damned to loving you - c.m
corbin mims x fem!reader
summary: after a challenge stirs up too much drama for even the Villa to handle, you've been avoiding Corbin. But he just won't have that.
genre: angst
notes: not prood read. one-shot. i need this man i fear. also not accurate to the show rules (reader is reading a book) or the timeline of the episodes - idk bruh i made up some stuff
inspired by damned by miguel
STRAY STRANDS OF YOUR LOOSELY plaited hair had escaped and were now dancing along your temples, fluttering gently in the warm breeze. You sunk deeper into the feathery comforts of Soul Tie's cushions, the subtle bronze tan your legs had earned from these weeks in sun glowing faintly with the sunlight.
A comfortable sigh parted the pillow of your lips as your finger skimmed the bottom of the page. The book was supported by your thighs, resting on your lap and having you totally enraptured by the story it was painting in your mind.
Distantly, the ripples of conversation thrummed through the walls of the Villa, voices carried faintly on the wind towards your ears. No inkling of attention could be spared to its topics however, for you were much too disposed here--swathed in the constructions of your own peace.
Well, that was until the soft thudding of footsteps prompted your gaze away, scanning to discover the source of the noise.
And identifying hastily that the origin of those steady steps was none other than the towering, olive-toned man approaching you, the corners of his mouth curled up into the beginnings of a smile.
Not a smirk or grin or something deviating from a mischievous intent. Only a achingly deep softness that yanked at the heart between your ribcage.
Corbin.
He stalled just before the circular edge of the daybed.
"Mind if I sit?" The deep timbres of his voice rumbled, extending the laced offer in a gilded presentation.
In that split, lulling breath, you felt all the reasons you should deny him swell up, so high in your chest that its seemed to press into your lungs. But then you caught that almost nervous gleam in the honeyed brown hues of his stare, the way he was subtly clenching his fist as though taken by timidity.
It didn't suit him--that tenseness that looked to be barricading his usual confidence, that seemed to have unsettled his balance.
With an almost indiscernible dip of your chin, you quietly accepted. "Okay."
In a few brief movements he was situated beside you, forearm resting atop his bent knee, bare chiseled chest caving with the extent of his sigh. The distance he maintained between your forms didn't pass without notice. Usually, when he was close, he ensured to be pressed up against you, your bodies in constant contact.
Now, he'd enlisted the weight of this separation. Instinctively, you wanted to bridge the gap, to burrow your face in the crook of his neck as you had done so many times before.
But, you refrained, allowing the languid perusal of your contemplation to rove across him.
The silence between you was firmed by the swirling tempest of words teetering on the edge of your lips--things that were probably better left unspoken. But still, you felt them.
Floating in the air, so palpable you could almost reach out and feel its textures.
In the end, none of those words came. Instead, Corbin's gaze flittered lower, to where your book was perched in your lap. He gestured towards it with the inclination of his chin. "Juliette still pissed at Warner?"
Your lips parted, accompanied by the slightest widening of your eyes. "You remember me tellin' you about that?"
The faint twang of your accent furled around the question, made a near impalpable arc take form on his mouth.
His eyes were dark usually--so much so that you had initially thought them to be brown when you first met. But now, with the sunlight streaming across his face, the intensity of his rich, hazel eyes swirled together the vibrant shades of chestnut and a foresty green, ringed by marigold.
"I remember all the shit you tell me." He said it so quietly it could've been a whisper.
The sincerity in his tone made your stomach roil with a distinctive kind of grief. Your face must have bared the effects of that declaration because you watched as his smile faltered, as his hands bunched into the fabric of the daybed as though to keep himself grounded. To keep himself from extending his touch in comfort.
You faintly shook your head, as if it would help clear away the haze of that emotion. Then, in a hushed admission, you said, "We probably shouldn't be talking right now."
You were right, of course. Ever since that challenge. You were, at least as the show proclaimed, "single and vulnerable". Corbin was coupled up with Kenzie, the choice given to America.
Were you so foolishly hopeful to think if the decision was in his hands, it would've been you who he would've picked as his connection?
The answer to your wondering was of no value regardless.
Three nights ago, under the guise of an exciting, sexy slumber party, the show had presented a challenge: find your connection while under the limitations of a blindfold and mark them with your unique color of paint.
You, having no partner, were simply instructed to stir trouble. To slather your hands in paint and touch and tease.
Simple enough.
So, you indulged in the blind crash of mouths and tongues and bodies. It was thrilling, erotic.
Until you had reached him.
You'd known immediately when your lips touched his that it had been Corbin who your hands slid along, guiding down the planes of muscle and heat he gave. Had known by the familiar way he positioned his hands at the dip of your waist, the curve of your nape. The way he let a muffled fuck escape his thoughts and rumble against your colliding lips. The way he gripped a fistful of your hair and slung your thigh over his lap so you were straddling him, pressing your weight down.
How when you'd begun to retreat, knowing this kiss had lasted too long, that this kind of stirring trouble would only bring consequences--he had grasped you by the hips and held you down, eager for more.
And when it was revealed that you were branding each boy with sticky streaks of white paint.
And when everyone saw that all the paint smeared across Corbin was tinted lighter, that coatings of white were along his cheeks and stuck in hair and plastered along his broad chest.
More so than any other boy.
Trouble was stirred indefinitely.
