Iām do t know if Iām gay or pan and itās really stressing me out
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Iām do t know if Iām gay or pan and itās really stressing me out

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Religion: I donāt even know.
I was raised in a Christian home, Southern Baptist to be exact. There was a multitude of rules, the way to live was strictly outlined, and for pretty much all of my childhood, I reveled in it. In my teen years, my religiousness flourished and it became my identity. I would have sworn Iād never doubt it. Even the slightest suggestion of doubts made me feel guilty and anxiety-ridden. I simply didnāt consider any other alternatives because I knew what I believed and the foundation of my beliefs was strong and ingrained. That was enough for me. My beliefs defined me.
And today? I simply donāt know. I donāt know what I believe and it terrifies me. Things that used to feel so black and white, suddenly feel shortsighted, inadequate, and even intolerant and ignorant at times. Religious people and their piousness and prejudices repulse me. Churches make me uneasy. Doctrines seem almost ludicrous.
When I hear people talk of prayer, itās often for things that seem so inconsequential that Iām baffled. If God hears our prayers and answers them, then why waste time on trivial things? Why not cure world hunger? End tragedies? However, if God hears our prayers and still does whatever He wants, then why pray at all? The world seems so big and problematic, that itās hard to imagine wasting Godās time with your lost cat or your childās cough.
As an adult, itās hard for me to ignore that there appears to be a direct correlation between religiosity and lower intelligence. I look at these people, many of which used to be my best friends and think āis this really the way it is? The way God is?ā The thing is, it was easy to never questioned before because I trusted my parents. This, Christianity, is what they told me is truth. Though they both still say they believe, neither of them attend church or participate in anything faith related. If they really believe this is truth, then why donāt they embrace it? Why not do something about it?
Since the beginning of time, myths and stories have been told to explain things people did not understand. Explanations were made to offer comfort or control behavior. Is the Bible any different? Is a Rainbow really a promise from God? Or simply an arch of colors formed in the sky, caused by the refraction and dispersion of the sun's light by rain or other water droplets in the atmosphere?
When I look at naturally beautiful things, itās hard for me not to imagine something bigger than myself, bigger than this world. The Grand Canyon, the expanse of the oceans, the grandeur of the mountains, the miracle of childbirth - all of these things make me think that it canāt be all by chance. That this canāt be all there is.
And the most pressing question of all: what do I teach my children? How do I answer their questions?
I. Donāt. Know. What. To. Believe.
..what would u call...?
You know when people take over your Facebook and right funny stuff when you'r not looking... Its called FRAPE? What is it called if someone dose that to your tumblr.?.... just happend so i don't know what to call it? :SĀ
As of now...in my head
No women who gave you her all should have to pick up the pieces and rehash memories with you cause you've realized the stupidity in your brain & body.. I can't shake the disgusted feeling & sad that the person I had faith in & high hopes with only has these feelings now cause he got it out of his system.. Strong in my heart & mind.. I can be alone, I love it honestly, but hugs & cuddles from a certain teddy bear would be nice.. I've not moved on, I just... Need the affection.. And you take things away when we don't talk or think.
UNBELIEVABLE
Christopher and I went to the doctor today to find out how far along we are. To ourĀ surpriseĀ we were told some pretty interesting news.Ā
FIRST OF ALL.. OUR DUE DATE IS APRIL 5TH!!!!
Now the interesting news...
1. He told us that I was 4 months and 3 days along. O.o There is no way that I can be that far along.
That would mean that RIGHT when we stopped trying to hard and stopped takingĀ disappointingĀ pregnancy test is when it finally happened.Ā
It would also mean that what I though had been my period was not. I have always have irregular periods from PCOS but I have also been very light.Ā
2. For being this far along I have had little to no morning sickness. There was about a week that I had been really sick but I thought it had just been a virus because I had no other pregnancy symptoms.Ā
Also for being this far along I am showing nothing! Just bloat which is normal. Turns out its not bloat, its baby!
To say the least we were VERYĀ surprisedĀ today. I am still a blt skeptical about the date but for now I will trust the doctor.Ā
I know I should be happy, AND I AM! but im also a little sad because I missed the entire first trimester. I wanted to have that whole happyĀ experienceĀ which I know I will get still.

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