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El Tango de Roxanne 

March 19, 2023 evening

Continuation of this post, more of Conor and Courtney and the whole cast making me utterly deranged because their performances are everything.

Again the choreography of this song makes me completely insane. It’s so good. The desperate leaps and tosses as Christian reaches out for her? 🤌🏻 mwah

Toulouse has spectacles. That’s it. That’s the note. He also plays much more into the? Limp? In this act

“Awww! Well see he gets a prop!”

✨A dying whore✨

“What would you have her wear?! A raspberry bardndjskskskskso?!! Hahahhahaha!” (His derangement here)

“My little girl loves to sparkle…all my things sparkle.”

In the apartment Christian hugs her tightly. As if he squeezes her enough she’ll start to believe in happy endings.

Christian is the one to make fun of accents this time, imitating a French one

“Suddenly my life doesn’t seem such a waste” oh baby…

I just wrote “I can see his chest hair… slut.” I’m right.

Satine wearing her crimson dress in the middle of the rich pastels 💕 ughhhh symbolism

It’s the fact the duke is giving her everything she’s ever asked for. That she might have been content if she hadn’t met Christian and got a taste of real love and not just comfortable existence- she wants something else now.

THE HAT FALLS OFF IN A GENUINE STAGE MISTAKE! HE TRIES TO PUT IT BACK ON HER AND SHE IMMEDIATELY TAKES IT OFF shsksksksk

Christian in red! Christian in burgundy! More more more more

“Like his god damn pet. Every beautiful thing in you compromised by his lust and money.”

“She wants to die for love”

“Yes!”

Christian just stands there after his outburst. The reality of what he has down slowly begins to wash over him and he immediately tries to apologize, but it’s way to late

Zidler’s cane is a flask

Santiago scolds Christian like Toulouse scolds Satine, I think it’s a interesting show of dynamics to show who gets hard truths from who.

“Drink, rage, forget” it’s now occurred to me that Roxanne is Christian’s rage, but instead of forgetting he goes to the dukes place completely hammered and thinks of satine even more.

Conor is particularly brilliant with this as he’s struggling to process these emotions. This hurt. This confusion. This- want. He wants to forget about her, he wants to take her and run away. He can’t understand just why and how obsessed he is.

He’s begging out to the universe in Roxanne. Someone must understand him! Someone has to hear him! Why does she do this? Hurt herself with the duke? Why is everyone treating him like he’s insane for being upset? Why can’t he just love her normally? IT’s everything!!

“Help me I’m holding on for dear life!”

Christian is giving Jack Nickerson in Crazy rolling . You can’t tell if he’s going to laugh or cry, probably both.

“You had my heart inside of YOUR hannnnnd~”

it’s implied Christian’s always been…on the edge… his verse talking about his hero’s, always wanting to come to Momantre and now understanding why their lives ended early? OW

When they come together there’s more confetti and when she collapses in his arms he laughs and looks around as if it was a joke and 😭

Again the translation between scene and narration is seem less and “I’m telling this story and it’s still fresh and I’m caught up in it now”