By the end of the night, word of Kenzie and Corbin's argument had journeyed through every hall and staircase of the Villa and curled around every ear.
Including yours.
Especially yours.
Since you were the topic of the disagreement.
You had attempted to pull Kenzie for a chat to discuss the events of the challenge, to maybe quell the rising tensions and squash any drama. But ultimately, you could only offer an apology.
Had you really taken it too far? You supposed so and had tried your best to make amends.
And in the days since the slumber party, you'd been carefully, tactfully avoiding Corbin. When he joined a conversation, you discreetly left, feeling only the heavy poundage of his stare burning along your spine as you walked away. In the morning, when he delivered breakfast to Kenzie, you kept your head down, eyes locked onto any sight other than him.
He noticed. Of course he did.
He'd lasted half a day of it--of your silence, of only hearing your laughter at a distance and not directed towards him, of constantly seeking your gaze only for it to be cast elsewhere.
He had walked up to you while you were buckled over in a fit of laughter from something Aniya had said. For that flicker of a instant, he breathed lighter at the sight of you with such joy.
He'd asked to pull you for a chat.
You hesitated--the plushness of your bottom lip caught between your teeth as you mulled over it.
And, you had denied him.
He'd wanted to protest, to demand it, to plead for just a moment to simply talk. Instead, you had watched the muscle in his cheek shift as he clenched his jaw, nodding tightly before walking away.
You'd watched every step he took as it carried him farther. Wished every second that he would turn back around.
But then, out of the rims of your vision, you descried a heavy glare from where Kenzie was sat not so far away, and you quickly ripped your attentions back.
A night later and his endurance fumbled again.
He caught you as everyone was getting ready for bed. You'd misplaced your water bottle, having forgotten it in the kitchen earlier in the day. He'd slipped out the bedroom without notice from anyone else and followed you down the stairs.
Fiji's night had carried a chill that raised goosebumps all along your flesh, causing a faint shiver to wrack your frame. The darkness swathed the Villa in one large, inky blanket, neon lights and the moon being the only instances of illumination.
And when Corbin had said your name, the octaves of his call balancing just below a shout--you'd startled in a jump, a sharp yelp escaping you as he'd taken you by surprise.
When you turned to be greeted by the sight of him, relief doused your body, the hand you had splayed against your chest measuring each heaving breath,
He'd let out a light, slightly amused chuckle, along with an apology. "My bad, ma. Didn't mean to scare you."
Ma. Your heart twisted at the sound of that nickname. How it only ever left his mouth when you were around.
Then the confrontation hit.
You didn't deign any interest in the conversation, but he wouldn't grant you the liberty of evading him this time.
You had argued. He had raised his voice in frustration. You failed to take that in jest.
The peaceful conversation Corbin had imagined transformed to a screaming match. So much so that Sincere and Bryce had rounded the corner of the staircase with Trinity not far behind, their eyes wide in confusion.
Trinity had consoled you, asking for the details of what the hell had happened as she led you to the glam room.
The whole Villa went to sleep later that night. And when they did sleep, you didn't, too suffocated by the heat of your anger and the billowing of unease straining your conscience.
And now, for the first time in a day, since that late night dispute, Corbin faced you once more.
We probably shouldn't be talking right now.
Your utterance clamored in his mind. It resided with truth. But he still couldn't summon enough of a care to address it.
"To be honest, I don't give a fuck what we should be doing."
You looked up at him then, surprise flickering through your eyes as they met his own.
You watched the swell of his chest as he inhaled a powerful breath, as though steeling himself. "I shouldn't have yelled at you the other night. That shit's on me," he spoke clearly, each vowel potent and assured. No trace of hesitance or ingenuity in the statement.
He held you captive in his gaze, never letting his eyes stray.
"Yeah, you were a real piece of shit," you agreed. The insult held no real intent behind, for a teasing inflection imbued your every syllable. The brittle smile that your humor earned from him sewed together whatever cracks had been left in your chest since your argument.
"I'm sorry, too. For avoiding you," you relinquished your grip on any pride that still dwelled, prepared to strike still after the hurled, hurtful things you both had spoken that night. "Just with Kenzie and the challenge, I didn't wanna start any more drama, you know. And, Kenzie is my friend and all."
Your eyes had fallen downcast, towards where you fidgeted by twisting your fingers together.
You felt his hand brush along your jaw. His thumb settled on your chin and tipped your face up. "Yeah, I get that," he murmured lowly, his pupils dilated as they roamed across the curves of your face. "Fuck, but, don't do that no-talking-to-me bullshit again, alright."
"I missed talking to you." The confession slipped past your lips.
Maybe you should've caged that thought deep into the crevices of your mind, hidden behind the heavy walls of your heart.
But, maybe, because of the gentle notes in his voice as Corbin whispered back, "Me too."
Maybe that made it worth it. Worth the risk of it all.
"Stop looking at me like that," you ordered when you saw his eyes plunge to the bow-shape of your mouth.
"Why?"
His eyes were fastened to the shape of your lips as they delivered your response.
"Because it usually only gets us in trouble."
His vivid hazel gaze, framed by a sweep of dark lashes flickered up to fully grasp your attention, to fix you to the substance of his words.
"We like trouble."
And then, his mouth was colliding against your own.
And you weren't stopping him, damn it all.













