, but my minor would also make me be here ANOTHER semester regardless, therefore just putting me back to being a sophomore.
i have cried, i called my parents, i've screamed at my roommate for getting into my business, i've thrown countless of papers away because college is pretty damn worthless if you can't get the degree you want when college makes it pretty damn difficult to get into the school you need to go to for graduate level courses. i've never failed at anything in my life, but college is proving to me that all i am is a failure in their eyes. not even the best of the best can get into grad school for speech-language pathology without a fucking 4.0 or the best of the best GRE scores. THERE ARE MORE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD THAT ARE JUST AVERAGE THAT WOULD LIKE THE SAME FUCKING CHANCE AT THAT KIND OF LIFE THAT THE BRANIACS ARE GIVEN ON A DAY TO FUCKING DAY BASIS.
i'm just an average junior ranked senior with wanting to better her life and she can't even do it because colleges are making it too damn difficult to even function, let alone afford.
